I told myself not to fall back into you're arms
that you were out to get me
even though you were the only person I had
I told myself that your words were lies
that you were just lying to me
I told myself not to get to comfortable
because it will all be gone soon
I told myself not to fall in love with  you
because you are sick and insane
But I guess I loved it like the cigarettes I smoke
you were my drug
that kept me so high
for so long.

Beating down to my core

eating me alive

eating away my pride

your words are like daggers

killing me inside

you tell me i am weird

that i am just another loser in the machine called life

the machine called life

they mold me like clay

to make a good human out of me

but everyone knows

humans are monsters
monsters are humans

Those stories about monsters and demons

we are all combined

we are the monsters of the world
we are the demons of life

I guess this is where the freaks go

where the lights go down

and the show goes on

“ladies and gents”

said the man with the top hat

his face half in the shadows of the tent

he never showed his left side of his face.

he told the crowd to enjoy the show

and don’t go.

i never second thought his choice of words

only that i gave me the shivers

the spotlight hit the acts

everyone sitting in amazement

the end came slow

the horror in the air

no one spoke

no one moved

that is when i promised myself

i would never go to another freak show again

Are you happy yet?
I screamed to the voices in my head
Are you happy that i am breaking
Are you happy that i am losing hope
Hope
Hope
A four letter word
A four letter word that could change a nation
But not me
My hope was short and weak.
My hope was gone


So, Are you happy yet?
Are you happy that you are winning and that i am losing?

the world is changing

the bird’s chirps sound more

beautiful

the sunsets look more

wonderful

the sun rise seems more

elegant

with you around

the world seems better

with you around

the light is brighter with  you around
the darkness doesn't scare me anymore