Sometimes I say things
and nobody listens
   So I swallow the words that are stuck in between my teeth
while the echo of my expectations are left ringing in my ears

   Sometimes I am here
but nobody sees me
   So I sink into the walls as the shadow surrounding the room
while my eyes close and I view myself as a nail in chipped wallpaper

They walk away from me without realizing it. Going somewhere that I cannot go.

Do you want to walk away from yourself too?

   Feeling like I am the message between the lines that nobody can read, I sleep fall asleep under the covers.

Can you banish me to the shadows
and shower me with my collected tears.

Cleanse the sin of always longing for more
and slaughter the remaining feelings that I have swimming around in my hollowed being.

Coughing up the words I swallowed down deep
I beg to be left alone
in regret and unfiltered sorrow.

Catching the scent of a decaying rose
resting in the cage that lives in the center of my sleepless body.

Call it out, and I will take your pain into my own.
I will do it for the sake of your horned soul
so I can revive something in mine

Conning my way through
my final days
leaving behind
your happiness.

i paint my nails like the sky changes seasons
in the same light and dark ways
but just for all different reasons

my boredom is wilting my heart like a flower
how lonesome and pitiful
i decay by the hour

i have no more feelings
  like a whisper-less hum
a melody out of tune
a song become numb

if i could find the reason why
i wouldn't be down on all fours
searching on blindly
closing all the wrong doors

im noticing that it is hard
to just be free
when i settle on being something
other than me

the way that i am
people treat like the plague
so i've settled my case
and become somewhat
vague

I never thought  
   that I would kiss
      the trees to feel the air.
I've been drowning
   choking on the hope
      that you have and really do
        care.
You tied the knot
     a little too tight
        and I'm latching on
          the truth.
You've left me
    with a bleeding mouth
       'now turning into a
           sweet tooth.