Breaking News: You are all alone.

Word after word you flung them at me
It didn't make a difference
My tears you didn't see

All these voices in my head
My own
Other people's

They said
Go **** yourself,
You aren't good enough
You're nothing
You're worthless
You ****

Tears starts to drop
Because if I can't release my emotions
It's the next best thing

My breaths get quicker
I can't move
I reach out for anything to hold onto
Trying to get a grip on my sanity

I gulp for air but there is none
Stupid global warming.
Try to make myself laugh

Doesn't work

So there it is
The corner of the room
The lights are off
So I stare

I try to see the corner where the two walls meet but it's just darkness

It reminds me of us.

Darkness is all I ever see.

The corner of the two walls where they meet

It's staring into a void because in this darkness I can't see.

It's but an empty black hole of nothingness that is waiting for us to venture closer so it can rip our hearts out.

Once again
Reminds me of you.

It's 3:25 in the morning
Why can't i breathe
Why can't I think

The corner of the room
In daylight it looks safe enough
But in the darkness?
It's something you can never trust

Rocking back and forth
Scratching at arms
Because I don't have anything sharper
I was prepared

I start to hear screams and think
I should help
Oh wait
That's me.
I bite my tongue
Bite my hand

Forcing the bloodcurdling noise
To stop

Because
No one wants to hear

No one does

Hide and Go seek was always the game I was best at.
️Hiding is the thing I'm good at

Searching
Scrambling
Throwing things around

Found it

A sigh in relief
Rip in two
Music starts to bleed from my soul
Words drip from my eyes

Regrets of broken promises
Regrets of broken medicine seals
So high my feet can't touch the ground
I move my lips but no sound

Am I a superhero?
Because I'm flying

That corner of the room
That **** corner
The last thing my eyes set on
Forever burned in there
As I fall

I know that insecurity isn't pretty,
*which is how I also know that I'm not beautiful

To all the elevators that brought me up when I felt down.
To all the friends that brought me high when I felt low.
To all the smiles that stretched across my face when I was frowning.
To all the chances that fell between the space in my fingers,
when they were in the palm of my hand.
To all the tears that escaped my eyes when I was trying to be strong.
To all the heart breaks I had before I met the one.
To all the friends that brought me up when others brought me down.
To all the laughs that escaped my mouth when I was silent.
To all the nights where sleep wouldn't come.
But it did.
But most importantly to all the love that escaped my heart when I had shut it down.

In the words of Taylor Swift
a love story began.
First, he stared at me across the room.
Second, he flirted with me.
Third, we had a casual conversation.
Fourth, he pushed a meatball across the plate to me.
Fifth, he asked me to marry him.
Sixth, he's not real...
My love life....

You come here often?
So do I!
Talking to a book....