shes an amazing person
she doesnt deserve this
shes one of my bestfriends
and im here only one
as i cried from the pain she felt
he asked what was wrong
and all i could do was lie
'nothing im perfect...'
when all i wanted to do was
ask him to hold me
even just for a day

i love you, you see
but you dont love me, maybe never did
i want to use & abuse guy after guy
just to make you see what you've done to me
just to make you jealous
just to sate the pain, the hunger, the desire
but i just remembered...
you would have to care for me to be able to hurt you
and you dont.

Дата была установлена.
то не существует.
Я действительно не хочу, чтобы это сделать.
но,
я на самом деле.*



*the date was set.
then it didn't exist.
i really dont want to do this.
but,
i really do.

i feel it coming to attack-
my feet drag-
my head spins-
i find it hard to get out of bed again-
my soul wants to live, but my mind is trying so hard to die-

i want people to want me
i want attention
i want to have the best high school experience
i want someone to hold me
i want someone to love me
i want to know who i am
i want to be me
i want to be noticed
i want to be liked
i want to be loved to the most extent
i want
i want
i want
i want to die sometimes
but does 1 want override more than 10?
i want to understand.

i aspire to be a writer so i can have my fantasies fulfilled, as sad as it sounds i will live through my characters and i will never write just for the money, all my books will be connected with me. if i ever publish, i will take time to meet my fans and explain my inspirations. because as a reader, i always want to know more...