H:  Hold
O:  On
P:  Pain
E**:  Ends..

Whatever we are, I still remember what we were..

It's so much easier
to act like none of this matters
and pretend to wear a smile
then to confess
my heart is nearly broken
and you have won

My heart is locked
with so much pain
black tear drops
fall from my face
every tear drop
leaves a puddle
with a memory
that's hiding from space
stocked away
behind my soul
shattered to pieces
with no where to go
locked away
to never get out
to see the good side
of my broken heart

To the point,
Where I really hate myself,
And don't even want to look in the mirror,
To the point where I don't give a **** anymore,
To the point where I know I'm worthless.
To the point you can't change my ways in looking at myself.
To the point where I want to tell you, I'll be dying soon.
To the point where I can't wait to get to my grave.

I seem happy, right?
You see no cuts on my wrist,
Only the smile on my lips,
You hear me laugh, you see me smile,

But did you take time to look in my eyes?
Did you see the emptiness, the darkness?
Did you check my hips?
Darling, if only you opened your eyes, you could see,
I was dying inside..