My Mind of Ecstasy is Broken...
Awakening into Insanity-I Am-My Reality...
Fear Has found Me...

They Left  Me...
My Fear...
They're gone...
My Fear found Me...

I feel...
Broken...
I feel...
Empty...

I have now...
Forgotten...
My Memories...

They took It...
Took it and Destroyed It...
I'll never get it back...
It's locked...

They were my Family...
They kept me Going...
They were my Sanctuary...
My Happy Family...

Roses are sprouting
The violets in bloom
The rain is falling hard
Just like I am for you

Pssst
I have a secret...
Promise you won't tell?
If you break our promise you may die...

Was that a threat?
I cannot tell...
A little girl in front if me...
Something is amiss-not well...

If I tell you the secret...
Can I trust that you'll keep it that way?

Those words-no-her* word echoed...
Trust a strong word indeed...
Can she trust me?

I trust you,
So let's keep it that way~

What way?
What secret?
What trust?
Words I want to say...

Hush, I know what you want to say...
But first let me tell you this:

History is repeating...
It has been renewed.
Your life is now nothing...
You are your own dying art piece of a dark ****** hue.

People can't keep promises...
That's why trust is so hard to make.
People leave each other...
That's why relationships are usually fake.

Stop!
I don't want to know!
I want my eyes closed!
This pain is unnecessary,
Leave the truth Untold!

But this ****** little girl continues,
As if I never Spoke...
I cried for her to stop,
Covering my ears as she spoke.

But her words penetrate...
Deep...Deep...DEEP...
Into my Mind...
Into my Soul.

Unfairness has been breached...
By the inhumanness of this world.
War is just there,
To bring down our walls...

Speaking out your mind!
You are silence for all!
People think you're crazy!
Many will watch you fall!

If you think me insane,
Think of this now!
You are the crazy one!
Believing these lies,
THAT WILL BEFALL US ALL!

OPEN YOUR EYES YOU NÏAVE LITTLE *****!
DO YOU BELIEVE ALL THESE LIES THAT HOLDS DEATH'S STENCH?
Of all the things...
You wish to not do...
YOU CHOSE NOT TO OPEN YOUR EYES,
TO THE PAIN OF THE TRUTH!

I run to her.
I covered her mouth.
I have to silence her,
Or Death will befall us both.

**Hush child,
All is well,
I Know these Secrets,
And I know none of them is well...

But speak no more...
Child of Sight...
For the world forbids us...
To open our eyes...

Keep these a secret...
Until the time is right...
Fore Darkness will crush...
Every force of Light...

Sip your tea
Don’t look at me
Close the door
Just ignore her
But only for today

Because tomorrow starts
Anew
Nothing hurts in the
Fog of daybreak
Hazy minds

Make a promise
For difference
For change
For abandonment
Of Old Ways

They’ll take you in
Guaranteed
It hurts and it’s suffocating
But they’ll take you in
Guaranteed

Sympathy
Don’t take their pity
Arrogance
You know you’re better
Smarter

Flee
Self-hate, self-loathe
Play the martyr’s game
But you know you’ll never win
Despite your timely tries

Please take me in
They’ll take you in
Less than guaranteed
Please take me in
Abandoned

Being alone is more
Than just staying at home
You could be walking down the street
Like you're trapped inside a dome

Everyone around you just stares
"Hello, doesn't anyone notice he's there?"
You could talk in the loudest voice
But nobody will look or seem to care

And most of the time
They'll think its a crime
To walk and walk...
But never talk

And at night when you're laying in bed
You'll remember it all and it plays in your head
Over and over it plays like a tape
Then your eyes close over like a dark drape

I have these lucid dreams
of you that seem
to make me think
that theres a chance
for you and me,
I take a drink,
im scared to glance
in your direction
like a band, we're all fans of your affection
yet you stand above us all as we wave flags of our surrender