nowadays i want to see you in my daydreams when we were together living the life we once wished for before it all happened and you were taken from me by him his words his torment im sorry i couldn't save you before it was too late now im laying here wishing you were here and not 6 feet under cause last time i saw you, you were hanging from a white rope necklace with your last words not even once mentioning me but you will always know i loved you and now its too late to show you and im sorry but ill promise you ill see you soon baby
Isnt it strange to think that in this very moment as we speak someone is lying alone on their death bed contemplating between life and death reigniting love with an old lover to be tightly wrapped in an warm embrace or even writing a suicide note. considering different ways to say goodbye? right this moment someones heart is beating rapidly from a first **** and someones is shattering from a goodbye..
i tried i ******* tried i poured my heart out i ripped my skin apart... just for some closure and you didnt even bother you saw i was hurting and you saw i was crying and i tried i tried to stop it i tried to be everything you needed everything you wanted but i was never enough and im scared ill never be so i dont know if i should if i should keep trying or should i give up like i have with everything else
come here and lay with me in baggy t-shirts with nothing on underneath under the sheets lets cuddle keep close together holding me tight kissing me softly until we fall asleep so come lay with me ...
It all started with yelling and screaming, some nasty comments here and there it’s my entire fault, I’m not the perfect child you asked for and trust me i know i never will be. I’m sorry I’ve made mistakes and I’m a massive **** up...... if in was here for a reason it better be a good one because i don’t know how much longer i can stay in this household and ratchet excuse I’m meant to call my life I’m only at the age of 17 years old and have been told i have so much more to live for but that must be all a joke on my behalf if I’m a failure at everything i seem to do as the rain drops on my face I can't help but feel as though I was made to cry. I was made to be weak. I was made to be a stain of mascara sludge. but then i realized if it weren’t to rain I’d still be in this situation I’d still be the one crying, i swear I’m made for internal misery.. Some are just born with tragedy in their blood i mist be one of them, but all i can do is ******* hope as i lay on the road with the rain falling all around
Life. what what does it mean. when does it really start and when does it end? what do we get out of it, why does it go on? why dont all of us end it short, when does the pain of it start? why do some have it better then others, why cant we all be happy? why doesnt the struggle stop. when will it get better? who decides what happens, why do they decide what happens. why dont we ever get a warning when things are going to happen? we never are prepaired for whats next, but thats life its one big adventure
Just lay on the shower floor, crying in a little wall whilst cold water runs over you... because its the only thing you are good at. plus no one cares get it through that thick skull of yours. Just remember what we were talking about the other night yes? no.. well let me remind you my little insomniac you are worthless ugly useless hated and no one loves you or likes you remember now? thats what i thought. have fun.
heart pounding so loud, unable to lift my head, give me love like you give to her, its one thing i ask of you, i just want to feel loved again, loved by you.
if you love me prove it. dont ask me how, ill leave that up to you. dance sing write i dont know.
oh right i forgot im not her you dont love me you never have you never will and i guess ill have to be ok with that. so dont bother singing or dancing or writing
i wont hold my breath because i know the day the day ive dreamed of for so so long will never come.
now do you see why see why i want to be like her? want to be skinny, to be pretty to even be loved? to know what it feels like to have skin against skin. So please just let me i dont want to be here anymore
I don't want to be a mother and have my children running their small petite hands over my scars and reminding me of the past, running their hands over them and asking what happened, running their hands over them and going mummy ouchies it will break my heart.....
your the reason my heart is beating, without you im nothing im gone, im a lifeless body that everyone once new.. but no one cares im gone untill its too late..
you keep me running running out of breath you keep me chasing when i know ill never catch you you stole me heart and now i want it back i dont care if its in 1 piece or 1000 i want it i ache knowing you have it using it for the wrong reasons walking all over the love i gave you giving it to someone else when its meant for me you promised me but now its too late
Rules, I'll say something and if you have never done it .. Lower a finger !
Let's start !
Never have I ever cried myself to sleep ? Whoops there goes one Never have I ever self harmed ? Whoops there's number two Never have I ever starved myself ? Whoops number three, I'm good at this !
Oh I forgot to tell you the looser dies :)
Never have I ever used the words "I'm fine" ? Fourth finger down ! Last question ... Never have I ever fallen in love ?
Closed fist I won, time to say goodbye, it's okay don't be sad ! I've Been waning to go for a long time ...
you cant keep shutting me out, especially when your causing pain to yourself. it tears me to shreads, knowing one day you may never wake from the ongoing nightmare you call life. but i want to help you, i need to help you because we can all make it through our nightmare.