I pull the bottle of the shelf
Covered in dust
I twist off the cap
I pour me a glass
Heres to me
For finally being alone
At last.

Heavy heart
Dark thoughts
Will i ever make it through this part
Fades away as quickly as it came
Just dust in the wind scattering across the plain

Living life on the edge of tomorrow

Oh you fingers look so nice
But they'd looked better in my vice
Cracking every bone picked apart
To make my very own thrown.

Winter blues has came to collect on its dues
Will you be ready or will you be putting on your running shoes.

Bury the knife into my skin
Take me back to where it begans
Where im not drowning in all my sins
Youve played your part
please finsh what you start
Bury me in the cover of the dark
Under the oak tree at our favorite park
No one would give it a second thought
Bury the knife into my skin
Take me back to where it begans
Where im not drowning in all of my sins

Only time will tell
There no spells for this
Crippled with the thoughts of you
Forced feed your point of view
Bleeding out and i call for help
Death reached out his hand
Told me hes got big plans
To **** your name and to clean up all youve slain
To bring an end to all the misery and the pain
cause by you while on your reign
I took his hand here we stand
Hand in hand
To end the the man you drove insane
You made him blow out his brains
Only leaving his memory left in blood stains
Spread across his room.

Im scared of what could be
If i could open up to let you see
How you truly you affect me
Most importantly im afraid to love again
What pain it brings after its all said and done

Karma bows to no man or woman
Her actions may be quick & swift
slow & painful
Dealers choice

Is it just a show your putting on for me
Showing me all the things you know id love to see
Telling me all the things id love to hear
With my mind its so hard to tell
I pick away at every possibility
Drowing myself endlessly with it all
Sending my thought straight to negativity
Then starting it all over again a ever repeating cycle
This is insanity

Far back within darkest parts
I harbor a small ounce of humanity
Its with this i pull the love to give you
Once its all gone
Ill have nothing left for you.

My hardest addiction to kick was and forever will be love

Loving you
Is like trying to
Love myself.
Though i try & try
It aint ever going to happen.

Siren of song lead me to my death
Voice so angelic gets me feeling best.
Oh lead me to my death
Oh lead me to my death
Siren of song youve got me feeling best
Im coming along and following your song
Lead me to my fate at which i belong
Miles ive walked stuck with your song
Wondering if ill ever get to which i belong
My Feet are blistered and shoes have rot but here here I walk to reach your song.

Driven by my desires
Fire and brimstone
Hell is where im going
So glad because i miss home.

Bottled up emotions
Tossed into the ocean
Made its way back ashore.

Every homeless dog needs a good bone
Every now and again.

So far from gone to get it right
Lost in the madness to even see the light
Clinging to hope like that lonely piece of thread.

Fragile
Stretched to paper thin
My heart not easy to mend
Lost somewhere and dont know how it began
Cold wind blows across my blood shot eyes
Left frozen tears to withstand the sands of time.

I used to think my drug addiction was the lowest point in my life
Which ended up sending  me into an
Amphetamine induced psychosis and putting me into the hospital.
Ive come to realize my lowest point was loving you and the hell i let you put me through and thinking i could help fix you.

If i ever asked you to leave would you?
If i got on my hands and knees could you?
If i asked you to come live with me should you?
If this should be an opportunity you could seize would you?

Itll only hurt for just a second
In the end itll be pleasant.

Lost in a daze
My life is a maze
My emotions are unfazed
My heart has felt your taze
Broken and but unscathed
Ill make it untill tomorrow
Is what i always say

I like to sit and watch the world burn
And i dont like to exclude myself

Ive watched you from the other side for quite some time.
Whispering words of encouragement trying to make you happy inside.
I see the pain youve delt with and how you two coincid.
This is not the answer for you to feel happy inside.
I beg of you to put down the gun and try to find the light inside.

this road i travel
I've been down many times
Which i think its always fate
who brings me back
time after time
in fact its me and myself destructive behavior
though i have to admit this feeling i savor
the pain and the depression
it really works in my favor
i've made to the end of my road
which i may have cheated along the way
but life isn't fair so why should i have to be
this road i travel just isn't a journey
its a self mission to make me the person
i'm always dying to be.

Standing above the abyss
****** and bruised
Victorious one again
Big sh** eating grin
Life will not hold me down
As long as im breathing and my feet can be planted in the ground

Left with so much hate
I just pile it up on my plate
Forcing feeding it straight into my face

All work with little time to play
Thats the blue collar kinda way

This is the end of us
Body and soul ripped from two
We all knew i was doomed
From the moment you left this room
All the tears ive cried
Heavy thoughts of suicide
All i feel is empty inside
Body and soul doesnt coincide
The last words i write
i hope this makes you happy inside
Because for me
all i wanna do is feel alive

Joy is disease
Thats shined light on me
Spreading throughout my body
id wish id just let me be
Left me to wallow in my self pity

fabricated truths of the misguided youth

Your a wildfire coursing through my veins

I should have left a  trail or something to find my way back.
Im so far off the path ill never find my way back.

Every egg cracks eventually only time tells

This ride i take
It has no plans
Unforeseen stops by this non guided hands

I have yet to figure out which is darker this pit im in or your heart.

Im the grenade.
your the pin.
We go great together
Just like paper to a pen.
Separate us...
We just meaningful object
Made to destroy men

Your just a pothole on a backroad

Tell me about the webs you spin
Let me be the bearer of your sins
Ill be the judge to see if youll be condemned

In a world full of hate be the kindness you wish to create.

Tick ,tock ,tick, tock
It was about 9:20 is when my heart stopped
The trust i had for you.
all the love i had & wanted to give to you
All ceased to exist.
The moment i found those two.
After the first i did my best to let it go but two more times really makes my crazy grow.
Idk if ill ever trust you again.
Heart so broken i dont even know how ill mend.
Just digging my own grave to  my inevitable
End.

I speak to you of them demons i harbor inside
Demons ive delt with and how the effect the outside
You ask me to stop because it instillls fear in your mind
My sweat baby your the last one id hurt
You should be more afraid for people who wanna hurt you
Because i have a list a thousand pages long
Of stuff that im willing to do just to protect you

Here i am still
All in one piece
You thought you broke me
All a facade to say the least
I was thrilled when you let me off my leash
No more master and shadow caster
Much happier without you around
I feel bad for the next guy
Who comes walking down your part of town