"following the trials on your body guiding me through a life that you hide,
maps of the roods you've been through,
knowing every inch of your glories naked soul,  
I read the stories that you never tell,
with every mark every scar
Deeper and deeper you pull me in,
a beautiful tragedy you never knew you were,
you try to pull away but wanting not too,
and when you're arching your back telling me that all what I read is true,
leaving me wanting to explore every part you never shown,
you'll let me see I know you will
that beautiful tragedy you hid so well.."

"I'v been feeling empty for sometime now
Tried to stay in a place that I knew it's not for me
Been afraid of moving on to a different life that many wouldn't try to live
I don't feel like i belong here

Many would say pack up your things and leave it all behind
See I can't do that
It's hard

Contacted by blood that I can't wash off
I know they would leave me behind
And I know I should find my self a safe house
My own blood would shoot me down for there own lust

Why..
Why can't I leave
Wanting to leave a life it's become a wish
Looking out the car window
I know I'm not meant to be here
So much has changed the last 3 years
It's kind of a transition

Fear is controlling my steps  
Walking forward is scaring me
Leaving ordinary isn't for me
Always in the clouds
Not caring about anything
But
The blood line
That is rushing through my veins
Is poison
Pulling me down
Can't feel my own soul
There sounds crashing throw me
Going deeper
Until  I can't hear my own thoughts anymore

It's horrible to feel that your strong to reach the stars but waded down by blood line

My body each's for perfection
I'v let go of the past but it still keeps haunting me in my nightmares

Speaking in tongues I can't blame them they can't hear me screaming"

"It doesn't have to be black or white, the gray area of us is most certainly comfortable why discuss details about our dark souls that anyone could runaway from, darling my darling you wouldn't like it if my demons come out to play so let us be where we are now with no tears or promises to keep, be your kind soul that makes me laugh when I'm about to shade a tear be the light in our forgotten space, be the star that we would run to when it's all cold and gloomy, darling my darling I crave you deeply and hopefully that wouldn't change, you wouldn't stay if you know that my naked corrupted soul you wouldn't want to take my hand and walk through hell, I'm not the kind to believe kind sweet words you see so darling my darling don't take a chance with me, stay in our gray area believe me it's better in between, I won't cry on your shoulders I won't tell you my deepest secrets I won't want anything less or more, don't wish for something that could **** you my darling oh my darling"

"thoughts of life are clouding my view again, it has never been easy to let go so why would I start something real again, fake smiles to get what they won't, empty promises using trust though it's been died for so long, now a days walking on glass so I can maybe feel again, it's been a while since I'v been on my addiction thinking that it's a part of me now, opening up to some stranger wasn't ever my thing, the power around me feeding the empty cold space burning through my veins was a high I crave an additional information to who ever might be reading my words perhaps seeing life in its true form would help a lot, better than panting a dream that would die easily why bother to read why bother to crave why always thinking that there's a bigger plan, I enjoy my carvings oh darling I do why stop when it's all domed"




-2:33 AM

"a cigarette is the only thing that would die for you and **** you at the same time, that's a feeling I crave the most"