That oh so lazy comfort
Warm and content
Knowing that you slept well
And dreamt even better
Immobilized by your visions
Wanting only to close these eyes
To re enter the dream world
Outside the covers is a cold world
One you do not have the slightest interest for
Because she won't be there when your eyes are open
So you're simply tempted to lay back down
Shut your eyes tight
To lose yourself again
Begging for more
Because you don't want to do anything
But be with her again
So happy just buried in pillows
Taken away to some outlandish paradise
Soft and smoothly encased in warm cozy blankets
That through your dreaming eyes
Those blankets wrapped around you
Are really her lips wrapped around yours
The thought of leaving this place is unbearable
Nothing bad happens here
It's when the daylight wrenches my eyes open
To bring me back to earth
That I realize
I don't want to be here
Alone
I just want to lay here forever
To go back to my paradise

It's like I can see it in my head
As you're texting the words to me
I can see how stressed you are
Your head in your hands
Pounding with frustration
Constant wheels turning
I can only imagine how exhausting it is
And I squirm and struggle to sit here
Because I can't do anything about it
Oh how I wish I could take you away
Teach you how to relax
Slow down time
Count each breath
Feel it
Fill your lungs
Feel me
Seize your stress
Let me work those knots
Lay you down and straddle your body
Kneed your skin and play with your hair
Ease your mind off those headaches
I can make the pain disappear
Dissolve away
I'll mold your mind into a warm balance
Nothing but my hands on your mind
Forgotten the outside world
Feel me
Awaken forgotten nerves
Feel it
Relax your muscles
Please
I beg
Let me take you away

So she's pretty
And she's nice
But she's not honest
So we have nothing here

I do not know what else to do
I don't know what else you want me to do
I can't act for you
I can only do so much
What do you expect?
Cause I hope you can at least see that I'm trying
I tell you these things
Hoping to get inside
But I don't think my words mean anything to you
You just like the way they sound
But you really don't want anything to do with me
I can just tell
I mean
I play along
But I'm just fooling myself
We plan but never follow
And I'm tired of waiting
I'd rather go to bed
I'd rather go to bed with you waiting for me under the covers
Warming up the blankets for a good deep sleep
But all this waiting for you
...
I wish you would just say you don't want to hang out
Instead of saying yea and then ignoring me
I'd rather you just tell me to shut up when I start to tell you the truth
Instead of agreeing with me
I don't want to be lead on
I don't want to play these games
Yea it's cute how you make me feel like I'm 13 again
But lets not act like it, okay?

I avoid those serious talks
Ya know,
The ones about everything you hold inside
Who doesn't?
Oh yea
Attention ******
But guess what?!
I don't brag about my problems
I choose very carefully
Who I want to talk to
Most of the time I don't choose anyone
But things like that
Really kinda do need to be talked about
Lift that weight off your chest
But
It's hard for me to get started
When someone asks
"How are you"
I made it a habit to say
"Okay"
like yea
I'm perfectly awesome
And a tiny part of me wants that person to detect something in my eyes
But it never happens
I'm either a super good liar
Or they just honestly don't give a ****
And I bet I could guess which
I just really have a hard time
Like I get the urge to invite someone to have a coffee with me
Just so we can talk about all the bad things
Get it out of the way
I know...
How awful is that?
But I feel like my life is a huge secret to everyone
I need friends who know how to be honest
Who care and want to know me
Good and bad
I can't handle fake people
Or those people that are addicted to attention
I don't want to be one of those people who want people to pity them
I don't want pity or anything like that
#1 reason why I don't talk willingly
I just want someone to listen
And hopefully understand a little bit
And I'll listen right back
I need some kind of
Normal
Non dramatic
Serious
Equal
Friendly
Talk
Those people that either don't say anything at all
Or they give you advice on your problems
That's what I like
Those people that listen and then say
"Oh well I have problems like that"
Or
"Oh well my dog ran away"
Or
"Oh well I went to comb my hair and..."
Subject changers
They direct everything towards themselves
Attention stealers
It's like
Come on
I can't talk to you
Nothing I even say goes in your head
All it does is make you think about yourself
When it's like
I'm asking you for help
And your talking about yourself
That helps me a lot
Thanks
But seriously
Just a friend to keep updates with
Share our current situations
Back and forth
Equally listening and caring
Please tell me you know what I mean

I try not to think about you
But we meet in my dreams at night
And admitting this to you
Just doesn't seem quite right

Because as the days go on
Real life reveals our passion
We tell ourselves we crave this
But our actions lack the fashion

Our communication is awful
And our plans never come through
My mind wants to surrender
Because my brain sees what's true

But my heart remains blind folded
And it flickers some sparks
It's clear that my hearts a fighter
Just take a look at the marks

It's kinda broken
But it works just fine
I'm still going to try
To make your love mine

I wish you'd try harder
To involve your feelings
Because sometimes mine
Burst through all the ceilings

But somehow I know
Things just aren't meant to be
So my plan is to hang loose
For anyone else interested in me