why did you come and try to make me fall in love with you
why did you cheat on me
why did I forgive you all those times
why did I let you take my virginity  
why did you say I love you first  
why did i love you too
why did I open up to you
why did you open up to me
why did I meet your mom  
why did I meet your family
why did you meet mine
why did you cheat on me in the summer when I was gone
why did I let it go
why were you closest to me when we thought I was pregnant  
why did I buy you all those presents
why did I fall in love with you
why did you claim to be in love too
why did you break our relationship up why did you stop the love
why did you leave me when I needed you the most
why did you pretend to care  
why did you use me these months
why did you break me
why aren't you still there

they say the good outweighs the bad.  
but what if lately the bad has been outweighing the good?
what if i cant look at you the same anymore
what if im trying so hard to find someone to replace you
i havent cried in 6 days.. and im not starting now
Im just stuck in this loop and honestly i want out  
i plead the day June comes
i cant take it anymore
i hate this
but i wont let u know
i wont let u see me cry
im tired of letting people see me weak
i want them to see me at my strongest even if im not that strong

it makes no sense
how you tousle with my fragile heart.  
you have all these hearts in the palm of your hand yet you always seem to want mine more.  
it makes no sense
how you kiss her goodbye just to kiss me hello, you have her already why do you need me too?
it makes no sense
how you love her but you're in love with me, love isn't like this.
it makes no sense*
how I know exactly what you do,
but I stay, I let you use and take from me knowing how deeply in love with you I am.

I might like you more than I thought I did. ****.