You don't understand
It wasn't about the flowers you received from her
It was the way you lit up in joy when you received it
I didn't think it would affect me
But I was hoping the same reaction..
When I spent nights thinking which was the perfect gift for you.
Non of it mattered anyway.

That one time I needed you to fight for me.
You didn't.
That one last test to prove you kept your promise.
You didn't.
The one time I believed you wouldn't leave.
You did.

I didn't need to tell you the message of my love.
It was written all along...
Through my eyes..
In my heart..
Spoken from my actions..
Felt from my heart, mind, soul and touch.
But did you observe.
Were you patient enough to give me a chance.
The second you felt uncomfortable
Was the second you convinced yourself..
That.
Our love wasn't made for each other.
So here I am still convinced our love was real.
And there you are diving into the next place of comfort; Her.

My love was constant and sensitive.
Your love was shifty and repulsive.
My love was a work in progress
Your love was impulsively agrressive
My love was liberation
Your love was dictatorship
My love was repetitive
Your love was bipolar
My love was yours to believe and ours to cherish
Your love was covered in guilt drowned in insecurities cornered to lies
My love was receiving and giving
Your love was giving constantly doubting on mine never ready for receiving
My love was enough. Enough to make us live and move ahead to a beautiful future.
Your love was there but never enough to made you stay.

You fell deeply in love with me first.
But I loved you the hardest.
Cause when it came to staying and leaving
You never hesitated to leave.

Oh she was sunshine and fulfillment
He was storm and doubts
Oh she held him close to her arms
While he held her at arms length
Together they were happy
But what happiness would it be
If you're arent at the same pace
Two different speed of oars rowing a boat
Only ending up at the side of the banks
Stumbling upon weeds and wilderness
Never reaching the destination
Only to find out they were never in the same boat

I wanted to build an empire with him but little was I aware he was still battling a war within himself.