My art is like a story that never ends;
My art is living, my mind is creative.

NATURALLY EXPRESSING YOUR FULL ESSENCE WITH THE
ABILITY TO OPEN UP TO YOU, HAVING THE
KEY FOR YOU TO SHOW ME ALL OF YOU, I WANT TO SEE, FEEL, HEAR, TASTE, 
EVERYTHING; YOU HOLD THAT
DIAMOND PIECE THAT GEM
NEVER HAD I
EVER
SEEN SUCH A BEAUTIFUL
SOUL

this shall past of the seasons
the leaves will continue to fall every fall
and the sun would always be the sun
and you are changing with the madness mentally
as the chaos continues, it eats deep
leaving you naked with only the truth
of what you hold
the reasons why you grasp
isn't measure for words that exist only in the mind
only for you to be left with confusion and frustration
the seasons will past the world ages
and you have to learn to let go
for the best version of yourself in the near future  

Have you ever thought
Our
Memories would be held here
Everytime I think about it, I can't help but cry

I want a bottle of wine
To wash away the hurt &
Drown myself in,
Cry myself to sleep &
Damp my pillow with
Tears

Numb the pain,
Because it seems like the only choice
I have
Numb every little negative thing,
I feel within

& the thought of feeling
Everything all at once
When you wake up
The next morning
It's an excruciating
Pain
I never want to feel
Ever Again

The way he talks reminds me
Of the Ocean
Because its so in
*Depth

There's always going to be someone that endures pain
Pain they wish they never felt
Pain they never knew was going to come

Plenty of memories
And
Someday I will learn
To let go

Every  Canvas  has a bit of  You
-Always-
My brush is always ready
To  glide
With such  Vivid Details
**You would almost believe its real

Everything she has written
Had a piece of him

Please,
I** ask you to hold
Every bit of my heart with
Care because
Every bit of my heart is
Sensitive

the warmth of your lips touch upon mine
Reasons why I always went for more
maybe if I sip this I can let go of every memory of you
I should have known you weren't any good

Perfecting the pictures of us
Remembering the times we had spent together
Overly thinking about the pain I've once felt
So many memories held in one single photo and I can't
Even think about putting it away

The rain starts to fall hard
Nothing but rain boots and raincoats
Don't forget about the umbrellas
Umbrellas were the worse
Every time I had one
It broke

I loved the rain more than the snow
The rain makes me think about you
Because I met you in the rain

& the long walks in the rain with you
Are memorable
We would spent more time in the rain
Then indoors
Which was lovely
I loved every second of it

I also
Fell in love with you
In the rain
& that's when You
Fell in love with the rain

R** emembering
A ll the drops whenever
I would look outside and wondered,
N ever thought I would hear my own

I see diffeRent
I no longer sEe
myselF,
Lost
within Every
inCh looking up at
The mirror and
wantIng
tO scream until the pieces fell
uNto the floor, as I try to find myself

Remembering
Every time I wish the mirror would just
Fall into pieces and shatter, I
Lost myself,
Every inch, wanting to
Cry because
The pain
I** felt within was so excruciating it
Opened my heart & pierced through,
Never had I screamed so hard

You ain’t invited but you making all the rules
Had me fooled
Save your sorries
I know you ain’t sorry
You know the saying:
Different day same story
Same old story
Telling me all these lies

Waiting till
I don’t know why I’m waiting still
Butterflies in my stomach
The not knowing
There ain’t no love here
Stop seeking
Stop wanting
There to be something that has no growth for you
Child
Let me tell you something
What dies doesn’t grow
You can’t water a dead plant
Let me hold you
Let me hold you tight
I know your heart feels heavy now
I know you understand but as you look at this
In the present but this is your past now
Understand I know this wasn’t easy
It never is
Take your time
Feel how you feel
Don’t numb the pain
Express your pain
Let it out
Let it all out
Everyone experiences pain
In there own shape pain

“Everyone’s experiencing pain
Experiencing pain
In there own shape pain
In there own shape pain”

Let me wipe your tears
Baby girl I know your heart feels heavy
I know you can’t mask the thought
I know it hurt
I know you hurt
I know you scared

“I know you sacred baby girl
I know your heart feels heavy
Oh It feels so heavy
Heavy

Say something
Let me know
Because
The Silence is
*Roaring

Say something
Because the Silence
Is roaring with the Echoes,
Your Presence
Makes my heart weak & heavy
I can hardly breathe
Your scent,
Burns my eyes & they start to tear
As of the rain on my window
After a beautiful shower
Your lips,
I wish I felt
The Bittersweet taste
That stays in my mouth
Every time I see you

And I'm sorry
But I can't wait any longer
My Love would never be enough
Let me know what will

She avoids mirrors
Because it
Brings nothing but
Bad memories

She wasn't a cutter
Nor she burned herself
She was abused

Sometimes when I'm looking for something
I don't know what I'm really looking for
But when I'm done looking
I end up with something
That either brings a tear or a smile.

Say
Everything, let it all out
Can you feel it eating you alive
Remember
Eventually
They'll all be revealed
Someday

Makes me
Die inside
Knowing we
Were something
Before

She  loved  flowers so much
She  planted  *her own garden

there would be more to her name
meaning of bliss
that the days to come meant more days to feel more alive with the sunsets and excitement through process of learning
that each principle is taught only to help her grow as a person within herself. Within others.
that she will grow to love herself as her own being
love her skin and everything she came with

J.oy

Sometimes the  Silence  can
******

S** ay something, put
I t in the most simplest words
L et me understand
E very reason, because I
N ever
C ried so hard,
E ver !

As  broken  and hurt as I might feel
I'm holding myself together
No matter how hard it may seem
-holding back my every tear that wants to slither
learning to be strong, knowing this will pass-  and
Sometimes I end up with more pieces
Than my own
Realizing I'm carrying yours as well
Helping you feel whole again
As I hold myself too
*Simultaneously

I look straight into the sky
And I think about You
Knowing your looking
Right back at me
Or making myself
Believe that you are
You know the little things
We convince ourselves
So we can get through
The day and night
We both share the same sky
We both shared so much
You adore me
I adore you
And even if things
Shift left and right
Just know that the sky is up;
Look up Joe
Because I'm staring
Thinking you'll be doing the same

I'm  obsessed  with the  canvas
We created
Above us  two

&
I'm always searching for  You
When I'm looking up into the sky

So
Much joy
It brings
Let it show;
Eventually someone will fall in love with it

IF THIS MY GOODBYE
SO BE IT
IF YOU FIND THIS
JUST KNOW
I LOVE YOU
WHOLEHEARTEDLY
MY DECISION
MY LIFE
YOU COULDN'T STOP SHEIT IF YOU TRIED
PROBABLY WOULD HAVE MADE ME STAY ANOTHER DAY
AND MAYBE ANOTHER DAY AFTER THAT
BUT EVENTUALLY YOU WOULD HAVE GREW TIRED
AND EVENTUALLY I WOULD HAVE TOO
I NEED YOU MORE THAN EVER BEFORE
LOOKING FOR FLOWERS TO BLOOM
IN PLACES THAT NEEDED FIXING
OR I THOUGHT NEEDED FIXING
FOR THAT MATTER

I HATE IT HERE SOMETIMES
THIS PLACE IS NO PLACE FOR ME
BECAME SENSITIVE TO EVERY TOPIC
BECAME SCHIZ EVEN
WAITING FOR YOU TO COME HOME

HOME
BECAME FURTHER THEN I THOUGHT
I JUST KEPT SPIRALING
SENSITIVE BECAUSE SHEIT GOT REAL
AND TEARS STARTED FLOWING
EVER SINCE THAT CALL CAME
I BECAME DISTANT
THAT OUTER BODY EXPERIENCE
WAITING FOR YOU
TO GET BACK
FELT LIKE I ENTERED ANOTHER
DIMENSION
LOST
TRYING TO GET BACK
EVERY TIME I HELD YOU
I FELT THIS DISCONNECT
WITH BEING PRESENT
I CRIED THE LOUDEST
YET NO ONE HEARD ME
EVERYDAY
FELT MIXY
I TRUSTED YOU
GOT ME
KILLED
****
YOU GOT ME
I HOPE YOU FEEL ACCOMPLISHED
WHY ME
OVERPLAYED
LIKE AN UNRELEASED BEAT
YOU HAD NOTHING TO LOSE
I FELT PLANTED
IT WAS **** ME WHEN IT RAIN
OUTTA STATE
OUTTA MIND
FEELING BODIED
DRIVING THE BOAT
PRAYING IT DON'T SINK
PRAYING THIS RAIN DON'T LAST FOREVER
HOW IT SUNNY OUTSIDE
AND ALL I FEEL IS RAIN
DRIVING THE BOAT
YET IN OUTER SPACE
MIND SPEEDING
IF ONLY I SMOKE THAT
THERE WOULD BE A LOT OF SMOKE IN THE AIR
IF I LEAVE NOW
THERE AIN'T NO COMING BACK

WEIGHING EVERYTHING
BECAME TIRESOME
I BLAMED MYSELF FOR EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED
THE BUTTERFLY EFFECT
TOOK A HOLD ON THAT SINGLE THOUGHT
I THOUGHT
FOR SO LONG
AFTER THAT

DISCONNECTED TO RECONNECT
DISCONNECT TO FEEL
RECONNECTED
YET YOU STILL LINGERED IN MY MIND
I AM LIVID FOR SPEEDING
MAYBE IF I SLOWED DOWN
YOU WOULD HAVE MISSED ME


WHAT MAKES YOU THINK
I WANT PEOPLE TO SEE ME LIKE THIS
WHEN I FEEL LIKE I'M AT MY LOWEST
TOO WEAK
TO WANTING TO GET UP SOMETIMES
I RATHER JUST STAY HERE
FAKING THAT SMILE KNOWING THAT SHEIT
WEIGHING ON ME

FELL TOO MANY TIMES
TRYING TO GET YOU TO
COMPREHEND ME
IT BECAME TIRESOME
I MISS YOU LIKE VACATION
THIS THAT YOU NEED STOMACH FOR
THIS THAT YOU READY HOLD ON
TRYING TO HOLD ON MYSELF

TO FAST FORWARD
I FINALLY MADE IT HOME
BEEN GONE FOR SO LONG
HOME FEELS FOREIGN
HOME DON'T FEEL LIKE IT DID BEFORE
SO I'M ALWAYS OUTSIDE
TRYING TO STAY OUT MY CONSCIOUS

SMOKE THAT DRILL THIS
THIS CONSTANT FEELING OF NOTHING CHANGING
HOME SUPPOSE TO FEEL WARM
HOME SUPPOSE TO FEEL SAFE
WHERE HOME AT
WHEN YOU ALWAYS IN OUTER SPACE


NOT SUICIDAL
THIS AIN'T NO SUICIDAL NOTE
NOT SUICIDAL
JUST CURIOUS ON
THE KILLER ME
NOT SUICIDAL
I JUST MISS ME

Suicidal thoughts,
Overthinking,
Cutting,
I
Eventually let
Them get to me, don't let them get to
You

So many times I forgave you, I
Opened the door over and over again
Realizing and
Remembering
You always had something back to   say

Sometimes when our minds
Is too sour
We need something*  **sweet

My thoughts so loud yet so silent
Be the light not the light switch
Control your thoughts don’t let it eat you
Baby girl you are so strong so beautiful
Your eyes let them see good
Although your going to see things that are going to surprise/ shock
Don’t let that shape how you view others
Not everyone shares the same motive
Your ears let them hear greatness
Control the sound.
Mute everything
Anything negative that distorts you in ways you feel bothered
For your mouth speak great power
Let your voice vibrate
Let your words disturb minds
Let it shake the room until the walls come tumbling down
Speak Volume
Your voice speaks value only speak TRUTH

Tears rush down one by one blinding me;
Every one of them
Are different
Reasons why they
Slither

Everything
Just
Started
To
Fade
&
I wish I could have
**Darken Us

S* ome of
T he reasons
A re not enough for
Y ou  but I want them to be,    *DON'T GO !

The wind would scream
The trees would dance
The silence would roar

Autumn
The trees are coated
With colorful leaves
And when they fall
It gives the cement color
The cold air making me shiver
Making every hair on my arm stand up
Through my jacket
The hot chocolate, warming up my hands
As I drink from my favorite mug
And the silence is still

Winter
Boots, scarfs, hats, and gloves are needed
Because the season is almost over
The trees are beginning to be nothing but naked
The wind would sing carols
Near Christmas Eve, People are happy
Families & friends are traveling
To unite with each others

Spring
The beauty of the flowers
Are ready to bloom
The wind blowing some umbrellas
On those rainy days
The trees losing some of its leaves
And falling unto the wet cement
And the silence is still

Summer
The beauty of the flowers were
Still Blooming
The days were longer
Ice cream trucks are up and down the streets
The trees are aging as it dances
The wind will forever scream on its own
And the silence continues to be, still

Throughout the year
The  Silence roared  the loudest in Me
You wouldn't have known
If I didn't tell you

&&
Autumn is near once again
And Silence is still
As everyone sees it

*Because behind closed doors it’s nothing
But a storm
And I start to lose myself
Little by little
Trying to hold myself together

The love stained every piece of me
It was Silent and chaotic simultaneously
The love that I imagined was a
Sense of euphoria through out my entire self
Seeking every book every anything
So it can fill every part that hasn't been touch or seen
I began to write, paint
Soon afterwards I turned to drugs
Is when I've finally
Felt the change within my poetry 
Within my painting
You gave it color, you brought it to life
You are my Medicine

☾  I am the moon  ◯
And you’re the sun    ☀
You always have a way of
Filling my days & my nights
With light
I feel so warm when were together
Whenever were close to each other we create
A beautiful sunset with
Our thoughts that we share together
                                                                                                  
☀   You light the sky during it's darkest hour                         ☄
You have stars that twinkle and shoot across the sky
We look up to find shapes in the clouds and stars that align
Looking at you with that pretty face
I feel good knowing I can kiss you at anytime

☾  Every time I see something beautiful
That the sky holds
I want to share it with you

The night comes with so many things
We yet have to discover
The sky is the canvas

The:     ☁                   ✮               ✈            ☁        ✮                    ☁
   ✈                ✮                     ☁         ✮                        ☁         ✈          ✮
                            ◯
Stars –shining up above in space–
Clouds –moving over our heads–
Airplanes –flying above us–
And the moon –seeming so close we can touch it–
It's within everything you picture it to be
Creating our own sky
Creating our own canvas
Making two skies,   –One–
Blending them together
Making a beautiful picture
So breathtaking
Silence starts to play a part
We let our minds wander

And I'm Staring at you
Until our eyes  finally  meet
That’s when you would smile
When you catch me looking at you
And I would just smile back
Me being next to you
Wanting to kiss you within the next
Seconds
I get so bubbly inside
And I can't help it

I love your presence
You Amaze me
**♥

The  ☼  will come out                                        
And so will the  ☽
And the day after that
And so forth
Just know that
I love you
Every second
The ☽ &  ☼ are out