Have you looked at the mirror and seen yourself laugh?
When was the last time you actually had a genuine laugh?
Have you wiped someone's tears and felt their grief?
Have you taken the courage to comfort someone and say the right thing for once?
Have you tried to stop a friend from doing drugs and swallowing pills?
Have you stayed on the phone and hear someone's breathing till they fell asleep?
Have you encouraged a friend or a stranger recently?
Have you sat down and heard someone share their day?
The parts where they tell you how they messed up and regretted what they did.
The parts where they sit down and chew their last bit of a sneakers bar they kept when they had sad days?
The part where they bite their nails and shake their heads in hesitation to tell their crippling thoughts
The thoughts that may or may never bring you closer to them
The parts where they are just tired of complaining an dealing with reality
The parts where they sometimes dont have a clue what they're doing
But wouldn't it be nice someone telling them they are doing just fine?
To tell them to Keep moving on,is as simple telling a child to stop crying when he lost his favorite toy.
But aint it harder if you were in his shoes.
But every lonely night
They sit there wondering what they could have done right and how to deal another day being wrong and settling for a "okay , im fine kinda day.
Have you told someone they mean the world to you, and then discover they feel the same way or just used it to fuel their life then leave you ?
Have you felt so happy for your best friend that she finally found someone who loved her as much as you prayed for her?
Have you prayed so much to take the burdens away from your loved ones?
Have you seen a mother meet her newborn for the first time?
Have you seen a father watch his son win his first soccer tournament?
Have you seen a malnourished kid scramble over a stale bread only to save it for his dieying sister?
Have you heard a cancer stage 4 patient tell her regrets in life?
Have you heard someone's last breath for the last time?
Have you heard a woman cry when she fought one last time for her marriage over the last 13 years?
Have you even heard your father shed tears because well he was "supposedly thought to be the strong one and never to show his feelings in the family"
Have you asked the meaning of life to your grandparents?
Have you woken up early just to hear the sound of the waves?
Have you felt the comfort of a soldier returning to his family?
Have you seen the joy on a doctor;s face after a 12 hour surgery succeeds?
Have you felt the joy of a teacher when all her students made it through graduation?
Have you felt something in a long time and let that feeling linger?
Have you felt what's it like to look at all these from my eyesbut choose to stay and endurre it all?

Life is not like the movies, there are those happy endings and a lil chaos in between ,
I've learnt alot in the expanse of just being 24, yes the big 24.
To reach to this part where i am is truly a blessing,
A crossroad between embracing adulthood and saying goodbye to the 14 year old me.
But heck I never want to let go of the 4 year old me.
Its those quiet moments in your room ,
where you lay to yourself and take a glimpse of what made you, what broke you.
A step wiser.
A step closer to the harsh reality.
But guess what?
I look forward.

It begins with a very few words, but an array of emotions.
Its unspoken feelings,
Its the misalignment of words,
My head is underwater but I somehow enjoy the feeling of suffocation,
Submerged in my own thoughts,
I am slowly drowning,
Not a slight quiver with the sound of rippling waters,
I don't hear a sound above,
Above,.. where its all rustles and rambles of reality,
I feel safe underwater,
Often, I hear the whispers of doubt in my ear,
My head and heart has been detached for so long,
I'd forgotten the weight that it carried,
I feel lighter underwater,
Let me have a few moments more,
I don't mind the taste of salt in my mouth than to hear the lies you tell to comfort me,
I think this life finally belongs to me,
As i watch the sky above me, and feel the water beneath me,
I am one step closer to healing,
I have suffered a hundred seconds trying to appreciate a moment.
But for now,
After a very long time, I finally feel happy.
Truly happy.

The power of unrequited love is far more powerful, unlike other bonds its shared, but mine, mine, is all alone. Mine.

One day when i wake up and im like an angry depress person with such hate and dissapointment with my life . Would u still love me?

One day when i wake up with amputated limbs and losing the will to survive,would u be there for me?

: One day when i wake up with a mental illness,losing sight of myself, living in the walls of my own misery ,would u pick me up and show me the other side of the world?

One day when im in debts of my own failures and cast away in my own fears,would u hold me and guide me?

: One day when i break down and feel like giving up because giving out is all i ever lived up for but nothing seems to go my way,would you show me the light?

One day when im wrinkled,old, and smell like the corridors of the hospital ward,would you leave me for someone else?

Why do feel like my heart is going to be broken again?

I used to have delusions of infidelity of my ex, turns out I was always right.