Temporary satisfaction
Split my soul into factions
My love for him is a fraction
Compared to this guilt reaction
And now hatred spreads
Like the fear here in this bed
Now a demon grows instead
Of the peace held in my head
Tangled to the tree
Powerless and “free”
Tangled to the tree
With a million souls to feed

Love and hate and black and blue and scars and stars and everything that's you
From picking flowers to cocktail hours, something doesn't fit, and it's your shoe
But you were never Cinderella, even with wallpaper yellow and the news
Your eyes are glazed, you're in a haze, lost in the maze they made with a stick of glue

What happens when tomorrow is a world away?
Why can't the sun shine at night?
How come history's never right?
When will you come out of this phase?

Cause if it's gonna last forever, I know you want out
There's a tick-tock in your head, and your faith has turned to doubt
If they only knew all the advertisements were giving you ideas
They'd cut out all the nonsense and say what you need to hear

(A girl must be ugly
A girl mustn't shine like the sun
A girl must make herself a boy
A girl must be no one)

She wakes up and sees the stamp on her wrist from last night's musical revelry and in harsh daylight it looks like a bar-code for Babylon. She stupidly talks about her travel plans and the next day mother nature takes thousands of lives and she thinks its her fault. She buys both brands of luck from the thrift shop and knows it's hotel California, just like her life. She tries to remember, but every trigger suppresses something in her mind. She used to have 20/20 vision until she got a piece of gravel in her eye; she's been walking blind ever since. And she wonders when unconditional love turned political. And she wonders why the whole coast is so cynical. And she knows a "ghost" stole her lighter. She knows the clock is wrong. She knows she needs a compass.

Words were silver
I should have known
Shiny, specific, big big words
To match your ***** motives
But I know now what finger
That ring was meant to be on
Your heart was always elastic
You poked a hole in plastic
How silly of me to think
That you simply had needs
Now I have to sit and wait
And pray that I bleed

Laughter
The kind that's not ghastly or cruel
The kind that doesn't make you feel like a fool
The kind that doesn't come from demons or ghouls
The kind that travels from your gut to your heart
The kind that unites people two worlds apart
The kind that makes your smile hurt, belly ache- the kind that leaves a mark

I don't remember this kind of laughter
But I would give anything to feel its echo
Cause this kind of laughter isn't amusing
Unless it's a non-stop marathon where beer spills out your nose

And laughter of this purity leaves a ripple in time
Beyond memory, break-ups, make-ups, wrinkles, and clock-chimes
Even if you forget it, it remains in your soul
You'll see it in your cosmic movie- floating out of charity's bowl

I want you to make me feel mysterious
I want you to make me feel fearless
Both out in the world and in your arms
I want me to make you feel powerful
I want me to make you feel vulnerable
Both out in the world and in my arms

We both know, I'm too sensitive for my own good
We both know, you're too restless for your own good
We both know, our destiny is for the greater good

I need you to hold my hand
I need you to read my words
Both in the moment and out of this world
I need me to be your rock
I need me to be your muse
Both in the moment and out of the blue

We both know, we're both linked to the hex
We both know, on every level we connect
We both know, there's intimacy greater than ***

So let's not pretend
Let's bend the rules
Let's fend for ourselves
Let's amend our commitment
Create a home-school for love

Pulse is racing
As radio plays a dirge
Can't feel a heartbeat
As dead as these words
Night once provided cover
Now it gives fever chills
But belonging to no other
No choice but TV and pills
The regime is closing in
The captain gave her orders
Holy Moses can't contribute aid
Already passed the border

So don't tell me you'll mourn me
Don't put roses on my grave
Just give me a grain of solace now
I liked sunflowers better anyway

Don't doubt my imagination
Don't tell me it's in my head
Just give me release from indecision
And the machinery in my bed

Don't tell me to go into the light
Cause my heart's been there all along
But my mind has always adored the shadows
Can you tell me where I belong?