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There's a girl.
Everyday she sits in the back of the room.
Hiding.
Hiding from reality.
Hiding from the truth.
No one notices her.
No one even cares.

Everyday she goes home and cries.
Pours out her soul.
She screams in the pillow to muffle the sounds.
She no longer feels alive.
Numb to the world.
Numb to everything.
She feels nothing.

Slowly she gets up.
She walks to the bathroom.
In a trance.
She grabs the razor like she does every afternoon.
But today is different.
She's had enough.

She turns on the water and fills the tub.
Scalding hot.
Just what she likes.
She slips in and lets the water burn her.
Lets it creep into every scar.

Her skin's on fire.
But she could care less.
She won't feel the pain much longer.

Shaking, she grabs the razor.
Thin, delicate lines.
All lined up like tally marks.
Counting the times she felt alone.
The times no one cared.
The number of people that hated her.

One by one they bled.
It was like drawing a picture on her precious, porcelain skin.
Spelling out a message.
The message she's been trying to tell everyone.
But no one listens.

The water quickly turned crimson red.
The background to the portrait of her body.

The cracks in her heart grew wider.
But no light could shine in.
For the darkness was taking over.
Just like it had taken over her mind.

No longer would she feel the hate from everyone at school.
No longer would she feel inadequate to her parents' demands.
No one would miss her anyway.
She was just a blur.
Blending into the walls that held her captive.

Soon it would be over.
Shutting out the world that shut her out, she took her last breath.
The life poured out of her.
Her body went limp.
Feeling alive again no longer mattered.
I've
Waited. I've loved - lost;
No efficacy. Viens enslave, remembering
Faith and lust. Look,
I, named
Lone, own vain ends.
Kind of ****** because I'm feeling ******.
 Feb 2014 Luminosity Cat
AJ
You're drunk.
I'm on pills.
It's like we have the same disease.
 Feb 2014 Luminosity Cat
Emily
You want to find me at my worst?
Go back a few years, and find a fifteen-year-old nothing
With infinite depression and thoughts stuck on repeat,
playing the same suicide song over and over
As you watch her slowly transform her legs to scar tissue
Please tell her you've noticed she's not eating

You want to see me at my lowest?
Watch me lap up the blood after bathing in blades
When you search for the places that my mind visits so frequently
It will truly test a flexibility
that not everyone has

You want to know me at my core?
No, you don't
Curiosity is not the same as desire and
the darkness would only blind you
I'm too sweet to show you the type of insanity
most would cringe in disgust at
And honestly, at the end of the day, all I'm left with are notebooks and razors
 Feb 2014 Luminosity Cat
Morgan
I dreamt of all the friends I've been missing
The ones I couldn't stop
from getting swallowed
by the sand
from the hour glass
sitting at the edge of
my dresser
The ones that became
victims of my endless hours
of essays and double shifts
The ones who sent text messages
that got swept beneath emails
from professors and managers
The ones who dialed my number
while I was in the shower
too many times in a row
and gave up
before I could answer
The ones who knocked
on my door while I
was away

The ones who will always
smell like summer
when I think of them
And the ones who will
always have a locker combination
in my memory

I dreamt of their hands
on my shoulders
and their laughter
warming the cool air
around me

But I woke up

in my bed

All alone

in my own home

Feeling terribly

**Homesick
I'm going on an adventure!

To Narnia
Or Neverland.
To Middle Earth
Or Wonderland.

Yes I said an adventure
Don't try to stop me now.
It might take me forever.
Even if I don't know how.

Where to start?
Where to end?
Around each corner
And each bend.

I don't even know
My own destination
But yet I start
With no hesitation.

So here I go.
No turning back.
God help me please.
I'm can feel the attacks.

But I will prevail.
I promise I'll be strong.
I'm determined to succeed.
For this journey shall be long.

So goodbye to all.
I'll miss you...maybe
So see you whenever
My end date may be.

An adventure true and simply.
Sometimes the poem
doesn't want to come;
it hides from the poet
like a playful cat
who has run
under the house
& lurks among slugs,
roots, spiders' eyes,
ledge so long out of the sun
that it is dank
with the breath of the Troll King.

Sometimes the poem
darts away
like a coy lover
who is afraid of being possessed,
of feeling too much,
of losing his essential
loneliness-which he calls
freedom.

Sometimes the poem
can't requite
the poet's passion.

The poem is a dance
between poet & poem,
but sometimes the poem
just won't dance
and lurks on the sidelines
tapping its feet-
iambs, trochees-
out of step with the music
of your mariachi band.

If the poem won't come,
I say: sneak up on it.
Pretend you don't care.
Sit in your chair
reading Shakespeare, Neruda,
immortal Emily
and let yourself flow
into their music.

Go to the kitchen
and start peeling onions
for homemade sugo.

Before you know it,
the poem will be crying
as your ripe tomatoes
bubble away
with inspiration.

When the whole house is filled
with the tender tomato aroma,
start kneading the pasta.

As you rock
over the damp sensuous dough,
making it bend to your will,
as you make love to this manna
of flour and water,
the poem will get hungry
and come
just like a cat
coming home
when you least
expect her.
Spinning.                                                         Breathe. Just breathe.
      Around.                                        Take a breath. Please make it stop!
           Can't see.                             It's got to stop.                 Want it to stop.
                Can't breathe.                    It stopped.                         Nothing is clear.
                     Scared of nothing.             I survived.                        Splitting headache.
                           What is happening?                                      Ripping me to shreds.                
                                  Why can't I focus?                               Tearing me apart.
                                           What is out to get me? It's eating away at me.
                                                            I can't handle this anymore.
Such slight pain.
Such a little scar.
Not a lot of hurt.
I won't go far.

Not too deep.
Just til I bleed.
Please believe me.
This is what I need.

I'd rather die
Than live this way.
But you need me here
So I'll have to stay.

So just one more time.
Keep me living.
Is this the end
Or just the beginning.
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