Maybe you have writer's block
Because you feel in life, you're stuck
You've spun your web of very deep lies
That's why you crawl in bed and cry
You can't escape the harm you've done
And now you're alone and have no one
You've lost yourself in fantasy land
A world you created that's got out of hand
You should rethink your actions and get over your pride
Or else all that'll be left for you to do is hide
Eventually the truth will come out and be
If only you knew that it'd set you free
You live in fear and it's ruining your life
It's like you've been stabbed with a really sharp knife
Just like the one you shoved in people's hearts
The day they found out that you were just playing a part
Be your true self, it's time to come clean
Heal your own spirit and truly be seen

I wish I knew an older man
One that wouldn't be afraid to hold my hand
He'd be mature and wise
The very best of all the guys
For once, I would be taken care of
And there would be nothing else above
We'd love each other and communicate
Leave no room for grudges and hate
An older man would have all the experience
He would want nothing but to be serious
We'd go out on special dates
Sometimes stay home and stay up late
It'd be a functioning relationship
Something normal yet attached to the hip
I wish I knew an older man
One that wouldn't be afraid to hold my hand

My thoughts are my own
My creativity is mine to express
I will share with you what I choose
You will not violate me
You will not invade my mind
Do not read my poetry
It is like my diary
If you love me
Respect me
I can't afford a therapist
I'm not comfortable telling everything
To my biased parents
Writing is my release
My poetry is mine
It is the expression
Of my deepest, darkest thoughts
And it is my decision
When I choose to let you know
Everything that I'm thinking
And the feelings I do not show
Do not cross this line again
For next time
I won't tolerate the violation

I'm so done with the worthless arguments
And the childish petty fights
I am finished being blamed for it all
I am not selfish
You have me wrong
I was a fool to think you'd ever be mature
The way you act like a **** on purpose
And your vindictive manner and combative spirit
Is more than a turn off
Hanging around you only brings tension
You were supposed to be my lover
You were supposed to be my best friend
Now you're just my enemy
It's exhausting trying to keep up with you
Everything is wrong, no matter what I do
You twist and turn nothing into something it was never intended to be
I'm sick of being thought of as always angry
It's just getting to be impossible to make you happy
I don't believe I can continue walking in your shadow
With your hurtful and harmful words beating down on me
Day after day
Night after night
Give it a rest already
Not everything is a fight