Will you still love me
when im hiding under the covers crying?
when im acting like a child and wont listen to what you have to say?
when i feel like a failure?
when my makeup is smudged all over my face?
when i ignore you to watch my Disney movies?
when the voices in my head take over?
when i turn into an emotional wreck for no reason?
will you still love me?

when i cant love myself?

you left me
and i hate you for that
but i want you to
be happy so i guess
thats why you
left.
but you left me
at such a bad time
i understand you were
sick and you couldnt help
it
i was only young
i didnt quite get what was
happening
but you were my best
friend and
i loved you too the
moon and beyond
as i got older though
i went through the same thing
with mum and i was
scared ill loose
her too but she is still
here you were
looking over her keeping
her strong
i just hope
one day i will see
you again.
i love you and
miss you so much.
i just hope you are proud of the
young girl ive turned into
and our joke will never
get old.

i didnt mean to **** her
but when i did
i looked her in her eyes
she looked so sad
so i decided to give her
a smile that will
last forever.

Dear Diary,
I failed. yet again
but this time was different
I tried and tried
my hardest to actually succeed
at something in
my pathetic life.

I don't know why im
so upset.
like really get it through
you thick skull
YOU ARE A FAILURE
get over it
you knew you were going
to fail.
no use crying over it

ha. I remember now
im a failure
im a failure
now say it again and don't
forget it this time
YOU ARE A ****** FAILURE.

if you buy a ticket,
theres no turning back.
welcome to the
Freakshow.

i was your ***** little
secret.
but it was my body that
kept you coming
back for more.

I should of kept my mouth shut.
I should of stayed away.
because now im down here.
in the basement.
in the cause of the dreaded tapping.
and the smell was the curious girl before me.

Safe Drive
Safe Driv
Safe Dri
Safe Dr
Safe D
Safe
Saf
Sa
S

ringing in my head,
looking down at my phone
one more time

replying with

"i will, I love..."

her later getting the phone call
I never really got to
tell her how I feel and I guess
I never will.

being 6ft under
with the words still at
my fingertips.
and the dirt muffling
my screams

You never came to see me..
why...?

why didn't you come?
please tell me.

its... its because.
i don't love you anymore

friendship
relationship
or death wish
you choose!

Lay with me
in my bed
under the sheets
with nothing on
put your hand on my chest
and lean into me and
whisper
all your darkest
secrets and fantasies
trust me
with your body
let me ful fill
your dreams
and wishes
ill make them all
come true.

why?
why did i let you.
you treated me like a baindaid
you needed me
when you were hurting
but as soon as
you were better you ripped
me off and threw
me out.

The voices in me head
are getting louder
with ever word i speak
they are telling me
not to get to close because
they dont want
me to get hurt again
they are leaving
the pain entirely up to me.

can we be the couple
the couple that goes on
long walks across the beach
in the moonlight
the couple who shows
affection wherever they
may be
the couple who is cute
runs up to each other when
they haven't seen each other
for like 2 hours
the couple who loves
each other endlessly
the couple who are always
there for any reason
the couple who wakes up
in the middle of the night
and has long deep talks
the couple who lays in bed
and watches movies
and eats tons of junk food
but most importantly
be the couple who
believe in each others dreams
and strive to make them
true!