she is the moon shining bright but she is only bright thanks to him for he must first exist for her to truly shine he is not the sun no he's far from that his job is far more important than simply burning for her he does burn for her in a different sense for he is the darkness that surrounds her holding her loving her making sure shes all the brighter in his arms
I've decided you and i we were like stained glass we shattered we broke and when I tried to fix us I suffered the cut never putting us back together properly and so when I finally gave up and you finally started trying I knew we were to far gone to ever fix
the summer sun beating down on September running out the cold making the heat thats burning down on the turf field radiate burning holes in the soles of my feet
they flood back as i close my eyes like a silent reminder the faces bounce in and out the pain comes rushing back was i the one who caused this could i have escaped this will i ever know?
before i met you they where just three empty words that i overused never understanding the meaning but now they feel met to you i know see me overthinking even the tiniest of moments even though you tell me i don't ever have too and i know that you will always answer my call but i can never pick up the phone and tell you the three words that are so brimming when i see it to you
You are a hand grenade In the shape of a boy Your kindness like an explosion Turning our love explosive You came into my life like a burst of fresh air And somehow you pulled me in Even as I worried the flames would burn me Except your flames aren’t painful Your flames are the most loving thing I’ve ever felt And as they swallow me burning around me I fell so hard that I could finally see why I loved you so much It was because you where a hand grenade In the shape of a boy
his name was jack a hyper breed at that he taught me love he taught me strength but when i needed him most he was gone in a blink the words he left inside may head still stands there like a useless thread his word were strong but hard to hear he said to me im sorry dear my job is done and so i must be gone i have changed your life whats done is done i do not mean to cause you tears but i must go for my job is done here
we where brought together not by luck not without pain not without brokenness but by god on our own roads to recovery and in each other we find the answers to the questions we began to drown in and in those answers we found love
in and out close to dreams in and out the hope so close in and out wishing i was close in and out waiting for my hopes in and out loving hopelessly and dreamlessly in and out i stand alone in and out life so cold
These woes are my canvas baby Do you get what I means These words have built my army Filled with my colors and dreams I try to rest easy But they wake me up early They bounce around me restless Till they feel like there honest Even when there spiraling out of control
before you no one was worth setteling down in my soul however i always wanted someone who could capture my heart and you are quite captivating somehow you have captivated me you have stolen my heart i am completely wrapped around your fingers i love you and your captivating voice and your captivating smile and your captivating words and your captivating soul and i think to myself perhaps we've captivated eachother
What doesn’t **** you makes you stronger I’ve heard that said far to many times But growing up in a house on fire That doesn’t make you stronger That leaves you with third degree emotional burns That manifest into unbridled chaos I mean I can’t even light the stove top I mean I can’t even taste cheep beer Or smell cheep wine Without the feeling of your fist Colliding with my cheek bone Without the feeling of purple bruises Burning across my cheeks You where the reason the house was lit on fire Don’t try to tell me I’m stronger
it was never the right time when i'd hit you up i kept telling myself i love you but i was just kidding myself all of our moments dragging along cause i still cant tell you the words that i needed to say and you hurt me under the surface and our troubled waters growing cold i will heal but you wont so before i go i want you to know that this isnt your fault and im sorry that there's nothing i can say to stop your hurting please dont let your mind make you feel so worthless before i go
i wait on the bay watching as he makes introductions but hes forever skipping me forever walking by i have to fight my urge to meet you walk up and shake hands with the deputy but my hands are far to ****** from crimes against myself knowing i shouldnt each time i commit another but still my hands are covered in a color so crimson that it almost hurts but i still keep committing and im sorry that i keep disappearing mr deputy
our love is just friendship lit on fire when i see you i fulfill my every desire you build me up before i fall apart your the first person I've not been afraid to give my heart you deserve the love that i give to you even if you don't agree i know i argue that's just my nature your my only love and the only one i will ever want
how does one ever recover from this? i don't think i ever can perhaps i don't want to perhaps its easier not to don't judge me though we all carry our own baggage some just carry it more inwardly
Water rushing above me The surface breaking and folding Bubbles floating escaping my lips Vibrating out of my nose Floating above my hair Burning in my chest that seems to keep growing Reaching toward the light Just out of reach As hundreds of hands rush down Pushing me further Taking me deeper Until my lungs stop Until i feel the buzz of oxygen Until i remember how to fill my balloons Until i remember how to float Until these fake bladders fill with amber liquid Until my breath comes back stronger And the images of me drowning fade into the back of my skull Like distant memories And i realize that i'm not in water But a hospital bed Drowning in fluids i produced Realizing that my body’s slowly killing me
you reminded my heart what it felt like to be loved i held you too tight and you promised to never let me go But then you left Before I was ready to let go for that i will always hate you because you broke my heart
sometimes i have all the inspiration in the world i write poem i write stories i write the inner folds of myself and sometimes i have absolutely none i cant walk i cant talk i cant even get out of my bed and thats just my depression i guess
No one tells little girls How boys with such pretty eyes Who smell like smoke, Who taste like rain, Who talk like silver, Are the reason behind Tear soaked pillows, Half finished poems And so many sad dreams
I live on an ocean Flowing with the waves Watching as they crash on the coast Watching as you run to meet them Connecting your world with mine You grass Your green Your smiles Your dreams Your sandy beaches Running to meet my water My blue My fear My destruction My coral reefs I watch gliding toward you slowly Until there is no space between us Not even molecules of air Until ocean and earth are one Like we always should be
i found a boy told me i was his world held the door held my hand through the dark and hes a kind boy hes from my past and we fell in love his eyes tell me it will last and though love is a fight he has met me half way and i know each time his lips touch mine hes the kind of man that is almost impossible to find
I won’t say I hate you Because no matter how much I wish I never met you i don’t But your love didn’t grow flowers It built coffins And I know it’s wrong of me But I don’t forgive you I can’t just forget how you Burnt the house you called a home to the ground Was that just to excuse all the pain you went through I remember when you would start fights Just to have the control to put tears in our eyes Now there soaking through the floorboards And I could always tell When the liquor was to strong I could see it in your eyes I don’t think I can ever understand what you did to me Are you better now that I’m gone
i wish i could give you my pain not to hurt you i would never wish that but so that you could understand I'm not broken or shattered i am beautifully rebuilt
dont you ever let your mistakes make you feel you aren't worthy of my love you are more deserving of me than i am of you you are the only one i will ever want you are more worthy of my love than any other person could ever be
I wonder if he's happy Now that he's gone on his A D V E N T U R E I wonder if he thinks about Me and him T H R O U G H The freezing cold nights I wonder if he ever looks back On the beautiful T I M E When he called me "mine"
i am broken i am shattered into a thousand pieces i am nothing but shards and yet i lay every **** piece down at your feet they've always been yours and they will always be take the ones you want leave what you don't rebuild me into what you need and i will make you smile every single day
I wasnt kidding when I said I love you I meant it with all my heart All my soul With all of me you are my world don't pretend not to see how happy I am how in love I am how much I want to be with you because I love you is hard but with you it comes easy
i break the ice so they dont see how i break inside i have to be kind or they'll make fun of my size i get told I'm to loud and i have to keep busy I'm sorry if i don't respond please don't forget me
i let them keep me around so there flaws just seem silly i say I'm okay or they wont listen to what i need to say i get told I'm not pretty and i refuse to be to proud I'm sorry if i think i sing well when you cant
i let you scream at me at me because i know its not at me no its at the stage its at the lights its at the speakers i just happen to be at the receiving end
i let you scream at me being careful not to tell you about my week careful not to tell you how i swallowed my tears careful not to let you see the panic attacks but they hurt but there there even though i let you yell at me
i see the kids who get awards for things like perfect attendance and best grades but why not an award for working the night shift cause momas adicted and daddys gone moma cant work cant be sober long enough so tell me why don't they have an award for keeping your family off the streets i come in late and all you do is scowl but you don't know what its like working from six to three for less than minimum wage i dont to math homework because im to busy doing taxes and paying bills
he is a rose his skin is soft and bright like the petals of a rose his voice as as deep as a shade of crimson like the red that surrounds the flower his personality sharp but kind precise like the thorns that decorate the stem and every piece of him is beautiful and majestic just like a rose a kind beautiful flower that holds a past of much love as i feel for him
Shallow waters are loud Whipping flowing Screaming begging to be heard Begging to be the center of attention Like how you Whip me with your words Flowing from your mouth Screaming at me begging to be heard Begging to center of attention
While deep waters are quiet Screaming in there silence Begging to stay hidden Like how I Was always quiet Screaming in silence to be loved But knowing my need to be hidden In a lot of ways we are like water
you set the bar into the sky how could i ever leave you i dont want to be 30 something and still in my head thinking about 18 something in a hotel room bed talking about forever wrapped up in your arms you are my everything
you set the bar in the stars how could i ever want to leave you i would rather be 30 something holding our kids telling them about 18 something the love story we wrote reading them every word and chapter you will always be my everything
why am I broken when did I get flaws why do you treat me like I don't deserve a shred of worth promise I'm not a fake ******* up lost cause I know I'm human but you treat me like something else and I know I'm human so why do you treat me like I'm something else I've always been there for you even when think don't think it is true I helped out I watched them cry I dried their tears but now I know there's no one here that even cares
I want to kiss you I want to feel the electricity between us I want to light the flames in your heart I want to burn the world with our passion I want everyone to dream about us I want our love to be the storybook children get to read I want to be open I want to be close I want to float into the sky without worry I want to kiss you I hope you want that too
i saw you just last night but it feels like i haven't my whole life but i know its just in my head i had been trying to hold onto love with people who never thought of me as enough but then i see the way you look at me and you set the bar above the moon so i don't want to be any older and still in my bed thinking about those Sunday mornings the way you listened to me the church that felt like home for me wondering what we could have been i don't want these memories to be past tense because your everything I've ever wanted
save yourself from the pain i caused save yourself from the broken pieces save yourself from the mess i create save yourself from the things i have done save yourself from the person i have become save yourself from the walls i build to high
the things that you S T O L E i will never forgive you for the person i was seems L O S T in some kind of transit i can't help feeling the P A I N that you inflicted on me and yet somehow i still B L A M E myself
im sorry i love you slowly sometimes and others i jump in head first i don't know what its like to love without being in survival mode but i want you to know that on the early march day you where my reason to stay and you still are even today
you only need my light when im running low only say to smile when my tears flow only want my love when it fit your schedule only miss my dress when you pull it off you love me on your terms not on what i need
books are my escape they paint roses with words they capture stories in full color they tell you of loves no one can see they remind me the world isn't always so bad but they also show you that when it is bad its always the worst
my skin was B U R N T in the bright summer S U N and it amazed me how yours T A N N E D but i suppose you were just a tad more S U N K I S S E D than i would ever get
I wish this time Didn't feel like a memory Like your hours of lectures Because I'd never be good enough Never be thankful enough But what could I tell you How could I thank you When you provided the bare minimum And used gifts as manipulation Just to take them away before they derived any joy How could the isolated child That never asked for you To take your trauma out on them To be thankful