All I want to do is get drunk
And forget what her face looks like
After we get done kissing
I want to forget how nice her laugh
Sounded against my ear
I need to forget how we'd lay in bed
And just hold each other tight
How she'd say "I love you"
And how she actually meant it
I need to forget everything
In my ******* life

She isn't mine anymore
Isn't mine to have

I want to gut myself out
Like a goddamm fish
And write her name on my
Chest in my own blood
So everyone would know
Why I did it

I'm the most ****** up person I know.
I'm worse than the rapists
And the murderers
I'm worse than the paedophiles
And the terrorists.
I make people fall in love with me.
And just when they're snuggled
Into me and my love
I take it away.
And leave them for dead.

I just want
To be able to have him
And him
And her
And him.
I'm a needy greedy
Grabby jealous *****.
So what?
Love me.

Don't let me in
Don't trust me
Don't love me
This might be real for you
But to me it's all
Play pretend.

It's a scary thing to know
That you're goin nowhere in life
And you will end up
As a burnout
A fat piggy *****
Laying on the side of the street
Because you were too in love
To notice happiness.