Once upon a time
There was a kaleidoscope of colors
But I only longed to see the white light
I was waiting for grace
Soon it was med-time before bed-time
And a bunch of pills under the mattress
And an insatiable *** drive
Coupled with a sweet tooth
Speak now or forever hold your vices
Dream of the wise men, the stars and the spices
The promises we keep even after death
As everything breaks down in a red bubble bath
Pillow fights and report cards
Off-white lab coats and crazy blondes
Only the end of the book knows best
Even God needed rest
Slit vertical and split the scars
Go and begin your journey to the stars
Sweat out your demons or pray that they beat you
Hope that the friendliest shark will eat you
Ride the wild horses into the darkness
Gaze at the twisted Mandela on the ceiling
Fight the minister in a wrestling match
Self-destruct once more, this time with feeling
My Pangaea ultima is falling apart
As the plate tectonics inside me collide
The craters on my skin outweigh the Grand Canyon
With nothing to lose, pain is a landslide
A chemical imbalance, a childhood trauma,
An improper diet, heterosexual drama-
It might seem dysfunctional at the end of it all
But some were meant to fly, I was meant to fall

Like a ***** on a blood buzz
That surrendered to the dragon
Like Jupiter in a strange land
Water colors and cannibals
Like lemon world, minus candy
And true promise and false let-downs
Like McCandless or a Thoreau
Down a river lacking mystic
Like a soldier safe from harm's way
Watching pen-pals throw big grenades
Like echoes heard from a black hole
Filled with demons and Madonna's
Like an idea in a time warp
Full of castles and time capsules
Like a fire burning brightly
By Eskimos throwing blankets
Like Orestes punished greatly
By loud sirens in double-bind
Like a big world in alignment
With a spindle made of chaos
Like paisley love remaining still
While new age brings adhesive hate
Like a black swan, last unicorn
Asleep during apocalypse
Like kind vultures killing a beast
Because his stripes were too crooked
Like a family unforgiving
Of an angel born of their blood
Like a bad cough in a clear throat
Of a drunk God with bronchitis

French sirens in her head
Pink flowers on the bed
Pale and faded
Bruised and jaded
A cycle of spooks and delights

Heart is a question mark
Tree is full of sparks
Blue angel wings
Birds that don’t sing
The sandman is her best friend

Exhausted with heaven on earth
Tracing her steps back to birth
How do things grow
When time moves so slow
She’s watering her own garden

Now the bathtub calls her name
Mystery, no longer her bane
A kite flying in the sky
A curious lullaby
She now knows the meaning of life

When you look at me
All you see is a mess
That needs to be pronounced
So you talk in code
Thinking I don’t know
I’m the prey that needs to be pounced on

But if I had you in the palm of my hand
I wouldn’t crush you
Or put you under the lens
This soul is just not built for revenge

Yeah if I had you in a jar
I wouldn’t judge you
Or mock you from afar
I’d set you free to play amongst the stars

Yeah if the roles were reversed
And I was the blessing
And you were the curse
I’d come in last just so you could be first

But the birds are chained to the sky
And my heart’s tangled in webs
And while you’re out playing
I’m working on the dreams in my head

Cause all I ever wanted
Was to make someone like you proud
But at the end of the day
You go back to your friends; I go back to my cloud

She wears a mask, strong and confidant
But inside she’s a scared little girl
And everything she has is resting on a house of cards
And just the tiniest gust of wind could blow everything over
She’s walking in a land of personal turmoil
And she has a big infusion
Of some grand delusions
That tell her she should be bad
Cause the world is too real, too harsh
And it hurts to breathe
And she wonders if one moment of adventure
Is worth a lifetime of despair
Cause the candle blew out when she saw the palm reader
And she fears the worst is yet to come
And her only friends are the stars
But the one inside her is collapsing in on itself
Cause God make her pure with
A past of unforgivable mistakes
And her light is androgynous so no one can see it
Her inner spark has become a grenade
And the man in the moon was swallowed by the tides
Controlled by the woman who owns the satellite
And night or day, in sun or in snow,
Nature tells her she will be bad
That which is lost
Can’t always be found
She will be good
When she’s put underground

I reckon I hear the call
Let's get lifted as we fall
Expose your soul as an innocent monster
It beckons to us all

You contain the kind of laughter that
Disguises many shades of tears
What happens when love is your master
Pulsing through your veins and years

Already walking in shadows
But you kept me in the dark
Looking for a familiar pattern-
A star, a scar, a spark

As I was wounded and hurting
Looking for dessert for the deserted
I lit a fire-
But it burnt the forest down

Now we are both sad clowns
Working our way through the wreckage-
Someone shuffled the deck
And all the hearts went missing

I just wanted you to show up
You just wanted a show
You just wanted me to grow up
I just wanted to grow
Except this time you see
Desire hanging from the tree
And this time I see
Fear twirled around my knees
And you always remember
The ones who succeed
And I always recall
The ones falling free
Guess you’re lounging by the hub
And I’m swinging on the rim
You need to be immersed in it all
I need to learn to swim
You surround yourself with glamour
While I play in thunderstorms
You attack my ugly wounds
But your beauty sure has thorns
Now I just want a show
And you just want to grow up
For I am you and you are me,
Wedded to each other’s calamity,
Until this big world blows up