You're leaving
There's so many thing I wanna tell you
All this time I've been so **** scared
Never brave enough to confront you
To tell you, I like you

There's nothing between us
But this heavy heart keep praying that this is just a lie
It silently begging "please don't go"
Knowing that you wouldn't be here tomorrow
I hope today would comes to no end

Today
For the first time
I pray to god
For the blessing of
One guy that not related to me
No, not at all

God, please
One day
Let me meet him again
And make me brave
To let him know
That I love him.

May Allah grant them what they deserved.
He knows best.

Don't treat me like that
Don't look at me like that
Don't smile at me like that
Don't take my side when i fight

Because I often misjudge treat
I often misread eyes
I often misunderstand smiles and acts

I hate it when they turned out just a normal treat, look, smile and act
When I don't normally receive that.

Looking at a very sweet couple
"I wish that is me"
Looking at a beautiful woman
"I wish I am as beautiful as her"
Looking at a happy family
"I wish that one is mine"

For every beautiful thing I see
My heart would feel touched and ached
Wanted those moments I saw to be mine

Looking at myself standing in the mirror
"I wish I can be less envy and just appreciate what I have now"

I am emotionally tired
I am physically weary
I wanted to sleep so bad
But all I've done so far
Was lying on my bed
Staring the ceiling
In this dark room of mine
Wondering why
I've been doing this for hours
But I am not yet reach the dreamland.

Science said there's 4 basic needs of human

Food
Shelter
Oxygen
Water

Science is wrong

I need you.