Emily

Emily Feb 2014

Not Love

A part of me always wanted to believe
That one day we could be friends
The good kind
When we'd talk on the phone
Go on lunch dates to chat about nothing
Help each other when we were in need
It's unfortunate
And crazy
How much one can be so wrong about a person
I was incorrect about you
We can't ever be friends
Your motives always seem to be rooted in something
That most certainly is not love

Emily Feb 2014

Mistreated

When you were heartbroken
I showered you with affection
I gave you all of my love
I allowed you to forget about all the bad
And start loving your life again

When you felt worthless
I made you feel confident
I reminded you of your beauty
I got you to feel ****
And start loving yourself again

But what you did to me
Was something much different
You drained me of all my love
Made me feel unwanted by you
My efforts were never truly reciprocated
And you gave me up like I was nothing

You made me hate my life
You made it impossible for me
To wake up in the morning
Much less do anything else
You made me hate myself

Emily Feb 2014

Burning Bright

I was swimming in a sea
Of confusion and heartache
But all along you were guiding me
Saving me from destruction

I was lost in a dark place
I had trouble understanding life
But you always made me feel safe
And helped me find my way

You are my light at the end
Of the long and cold tunnel
Through this bond, we transcend
Into a beautiful, undying love

This is more than I’ve dreamt of
You give me everything I desire
Truly, you’re my only love
Your heart takes me higher

I only wish to give you the same
Make you feel elation with every kiss
The spark will never leave this flame
We’ll burn brighter than the sun

Another love poem for my valentine.

© Willa 2014

Emily Feb 2014

Close To My Heart

Oh babe
I don't need to ask
If you'll be mine
You have been for a while
You're my true valentine
Let's kiss and make love
Watch the sunset on our porch
While we share a joint
Getting lost in each other's eyes
My head resting on your shoulder
This is heaven
Having you so close to my heart
And feeling your warmth
I love you so much
Let's promise to never part
And spend every February 14th together
Just you and me
Always and forever
So happy

Emily Feb 2014

Poser

You think you're so original
You think you're so unique
But all you do is jump on the bandwagon
And more times than not, you're late

You like bands that are supposedly cool
You take up fads just for show
It's hilarious to watch you do these things
It shows how much you don't even know

You've even copied me a time or two
Actually, more than that
Can't you think of anything on your own?
Then again, you're not fully intact

You're so back and forth
Here and there, it's such a shame
Try thinking on your own for once
Maybe then you wouldn't seem so mundane

It's like an oxymoron
It's really shocking to see
How predictable you are
Your next move is always foretold
You're shockingly predictable

Emily Feb 2014

Precious Moments

I'm as happy as a clam
Laid-back
Replaying my favorite track
Feeling high
From the flowers I smoked
Just took a small ****
To loosen myself up
I feel like a whole new me
Totally free
From pain and anguish
And anxiety
I relish these precious moments
They don't last forever
But they come along
Because my life is getting better
And soon enough
As my soul replenishes itself
From all the damage that's been done
I'll feel this perfect bliss
Every single day
I'll thank the heavens
For my recovery
The smile on my face
Will become permanent again

Emily Feb 2014

Poison

Trusting too much
Having confidence in things that are faulty
Is almost as lethal as rat poison
First, the betrayal of trust
Causes an internal battle in the mind
Regret torments us
How could we have been so stupid
As to have faith in something that wasn't real
This pain is much like when the body
Bleeds internally
After the poison
Has settled in our system
Next comes a never ending feeling
Of pure exhaustion
We metaphorically collapse
Mimicking a rodent
We can no longer perform
Our day to day needs
Instead, we become so tired of life
It feels as though we are dead on the inside
But we never truly die
And in all honesty
I'd rather ingest poison
Than be betrayed again