i want to forget
everything
everything that i had
everything that i have
everything that i lost
everything that i lose
everything that i love
everything that i want
everything that i need
everything that i loved
because
i need love more than this
i need love more than just this
more than the big blue sky and sun above the sky
more than the smile that once smiled by you
more than the laugh that i heard
more than the feeling that felt for you
because
i need everything above the limit
i want to feel a lot of feelings
and above of all
i want to feel you

this is my heart problems
my anxiety
and madness
insecurities kicks in

it just like
i don't belong
and never belong
to anyone or any other else

maybe what they say is true
people hate ugly person
i am ugly
i feel ugly
and they hate me

for once i just want to feel loved
i want to feel like i am wanted
i want to feel like me myself is enough
maybe i just want to be loved

i always make them happy around me
but then they will forget
they don't want to be with me
i know i am ugly
thank you
for making me realise
more and more

i want love to hold my hands
give me a another chance
to feel the love for once
and forever

i might be wrong
i might be misheard
i might be end up alone
but i always believe in love

i always thought
all the things i do
might bring you back
near to me once again

but i was wrong
i really wrong
i am the one who push you
away from me
away from love

when it supposed to be me
who receive the love you had
i regret all the things i did
because of myself i am alone

because of you
i believe in karma
it makes me afraid
to get to know you
to crave for me

but in the end
it's always only me
the one who need love
from the way you need love
like a bad karma

i used to push away
all the love that god gave
thought like i was worthy
setting a high standard
when all u need is just love

and now i think
i just need to be grateful
for all the people
who used to love me
before and now

cause i will never
never ever be
worth saving
:")

This was just recently
The madness i craved was
Fulfilled by ur touch
Thank  you
Now I want more time with u
Almost every second of the day

You are smiling
and in my eyes are falling tears
You are laughing
but my heart is feeling fears.

My heart is crying
but your mind hasn't the eyes to see it
My dream is looking
for you, though you don't feel it!

This world is selfish
everybody loves with conditions
but I am a foolish
because I love you with emotions
and without conditions
but you have no feelings!

Let me see your face
I would like to melt into you
Let me see your smile
I just want to say I still love you!