Just breathe

Breathe, to settle the tide of uneasiness inside me

breathe, to still the demons ever present

I need to remember to breathe

but I forget sometimes

and just as my head slips under

I remember

remember what it was like having my lungs fill with oxygen

the feeling of knowing I was alive

I can remember the people that loved me

I can see the happiness shining

always out of reach

as if it were running from me

taunting me

laughing

I try to grab for it

but I feel myself falling

falling even more into myself

and I suddenly know

this is what it feels like to drown