A sky full of stars is only seen in the darkest of lights. . .
And there is so much sense to make out of that
But I cant explain it
Write it down
As it drains it

Of its unhuman like complexity
As everything in life is merely a reflection of its essence
The universe is a reflection of the atoms in your cells
And it's so complex yet so simple
If you dont explain it
It's so simple

Sink into it
As it is what we define as truth
It is the essence
It is the core
And it is within you

Observe and listen
And let it be

And what shall happen
Shall be

And we might be as harmonious as the blue sky and the sea
As the stars shining at night in the dessert

Or we might just be a passing like the weather.

Life is meant to be lived
And living is not the made up myth
Seizing the moment and feeling constant bliss
Life is meant to be lived
And living is what this is.

The calm after the storm
I am not one to stay with the norm

You're like the salty wind at the sea
A nice breeze

I'm finally coming to ease
Up

You're that flower growing in the street crack
I want to pick you up
Smell u
Put in a vase
And plant you in my vains

For a dose of dopamine
Talk a little
And feel a little something

You're a cute flower grown between the cement.
I want to pick you up.

Heart clinch
A gut pinch

Look at the screen
Can't see clear
My phone is shaking
My hands are shaking

Sounds amplified
Hearts pounds magnified

Narrow vision
And eyes that can't focus

**** I wonder if anyone noticed.

Neurons linking and multiplying till it becomes a crowd pit
Thoughts smooshed to the edge of the stage
Screaming quick solve it!

They shout and they scream in support for existential fear

Sounds amplified
Heart pounds magnified

Narrow vision
And eyes that can't focus

**** I wonder if anyone noticed

They're still talking
Walking
Chilling out smoking
It's not that big of a deal
There's nothing to fear

Just another panic attack gone
Un-noticed

The sea, the unknown.
The waves punching the rocks.
And the docks.

The blue is nothing but a reflection.
And my blue is nothing but a reflection.

The sea is where you lay in the sun.
Let it give you a kiss.
Where you sit for hours, calm and reminese.
Sweet calm and grounded.
Fun, warm and the sound is
pure serenity.
And it feels like its repeating in infinity.

And the sea is where the ships drown
And the deeper you go down
Its dark and there's no sound
Death feels near
And there is everything you may fear
The sea is where things disappear
There are still terorities unknown
Under the glow of the blue
And its things we will never know


And you ask me and I dont know
And I sway and sway
So gradient in pure blue
And I drown with the waves sometimes
And I punch the shore sometimes

And I am a universe unknown
And if I dive in too deep, I am far far away from home
And the beach is where I like to be
Sweet and salty air
And just stay there

Cause I tried to explain the things happening to me
But I am still
And calm
Peaceful and grounded
Yet I am punching the shore
And what happening is not a norm
Lost of words, as they have disappeared
I might have dove in too deep
And I dont know what is what anymore

I just see myself in the sea
So let it be, what ever it may be.
Sun kisses and remineses
Dive in and dont get too deep.

Lights dimmed
Red soft lights
Baroque colors everywhere
Like sipping wine in a coffin

Sweet, free, dead.

Like blood pouring out the vains
And it pains but there's no pain

A soft image of you.  Dark ...Slim ..
Distant.

Constantly there
In my head
Constantly out of reach
In my life

And if I can take in this *******, I would.
and if I can make it better, I would.
And if you're disappointed then let it be.  
Cause I made it be .

The rules and regulations put on me.
Renting a few moments of life, and a moment of you is what I need.
A moment I would pay morals for, disappointment for, guilt for.

Work, snakes, frienemies, money *****, white collar slavery, broken family, unwanted love, incapability, mistakes, lost.

But the image of you feels sweet.
A sweet maroon glass of wine
Divine
Mine ...
I wish

The bell's getting louder ...

But I have to find a way out

Cause no one cares

If I don't...