My stomach cannot
******* handle choking back
these tears anymore

So we jumped rock to rock
Through the unknown river
Your **** in those jeans
Makes my heart shiver

The way you move along
While sometimes looking back
The smirk on your face
Gives my heart an attack

We swam in our skin
Till our lips turned blue
Being this happy
Is something I never knew

The way you out shine the stars
That we gazed upon that night
I'm a sucker for those
Who are clever and bright

Lasagna, tacos
Mac n cheese
Your company
Puts my nerves at ease

I'm crazy with a crazy
That's crazy for you
I can honestly say that
That's truer than true

The way you grab my hand
And pull me into your chest
Something tells me
That we're gonna get undressed

The floor steals our clothes
And the sheets become our abode
The way you bite my hips
Makes my heart explode

Taking shot after shot
But you didn't care
You laughed along with me
When I broke the chair

I broke my neck
And the chandelier
You picked me up
And then kissed my ear

You bandaged my wounds
While holding me down
You are the most amazing chick
That deserves the biggest crown

Hair full of glass
And a girl full of concern
Unconditional love
Is something she'll earn

I jumped off the railing
And fell into her heart
If it was up to me
We would never be apart

I'm no help to you
I'm only a distraction
From reality

I don't like this
Please don't ******* back
I don't want to come back!
I want to stay trapped in my dreams forever
I will never make it in this world alone
Losing grip
My fingers slip
And I'm falling out of focus
Craving this adventure
Tumbling down and off the edge
Landing in a pile of something
Soft and heavenly
No desire to even get up
Because I love it here so much
This place is not Reality
My eyes tickled by the winds of love
My heart lunges without a second thought
Chasing it with all my might
Fearing nothing in the way
Eyes open and arms spread
Senses heightened and pulsing with alert adrenaline
A jumping dive, head first
Into something dangerous
But oh so fanFUCKINGtastic
Catching it
And squeezing it between all my fingers
I can't stop
The fun has just begun
I'm finally in love with life
Enjoying every ounce of oxygen
That comes in contact with my lungs
I won't stop
This feeling is so unreal
Finding a place where everything is perfect
Nothing to be changed
Feeling nothing but pure bliss
Muscles strain to hold on
To stay under the surface
But time is time
And it rolls me forward
To meet Reality face to face
Eye ***** search me
Up and down
Finding that I carry a heart full of happiness
Reality doesn't like happiness
My eyes drop and discover
Reality carries a depression
That lingers in a bag over its shoulder
That weighs a ton and a half
And it strikes me in my heart
Tearing the lining and watching my happiness bleed all over the floor
Killing and defeating
My happiness lies within the mind of a dreamer
I'm not created to fit this worlds standards
I've known that from the start
Dreaming and seeing
Realizing that reality is a ******* joke
That its the ultimate mood killer
Erasing the minds choice to check Reality
Sinking deep enough down
Hiding away with my happiness
Cuddled up against me inside my dreams
No one will find me here
Not unless I want them to
If I could make my dreams my reality
I would hold the world in my finger tips

Your innocent way of snaking open my heart
And tip toeing your pride inside
Shaking up everything in my kingdom
You slam the door to my heart
Over and over
Rattling my bones
Shattering my hopes
Destroying my foundation
Oh how you warned me
But I let you
I watched you take every single piece of my being
That I've spent so much time repairing
And played with it
Until you realized that you didn't know how
So you drained my moat of insecurities
And dismantled my walls of trust
You reconstructed a structure to support your own walls
You called it love
I call it devious selfishness
But within the pain
There was something different about you
And my gut was snagged on it
You've come through with explanations that were in my favor
Pain was never your plan
A submission of a simple antidote was issued
But you never took a second to listen to me
Your selfish needs defeated your focus
Its either everything or nothing with you
We could've waited this out together
Just to sit tight as friends
Wasting no time devouring each others company
Until the dust settled
But according to your behavior
You're just so entirely and terribly confused
At the beginning
When you charged the castle
My mind saw you holding control
Confident with your foot through the door
But time reveals how you're not even a brave warrior
You're just a floppy little jellyfish
You started this trouble and backed out
Before you could finish it
Leaving the ties untied
Letting words be unsaid
Losing the desire to act
And although whispers of secret lust
And crazy attraction
Linger on our lips
Where's the ambition that started this mess
Dig deep and find it
I'm begging you to finish this struggle
Don't make me finish it for you
Be spontaneous
Be forward
Be the strong confident girl that you showed me you could be
You can't lose
After all this destruction
The doors will open with just a glance of your light
You made it far enough into my heart
Please don't turn back now
I honestly just want you to know
That I'm still here
While you cower in a corner of fear
Wallowing in all your questions
Instead of acting on the emotions that are tearing you apart
Give me a chance to show you a whole new world
I'm still standing tall
For you...
You can't stay there
In a place that's unhealthy and miserable
Too scared to come out
So it's safe and predictable...
I can see it in your eyes that you're craving so much more
These feeling are killing you
Let them free and finish what you started
Step all the way through the door
And I'll catch you on the other side

No matter how hard
The cries will never be heard
And you'll never come

My lungs are
Caught
In a trap
And it hurts
From the
Amount of
Pressure
Closing in
On me.
                              Crashing through waves
                              Of a dark storm
                              Over seas of
                              Neurons
                              In my head
                              Connecting
                              The dots
                              Of you
                              As we wonder.
     Splintering panic
     Moving at the
     Speed of light
     Through a
     Maze
     Of arteries
     Extending
     Out from
     My heart.
                         Standing alone
                         In shadows
                         Only echoes
                         Can reach,
                         A formation
                         Of mental objects
                         Arrange
                         Introspectional
                         Shape.
               Meeting in
               The middle
               Strangling
               My every
               Attempt
               To
               B
               r
               e
               a
               t
               h
               e
                .