sometimes I feel like I’m sick
not because I really am
but because I just feel bad

it’s crazy
that if your mental state is very bad
it can become physical

Probably what I’m feeling right now
it’s 00:28
and im not tired

I feel dizzy when I close my eyes
feel like I’m the biggest thing in the world
uncomfortable

I’m not even home
I just want to go home and sleep there
I don’t wanna cry here

Maybe this is getting too long
I didnt even plan on writing
That’s why it’s so messy
Sorry

I can’t connect words this time
And I don’t feel that I will rest this time
Good night!

i search a lie for the silver lining
i pry the silver lining for perfection
i tackle the perfection with the deception
of the empty person
who is interlaced with the coercion
of the fear that made their power possible

for canyons cannot be crossed in the dark
without a beating heart scared enough to run across

i weave into lines to tackle them into oblivion
i eye onto waves and pierce them into obsidian

we shatter glass
for we are tired of making sense

You don’t know,
but I orbit you.
Like a quiet moon
around a star
that never looks up.

Just close enough
to feel your light,
but too far
to ever talk.

You remind me
of a person
I’ve never
met

Of an
idea
that I’ve
never had

Of a
feeling
never mine
to feel

In a
moment
forever
— lost to time

(Dreamsleep: April, 2025)