Your cold dead red eyes
And your skin as white as snow
Is all a pigment disguise
This much I know

Cause I refuse to believe
That your heart's made of stone
But you never give relief
For the boulder in my bones

I know for me it's an uphill climb
And well, for you, you've got plenty of time
You have the power to heal my scars and gashes
But you just sit there obliviously batting your lashes

I know your world consists of black and white
But please stay in the grey middle with me tonight
Cause a wise man once said, as his words took flight
That there's more to the picture than meets the eye

And I'm barely holding on
Like a leaf that turns to ash when winter comes
You're the virus and I'm the host
I'm the static on your A.M. radio

So I let you take over my immune system
And destroy me from within
While you ignore my heart's satellite
And change the station so you can sleep at night

Strung out again
You string me along
Like popcorn on a piece of yarn
I'm falling off
I burnt the map
When I was a teenager
Curious of integers
Of pills and popularity
Now I'm hanging by a thread
Like Judas hung from the tree
A tarot of the number four
So what's the score
There's blood on
The sandy white beaches of paradise
I used to never think twice
Now I'm running in circles on Saturn's rings
That's the thing
I weep
A lot
At the most random times
That's why I'm forced to rhyme
And I'm asking you to stay
Please don't be
My needle in the hay
Like Elliot would say
I'm just looking for the pattern
In the mystery of my life
Cause even Jesus had a wife
So all you little ones
Before you ask for the devil's gun
As you sit on Santa's lap
Don't burn the map

My shaky hands are unsteady
But it's ok cause the surgery's on me
And everywhere I see
People dropping bombs or dropping ecstasy
And I've done both
Guess my demon's got a degree
He holds my hand when I walk in shadows
And kicks me when I'm on my knees

My shaky heart is unready
But it's ok cause the love is on me
And everywhere I see
Helping-hand strangers and ignorant pharisees
And I am both
Guess my angel's got a diverse pedigree
She lets me hold the wheel in daylight
And jinxes me everytime I throw away the keys

My shaky soul needs a wedding
But it's ok cause the spirit's on me
And everywhere I see
Cheap plastic parties and celestial ceremonies
And I attend both
Guess my god's got a strange disease
It lets me make honey with the birds
And fly busted-winged with the bees

You wanted to save the nervous boy
He wanted to tame the wild girl
A factory made of damaged goods
It's alright as long as the profits do well
He put you behind the camera
And at first you loved the glitz and glamour
Till your friends started dropping like flies
And you saw the emptiness in his eyes
He was your ally, but he never let you have the spoils
He crumpled up your paper heart and threw it away
like a piece of tin foil

If you took a picture of me
And really looked closely
You'd see the demon on my back
Pushing down so heavily
He's always in the shadows
But when I try to bring him to light
He freezes like a frightened gargoyle
And I keep trying to reach that portal
Where the magic rabbit with one eye
Takes me by my hand
And guides me through all my disasters and accidents
With him I can crush bronze
Close a school
Expose the truth
Be ruthless
Instead of this wet, sensitive mess

It's not a sweet sunshower
It's just a sour spring blur
I'm sipping on a wilting flower
With a dour devil who concurs
That all this sweating and shaking
Won't help bring home the bacon
And the everlasting shiver is making
My fragile bones crack with the quaking
Tell me what it takes to make this go away
Cause my ducts are dry and I can't cry today
Tell me what to do to make this life seem true
Cause this duck is drowning and the water's not as blue as me
All I have left is prayer, as they burden me with truth or dare
So show me the alchemy
Print me out the recipe
Cause I'm being eclipsed by the rain
Just like Layne

Say a prayer as it goes
To your brain down from your nose
When will it come to a close
"When all my demons are exposed"

Listen carefully as the wind
That sends shudders to within
Gradually begins to grin
Even though you're bathed in sin

But then the high takes a bow
You forgot to live in the now
You were only focused on the how
Listen as the profane echoes drown
You in a whirlpool of cess
Consequences of excess
You're a bleeding carcass
You're an absolute mess

So I say a prayer to you
The one I can't refuse
The one I call my muse
The one and only excuse