your life begins
when you take flight on tattered wings
that cant get you very high
that cant fly you very far
but you just kept on pushing
kept on fighting
kept on soaring in the sky

and look at you know
your wings completely healed
a perfect bird that toured the world
because you never quit
and you fought through the hurt
and now your so perfect
and know your so happy

once upon a time
when i was younger
i could smile
when everything hurt
because i couldn't understand
i didn't know that you
were slowly killing yourself
right in front of my eyes  
like i was nothing
like you never cared
so i will end this story
the way many have before
with a simple little
the end

sometimes i think its obvious
when i look back at my life
like somehow by being stronger then them
i earned myself happiness
like i had to endure the bad
live with the brokeness
build myself from the ground
so that i would be able to fully understand
the truth about falling in love

No one expects
An angel to set the world
On fire
But just you wait
Cause one day these flames
That I hide under my skin
Will burn you

Sometimes I notice it
When the walls get to big
And the world distorts
When I'm crashing to the earth
When the world is thruming
Pulling me under the universe
And other times I can't
Sometimes I lay
In pieces on the hard wood
While my mind rushes away from me
And crashing through
Like a meteor to the ground

I live in barbed wire
caged like an animal
restricted by my fears
that rise above me like fences
blocking off the world
from my insecurity
the tears I cry soak the wires
I hope one day they rust so bad
that I'm forced to be exposed

i love you like waves love the sand
because loving you is so much like being a grain of sand
and getting pulled in by the waves
like how you
pull me close and
draw me in
with your many wonders
so undiscovered so new
each time i discover more
i fall even harder
deeper into your depths
like the darkest parts of the ocean
never finding the bottom
but always finding more beauteous wonders
from the way your able to light the darkest places
like the jellyfish that shine in the midnight
you have my heart now
like the ocean has each of its creature
i need you
like each creature needs the oceans protection
i give you my heart forevermore
because i am constantly drowning in your waters
a grain of sand floating in your vastness

it was never the right time
so i broke my heart
by staying with you and refusing to let us fizzle out
i knew you would break me
knew this would hurt
so why did i let you make me take the fall

We are flowers with petals so beautiful
Each dyed with our past
Blood, abuse, fear, addiction
Each a different color each a different petal
Every trauma adding more beauty
For flowers teach themselves to bloom
Even after the harshest winters
And so have we

i cant sleep
not with you on my mind
not with you on my lips
not with with you in my heart
because all i want to do is be in your arms

double dutch.
double dutch
double dutch
life is like double dutch
we jump in and out of twisting ropes
pay attention.
pay attention
pay attention
you have to pay attention
because if you don't you might trip
don't fall.
don't fall
don't fall
don't you dare fall
because if you do we wont help you
jump the ropes.
jump the ropes
jump the ropes
jump in time with the ropes
because if you don't you will be left behind

you kiss me in the dark
but i can feel your smile
even as the evening grips the sky
in a way only god could paint it
lavender clouds filling our skies
you kiss me in the light
but i still feel your passion
even as the morning paints the sky
in a way only god could paint it
with pink clouds filling the skies

she is green
like the jealousy she seethed with
she was attached to the hip
at least that's what they all said
but in reality
she wanted to be him
to be best friends with me

he is blue
like the tears that escape him
he was my best friend
he is si depressed he steals his own heart beat
from me
from his family
from a planet that didn't love him

she is green
like the grass that grows on his grave
like the trees that line a meadow just for him and i
and she does not wait long
to replace his heartbeat
filling the quiet meadow
that i only shared with him
with sounds of anger and sadness
leaving its sacred ground broken

he is blue
like the flowers on his casket
as hes lowered into the dirt
like the blue bells that grew in our meadow
taken from me entirely
lost to me
lost to his family
lost to a planet that never loved him
but when im alone
his screams find me
and i wonder back to the now tainted
meadow

heart like fire
mind like stone
eyes like diamonds
our awful lives
have been disguised
by the beauty on the outside

You and me can make it
We will get to the other side
Like lovers do
I will reach my hands
Into your darkness
Wait for yours to interlock
I will stay with you
Because i know our love is true
I'm not giving up
So i wont let you
Even when were on our last breath
Even if were told theres nothing left
So please don't give up on me

they say that nothing is wasted
but perhaps
once we truly look into it
we are constantly wasting everything

if i were to wonder
even for a second
even for a moment
if im at my weakest
at my mind struggles to see the notion
of you
and of me
and this love we have made together
please just hold me
tighter than you've ever
closer than you have ever
and whisper in your deep kind tone
"i love you"

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every piece of me
is called to you
even when i try not to let it be
you over flow my senses
you fil my head
i wish i knew how to tell you
that your my entire world

God save the prom queen
She might be 18
But shes more broken
Then the window pane
That she stares out
When she cant escape
On the days when the bruises are to dark
When the rain is too strong
When the scent of liquor
Spilled on her in a fit of rage
When the broken bottles cover the ground
with to many shards to step around
When daddy finally comes home
Save her from herself

I could say you are not a monster
I could convince myself as well
but that's all it would be
a complete lie
but of course, you would be okay
if I really did say you are a monster
you would probably just say
"is it so bad to be a monster"
that's a complete lie
and you will always know it is

I've decided you and i
we were like stained glass
we shattered
we broke
and when I tried to fix us I suffered the cut
never putting us back together properly
and so when I finally gave up
and you finally started trying
I knew we were to far gone to ever fix

Trauma lights you on fire
Burns everything in its wake
Till every nerve is fried
Till every cell is on fire
It keeps you in your own personal cell
Where you have no company
Except for the thousand of thoughts
That keep taking hold
That refuse to let go
The question is
Do you let the fire burn you down
Or do you burn brighter like the Phoenix
And rise from your ashes

the summer sun
beating down on September
running out the cold
making the heat
thats burning down on the turf field
radiate burning holes
in the soles of my feet

I love you more
then the bad days ahead
I love you more
then the hardships to come
I love you more
than any year that will pass us by
I love you more
then any circumstance
I want to make sure your heart understands
because your heart means the world to me
if you ever doubt it just look in my eyes
because there you will see I love you more
I'm not saying its a competition
I just want you to know
I love you more

she is the moon shining bright
but she is only bright thanks to him
for he must first exist for her to truly shine
he is not the sun
no he's far from that
his job is far more important than simply burning for her
he does burn for her in a different sense
for he is the darkness that surrounds her
holding her
loving her
making sure shes all the brighter in his arms

you light me up
some may even say that your my sun
even when you feel burnt out you still shine
you always find a way to light up my life
and there's no one else
like you

you light me up
some may say your the lightning running across the sky
but i know you stay longer than a flash
i know you'll be here for me to split my clouds
but you linger longer than just a strike
you know when i need you
to hold me tight
and there's no one else
like you

we where brought together
not by luck
not without pain
not without brokenness
but by god
on our own roads to recovery
and in each other we find the answers
to the questions we began to drown in
and in those answers we found love

breath
a simple task
but something that broke me
when you told me he was dead
and instead of comforting me
you decided to say
breath

zoom in on you screaming
your hands beating
purple bruises on the surface
zoom out on me

zoom in to catastrophe
your arms choking
stealing cold breaths from soft lips
zoom out on me

zoom in on your apology
words flowing off your lips
thoughts that maybe you truly are sorry
zoom out on me

zoom in on your voice
whispering how much love
you had welling up on the surface
zoom out on me

zoom in on you screaming
bruises once again
growing purple
zoom out on me finally leaving

you reminded my heart
what it felt like to be loved
i held you too tight
and you promised
to never let me go
But then you left
Before I was ready to let go
for that
i will always hate you
because you broke my heart

It is the most wonderful feeling
To have someone kiss your wounds
Nurture your scars
And look at you not like your a disaster
Not like your the sum
Of all your mistakes
Of all your pain
And to love you even in your darkness
It is an amazing feeling
To know that you have a healer