And i'm a dreamer,
my reality is a schemer
take a look through my brain
you'll see insanity is what keeps me sane.
I drown in feelings that i can't explain,
stumble upon people who wouldn't feel the same.
I ponder the question of why it wouldn't change.
Doubt myself? yes, all the time.
For something so beautiful to believe could ever be mine.
So much to confess, to set off the stress can't seem to say a word and don't wanna be depressed.
Kinda like a gravitational force, you hold me down
When in silence I still hear your enchanting sound.
I try to keep my distance
but what if ill actually have a chance.
wait, i kid myself too much
someone like me; would never be enough.
I'm sorry I'm not her,
I won't try to ****** you to get your attention
Let me earn your time, show you i care.
A one time thing is not in my intention.
All those little things about you
I wanna be able to see it all through.
Crazy, maybe Ive been lately
I don't know you yet, but you could be the missing part of me.
If you don't want me to, ill let you be.
Tell me i'm in over my head
But i know your fragile heart has been misled.
Your mesmerising eyes have had enough tears shed.
i'm sorry for hiding behind poetry,
it's the only way to tell you my story.
You're probably caught up on someone else
and your friends don't think my feelings make sense.
It shouldn't take so long when you're sure
I wanna get to know you, that's all I'm asking for.
We never know what lurks beneath the sea
and just like the sea you're a mystery
there's more to you than what they see
a smile to cover up the missing pieces.
You deserve the time and effort
someone to give you shelter and comfort.
maybe you want to leave it all behind
the pain, the lies, and the things that messed up your mind.
I don't know all of you but it wasn't hard to know you're one of a kind.
i'm not coming off too strong,
please don't get me wrong
i just had to get it out of my chest
before it devours my very last breath.

Take a walk down this road ****
Act like you're gonna live
You may not know what lies down there
but try to get a glimpse.
Don't be disappointed or have a grimace face for all we know it could be "heaven" waiting to be found in that place.

People tell you to speak your mind and we both know,you aren't worth their time. You begin to keep it inside and lie but yet you're still being criticized. They don't wanna see you sad but they also hate seeing you fine. They envy your happiness and are annoyed by your sadness. Truth be told, it's a cruel world.

As I stumble on down this hollow road,
I hear a voice, crying out for help.
A sound so fierce made me inarticulate.
I begin my search on finding this helpless soul.
If only I could locate the sound of her insipid voice..
The sound of pain that rushes through the pitch of her breath.
Along the way I see a shimmering light from a far. I darted my way to it
and as soon as I got there I found a mirror. As I got closer to take a glance at it, I see the girl. All along it's been me. Yelling from the inner voice in my head.

I want to take back all the smiles I put on your face, all those memories I wish I could just erase. I don't wanna miss you or the look in your eyes cause every time I reminisce I remember the lies.

drowning in tears, drowning in sorrow
said you'd never leave and you're gone by tomorrow. I can hear you whispering my name deep down memory lane. we keep arguing and it's driving us insane, you can't hear me and I can't hear you but we're both bleeding in pain. we're too busy keeping our pride when our love is being pushed aside. I can't promise you to be perfect or what you've always wanted but one thing for sure I'd never take you for granted. yeah my heart is small but my love is big I don't ask for much just don't treat Me like ****. I act strong to defend myself it doesn't mean that you're not breaking through my shell. I care too much that's why I'm always kept on a shelf and I have no one else to blame but myself. I see the good in evil and the evil in good. trying to deny myself from loving you is one thing I never could. I make mistakes and so do you but if you hold it against me then there's nothing else I can do. why do we hurt the ones we love? when we know we can't live without them. we let the devil in with his venom flowing through our veins not giving a chance for the madness to get washed up in the rain.
what happened to "I'll fight for you" now it's like I'll fight against you. does it truly matter who's right or wrong if it means losing the one thing that's keeping you strong? why can't we keep our madness to ourselves treat each other with love and respect that's what shows loyalty and I'm no royalty but I'm still a person who needs sympathy.

Tell me it's okay
Tell me I can't say anything to make you stay
Tell me im not the reason you're walking away
I'm out of breath
And we are out of time
I guess I'm not good enough
I was holding onto something that was never mine
I don't want to say goodbye but
I'll see you in my dream tonight
And darling you'll be my kryptonite.

Have fun like a teenager
Play like a kid
And be mature like an adult.

Drag me down
I don't want to be found
Drown me in
You're a beautiful sin
Just like a cigarette
Inhale me into your lungs
And I'll flow through your veins
The addiction will drive you insane.
Don't exhale me out
You're the oxygen I need
I'm far too deep
Without you I'll no longer breathe.

And this is where the story ends
you see things that you don't expect
you realise everyone only pretends
and you are left alone to pick up whats left
pain changes people and feelings fade
can't seem to learn from the same mistakes you've made
friends,hugs,smiles and love ain't it all fake
all those secrets and excuses just to not break
hide it all inside knowing you aren't fine
we know all we have is time,
but let's compromise there's no solution to the mind games
and there's no one but yourself to blame.
I tried my best to be everything you wished for
but you still left me no solution but walking out the door
again
we're not lovers, we're not even friends
I smile at your face
but my heart is filled with disgrace
because I was foolish enough to believe your lies
I am not complaining but poetry is just my disguise
you were a mistake
and I learned my lesson
I want to be with you now
and you're still guessing
So go ahead and enjoy your life without me
at the end we'll see who will be laughing and who will be in misery
I know I don't need you
but I was just hoping this would last
I have gotten over you
you were my first but you're not going to be my last.

Where do I go?
I can't accept an answer, nor do I know.
Do I need help? or can I do it on my own?
So much pain, so much sorrow, happy today and it's gone tomorrow.

Here we go again,
here's where i start to complain
and you pretend to know my pain.
each time it's harder to explain,
when i'm always feeling the same.
My mind is stuck in a maze
and i thought it was just a phase.
I can't seem to run or hide
The silence is killing me inside.
My feelings are kept aside
where my heart is left on a broken ride.
like adam levine says "I lied to my heart
because i thought you felt it"
and now i'm trying to forget it.
Take the very last breath left in me
exhale it into the sea, let it
flow and i'd finally be free.
The light begins to fade away
and my skies are filled with grey
I get on my knees and pray,
pray for a godforsaken light
as I sit alone in this cold lonely night.
I wanna tell you how i feel,
yell out to you so you would hear
but every time i see you
nothings clear, i close my eyes
and you disappear.
They say i'll know when love is real,
but it's hard to believe
when you're committing to a devils deal.
Love is a curse and a damsel in distress
we are fooled by what we see
angels that are devils in all reality.
We inhale toxic that are human beings
we let them in so deep,
they clog up what we need in order to breathe.
They devour the blood in our veins,
leaving us with nothing but insanity in our brains.
I'm a train wreck and I've mislead my way
trying to find a will to live another day.
I can honestly say i'm lost,
there's nothing left of me but my ghost.

Get me high
Then Give me a paper and a pen
And I will fill it with words
That you can't even comprehend
Ill take you on a journey
beyond ancient history
further to the future
you can be my student I will be your tutor
dive into my criminal mind
but try not to drown
seeing too much might get you blind
it's a roller coaster that goes round and round
endless doors to open
many secrets hidden
sins that can't possibly be forgiven
pure love that's forbidden
decisions mixed with confusion
a mystery with no solution
journey of illusions
your reality is filled with false conclusions
Just as the high wares off
and the clouds are above my head again
I put aside my pen
And the journey comes to an end.

Best moments are the ones that never last.