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Kurt Philip Behm May 2024
Chapter 13: An Uncertain Trail  
Cutty was once again headed down a trail with an uncertain end.  He didn’t feel good about the riders ahead or what their true intentions were.  Jimmy had said: “They are probably cowboys from the Bar Circle T Ranch,” but he had only been guessing.

He charged up the rapidly darkening trail…  

The only thing he was sure of was that he was forever duty-bound to a code that had taken him captive so very long ago.  It never mattered the circumstance or the odds of success.  When her voice called—and his honor was once again at risk—everything else became subservient to his sense of duty.

It had first called his name in Central Park over twenty years ago.  He had been hunting pirates behind a pond, on the east side of the park, when the message was first handed down.  It was delivered in the scream of a young girl coming out of a small cave on the far side of the pond.

As the bats flew out of the cave, all of the other boys ran.  Cutty never wavered, as he covered his head and charged.  Inside, was a defenseless seven-year-old girl who had wandered away from her nanny.  Cutty covered her with his jacket and led her back outside. As the other boy’s heckled and jeered, he never stopped or even looked their way.  That young girl’s name was Miss Shepperd, but Cutty had heard the nanny call her Destiny—Destiny Shepperd.

Cutty was now riding his five-year-old horse at a full gallop and the white sweat from the horse’s withers had covered his trousers.  His knowledge of tracking was enough to tell him that the shoe prints were becoming more pronounced the further west he rode.  He was gaining on them.

Five miles later, there was less distance between the front and rear hoof prints of the riders ahead.  They had slowed down.  They were now either cantering or walking their horses. Cutty decided to get off and walk his horse until he was sure.  He knew his horse could use the rest, and he needed the quiet to be able to hear what might be up ahead.  

He walked for twenty minutes, as the tracks in front of him became fresher and fresher.  There was no doubt in his mind that the riders ahead of him were walking their horses too.  

It was now late into the evening, and he thought he heard voices coming out of the trees ahead.  As he edged closer, he could smell wood smoke and hear the sounds of a fire.  Cutty knew the other mounts would smell his horse in the night air before he got much closer.  He decided to tie his horse to a tree thirty feet off the trail.  He had learned from the Gurkhas in Nepal how to move soundlessly through the brush.  He held his sword close against his body, as he advanced through the dark.

The trail started to enter a deep ravine.  At the bottom, he could see five horses all tied together.  Fifty yards past the horses was a raging fire.  These men were not worried about being seen.  Cutty listened for voices as he moved past the horses.  The sounds that he heard in the night air were emboldened with inebriation.

These Men Were All Drinking

“Good,” Cutty said to himself.  “A drunken adversary is only half the threat that he is when sober.  This adjusts the odds a little more in my favor.”  Still, Cutty wasn’t going to take anything for granted.  Five drunken cowboys, if that’s what they were, could still be a lot for him to handle.

He checked the cylinder of his Colt .45 to make sure it was fully loaded.  He didn’t want to repeat the mistake he had made when rescuing Adrian on that hill in Portugal.  After chasing the Basque Assassin, Bakar, through the hills above Lisbon, he had forgotten to reload after shooting at him and several of his men.

He was sorry now that he hadn’t asked Jimmy for his Colt, Model M1902.  It would have given him eight rounds in case the six in his Colt .45 were not enough.  The Colonel had always told him that, … “In direct confrontations, there is very little chance to reload.  Most fights are over by then.”

The M1902 was a semi-automatic pistol developed by John Browning for Colt in 1902.   It was an improvement on an earlier design.  The military version had a square and lengthened grip frame allowing it to carry an additional round in the magazine.  It fired eight rounds of .38 ACP from its six-inch barrel.

With his Colt .45’s capacity of only six rounds, Cutty would have to be deadly accurate with each shot.

DEADLY ACCURATE IS WHAT HE HAD BEEN BEFORE!
  
As he came out of the woods and passed by the horses, he tried to move quietly so as not to startle them and give himself away.  
The lead stallion whinnied as Cutty brushed by him in the dark.  The noise was loud enough to arouse two of the men and they came to investigate.  Cutty moved further off into the shadows until the men were satisfied that the horse had only been reacting to a small animal in the brush.  The two wobbly figures mumbled to each other as they walked back to the fire…

“We’ll teach that filthy redskin a lesson about wandering this far off of the reservation,” the bigger of the two said.  “His body will only strengthen our story about the missing cattle.  When we get done with this running iron he’ll wish we had killed him when we killed his horse.”

All five men were now seated again around the fire and passing two bottles of whisky back and forth.  There was no sign of Not-Many-Prisoners anywhere.  Cutty said a prayer that he was still alive.  Based on what the one cowboy had just said, he was pretty sure that he was.

But Where ?

A running-iron was a free-handed branding tool that allowed the cowboy to create a design of his choice on the animal with its hot glowing tip.  Unlike the forged designs of most branding irons, the running-iron allowed the brander to change, or go over, an existing design making it a favorite tool of rustlers throughout the west.
Cutty circled around the ravine to get closer to the fire.  The five men had continued to drink, and their words got louder as their attention span’s diminished.  As the sparks danced in mock adoration …

Cutty Started To Plan


Chapter 14: Right Toward The Fire

He looked down at the gleaming brass on his blouse.  As an afterthought before leaving home, he had stuffed it into his satchel.  He wasn’t sure why, but he thought that maybe—just maybe—it would be useful in some way.  The buttons were now alive in the distant glow from the firelight.  They would appear as multiple sets of eyes coming out of the dark.

Cutty looked intently at the five men as they continued to pass the two bottles around.  Their faces were greasy and unwashed, and they sat with a demeanor that gave away their intentions.  They were among the lowest of men ...
  
These Men Hadn’t Seen A Washtub In Over A Year

Cutty remembered back again to his cowboy friends in Abilene and Dodge City—they looked nothing like this.  They had been righteous and straight, and their posture and speech only reinforced their true makeup.  They were nothing if not respectful of those around them and totally dedicated to their craft.  Cutty appreciated that. Their loyalty to the ranches they worked for equated to his unwavering commitment to a life of duty and honor.

Those Men All ‘”Rode For The Brand”

He had developed a kinship and brotherhood with those cow hands back in Kansas, and he had made himself a promise to one day go back and visit them again.  He knew as he made that promise to himself, going back was something he had never been able to do before.  He hoped  this time it would be different.

“All right, who’s going first?” Cutty heard from the cowboy seated at the far end of the fire. “Who wants to put the first mark on that filthy redskin?”  “I’ll do it, Jack,” said a man seated ten feet to his left.  “I’m going to burn a dark groove right between his two beady eyes.”  
“OK, Pete; you and Bill go get that stinking Piegan.”

At this point, Cutty had not seen Not-Many-Prisoners, but he knew he had to be close.  The two men walked toward where the horses were tied and within five minutes were back.  Each man had Not-Many-Prisoners by an arm, and the Piegan Elder was slumped forward and struggling to walk.

Cutty Had Walked Right Past Him

“I don’t think he liked being tied to that horse, Jack.  He about pitched a fit when we cut the ropes and took him down.  Bill gave him a good jolt to the head with his Peacemaker to get him to behave.  I don’t think he’ll give us any more trouble.” “Good, you and Bill tie him to those two small cottonwoods over by the water.  Then we can let the real fun begin.”

Some Of These Outlaws Were Carrying Colt .45’s

Cutty couldn’t believe that he had walked right by Not-Many-Prisoners when he had entered the ravine.  “How could I have missed him so close in the dark?”

Not-Many-Prisoners had been tied cross-saddle to the biggest of the five horses.  It had been the fourth one back as Cutty passed by in the dark.  After tying him to the saddle, the outlaws had covered him with a canvas tarp making him impossible to see.  It also made it almost impossible for him to breathe.

Not-Many-Prisoners was lucky to be alive.  Had Cutty been able to see and untie him, it would now be two against five and they would still have had the element of surprise working for them.“I wonder if Not-Many-Prisoners knows I’m here?  He may have heard me as I walked by, especially when that lead horse whinnied, and has kept quiet to protect me.  Or, he may have been in such rough shape, that he missed me entirely.”

Cutty wasn’t sure of Not-Many-Prisoner’s mindset but he was sure of one thing ...he didn’t have much time.   As the vile, and now drunk, outlaws tied Not-Many-Prisoners to the cottonwoods, Cutty hurried back to the horses.

He quickly and quietly untied them from each other—he needed to make a statement.  The cowboys were still drunk, and a drunken man’s imagination often gets the better of him.  He was hesitant to do it, but he felt he had no other choice…

He Unholstered His Colt


Chapter 15:  A Different Brand Of Justice

The horses had been bound together with a technique that Cutty had never seen before.  They had all been tied to a forty-inch branch that allowed them to move freely and graze without getting tangled.  It lowered down as they fed and then rose when their heads straightened back up.

Cutty vowed to remember this for the future.  It provided for both security and a limited amount of mobility.  It had been invented by the Cheyenne and was used extensively throughout the southern plains. The Colonel had been right when he said: “The Native Americans are noted for their prowess in stealth and tactics.” Cutty untied the horses from the branch, and—with three of the reins in his right hand and two in his left—started to walk them slowly toward the fire.

He knew his next move would be costly, but he needed to create as big a diversion as he could.  It would only leave five shots in his Colt, but the effect would be worth the bullet, at least that’s what he hoped.
.
He Reminded Himself About Hoping Again

The Colonel had warned Cutty repeatedly about hoping.  “Wishing for a certain outcome is not worth the mental effort you will put forth.  Keep your attention focused on the task at hand.  That will afford you the best chance of success.”

Cutty slapped the lead stallion on its **** as he fired his Colt up into the night sky.  At the report of the gunshot, all five horses took off toward the fire like they were being chased by the underworld god, Hades.  Entering the mouth of the ravine, there was not enough room for them to go around and avoid the fire.

They Charged Straight Through

The horses charged across the fire as the five cowboys looked on in drunken horror.  There was smoke and flying embers everywhere.  Two of the cowboys at the far end stood up and tried to run but were trampled by the horses before getting very far.  The lead cowboy, Jack, managed to get to his gun before leveling it in Cutty’s direction and firing.

Cutty redrew his Colt while dropping to one knee.  He sighted his big .45 and fired before Jack could get off a second round.  The bullet went straight through Jack’s right shoulder causing him to drop the big Peacemaker as he fell back away from the now-scattered fire.  
Cutty picked up Jack’s gun and ran toward where Not-Many Prisoners was tied.   As he cut his restraints, he handed him Jack’s gun saying: “There are five shots left in the cylinder.  Here’s six more rounds in case you run out.”

They both turned to face the startled cowboys who were now crawling through the dirt trying to make sense of it all.  With a KIAI that none of these rustlers had ever heard before, Cutty advanced.  One by one, he grabbed the men and threw them face down onto the dark ground.  He then yelled to Not-Many-Prisoners: “Tie them up with their hands behind their backs.  I’ll tie the one that I shot after I check on his wound.”

The KIAI Had Been For Not-Many-Prisoners Benefit

Cutty checked on Jack’s shoulder.  It was bleeding profusely, but it was a clean wound and the bullet missed any bone or cartilage as it passed through.  Cutty grabbed the bandana from around Jack’s neck, ***** as it was, and wrapped his shoulder.  “This will help to stop the bleeding,” Cutty said.  “Keep pressure on it with your other hand.  It’s better than you deserve, but you might just live if you keep it from bleeding out before you get to a doctor.”

Jack had been staring at Cutty’s blouse as he doctored his wound.  “So, you some kinda government agent?” Jack asked, as Cutty started to walk away. “I’m a Major in the United States Army here to investigate charges that rustling has been taking place on government land.  I can see now that the rumors have been true.  In addition, you were getting ready to commit capital ******.  I am ordering you, and your men, to stay here until my detachment comes back to pick you up.

If you’re not here when they arrive, they will hunt you down like the wild dogs that you are.  I need to get this Indian Scout back to headquarters. We know who you work for and what you’ve been doing.”

“You Are All Under Military Arrest”

Cutty tied Jack’s right hand to the top of his other arm. He knew he had just stretched the truth, but he wasn’t above doing that if a man’s life hung in the balance.  He looked across the scattered but still burning embers.

Not-Many-Prisoners had a look on his face that Cutty had not seen from any of the Piegan Elders before.  El Cristo had been the first to look at him that way when he had mortally wounded his son, Elligretto, in Seville.  His expression transcended the present moment as it acknowledged Cutty’s immortal warrior spirit.

Not-Many-Prisoners ran into the darkness in the direction that the horses had just gone. In less than ten minutes he was back with all five of them in tow.  “How was he able to find them in the dark and to have done it so quickly?” Cutty wondered.
  
Horses, when frightened or startled, will often run for miles without stopping.  He was sure when he fired that shot from his big Colt, those five had been both.  The Colonel’s assessment about Native Americans—a breed of men Cutty had only met once before in Abilene—rang true again tonight.

At West Point, Jimmy had been masked in eastern tradition hiding the best parts of himself.

Cutty Jumped On The First Horse As He Yelled
206 · Mar 2021
Sincerest Form Of Shame
Kurt Philip Behm Mar 2021
Plagiarism self-inflicted,
it blinds veracity
keeping us forever
in the dark
To wander in costume
as others unnamed,
their vision
to herald and hark
In shadows of obscurity
doubt crossing fear,
we steal
what can’t be bought
Reflecting false images
by our hand
chasing
—what can’t be caught

(Radnor Pennsylvania: March, 2021)
206 · Feb 2021
Magistra Metus
Kurt Philip Behm Feb 2021
Fear is a mistress
with many suitors

Hapless in spirit
—beguiling profane

(Dreamsleep: February, 2021)
206 · Jun 2019
To Create With Your Heart
Kurt Philip Behm Jun 2019
Are you technically perfect,
  but spiritually weak

Are your words so well crafted,
  your soul cannot speak

Are your rhythms unmetered,
  your feelings unrhymed

Are you stuck in a format,
  that kills the sublime

Do your stanzas all end,
  their beginnings destroyed

Does your summation grieve,
  its parts overjoyed

Can you escape sophistry,
  your craft turned to art

Can you risk all rejection
   —to create with your heart

(Villanova Pennsylvania: November, 2016)
206 · Jan 2024
Philosopher's Stone
Kurt Philip Behm Jan 2024
Monetizing poetry
— the darkest form of alchemy

(Villanova University: January, 2024)
206 · Jun 2017
Debt Cancelled
Kurt Philip Behm Jun 2017
Defaulting on all past
  and future sins

The weight of their debt,
—the present rescinds

(Villanova Pennsylvania: June, 2017)
206 · Nov 2016
Silence Unheard
Kurt Philip Behm Nov 2016
Unchained from the structure,
  enslaved by the words

My voice to the wind,
—freeing silence unheard

(Villanova Pennsylvania: November, 2016)
205 · Jun 15
Under A Paper Moon
Ella sent the invitation
Louis worked the door
to celebrate between the lines
inflection served du jour

My heart was given freely
their phrasings lined my soul
beyond the words and melody
goodbye to rock and roll

The Saints Were Marching In
as Satch blew his horn with glee
(and Ella said)
No, No They Can’t Take That
— Away From Me

(Dreamsleep: June, 2025)
205 · Feb 2024
Feeling The Heat
Kurt Philip Behm Feb 2024
The quicksand of anticipation
— the fire below

(Dreamsleep: February, 2024)


Chameleosis

A changing experience
— is not an experience of change

(Dreamsleep: February, 2024)


Dark Feelings

Captive of emotion
— prisoner of deceit

(Dreamsleep: February, 2024)
205 · Jul 2018
Leaving This World
Kurt Philip Behm Jul 2018
I’ve looked and watched
  you turn away

Seeing things
  you’ve long denied

I grabbed the lion
  by his mane

Staring through
  the devil’s eye

I bought
  a one-way ticket

While never
  looking back

I’ve sailed and searched
  the roughest seas

My rigging
  often slack

I gave away
  all that I had

And asked for
  nothing more

I played the game
  and ****** the rules

Rejecting
  any score

I stole my fate back
  from the wind

Which blew
  from side to side

And asking once
  my only wish...

   —to leave this world alive

(Villanova Pennsylvania: July, 2018)
205 · Nov 2024
The Fusion Of Time
Kurt Philip Behm Nov 2024
If the past’s
not alive
The future
is dead

With memory
starving
Hope’s promise
unfed

What yesterday
gives us
Tomorrow
awaits

All hope
in the transfer
Of destiny’s
— fate

(The New Room: November, 2024)
205 · Dec 2021
Circulus Quadratur
Kurt Philip Behm Dec 2021
Leaving the things we need the most,
we come back for what we love

A circle squared from inside out
—the cream to rise above

(Dreamsleep: December, 2021)
205 · Mar 2017
Something For Jimi
Kurt Philip Behm Mar 2017
Tonight,
I had a date with the mountain

Tonight,
I made those promises impend

Tonight,
behind the shadow of my fear

Tonight,
—the devil smiled at me again

(Seattle Washington: ‘Something For Jimi’ March, 2017)
205 · Jun 2017
Falsehoods You Endear
Kurt Philip Behm Jun 2017
My world is different, my world is foreign,
  your words do then remind

My vision captive, my soul unpledged,
  the music solely mine

Never lonely, but then alone,
  my solitude you fear

As strangers swarm around your doubt,
 —whose falsehoods you endear

(Villanova Pennsylvania: June, 2017)
205 · Jan 2023
Cresting The Trough
Kurt Philip Behm Jan 2023
If your heart is open
and true

Your grief is as deep
as your love

(Dreamsleep: January, 2023)
205 · Jan 2017
Mortgaged Dreams
Kurt Philip Behm Jan 2017
Hand me down memories,
  borrowed not owned

Dreams that are mortgaged,
—the present on loan

(Villanova Pennsylvania: December, 2016)
205 · Sep 2016
Only One Past
Kurt Philip Behm Sep 2016
There are many futures,
—but only one past

(Villanova Pennsylvania: September, 2016)
205 · Feb 2023
Memories Of The Salon
Kurt Philip Behm Feb 2023
He said what he had to say
to tell the story
He did what he had to do
to rescue time
He paid what he had to pay
to bribe the jailers
He gave what he had to give
—per Gertrude Stein

(Dreamsleep: February, 2023)
204 · Mar 2022
Papilio
Kurt Philip Behm Mar 2022
Wings in abeyance
motion untracked
Monarch in shadow
—darkness is back

(Dreamsleep: March, 2022)
204 · Apr 2019
The Search
Kurt Philip Behm Apr 2019
The deeper we get into
  the idea of what’s real,
    the further away we become

Trying to put our formulas
  into a box,
    is folly zero sum

Like the horizon before you
  that you see but can’t touch,
    the truth forever disguised

Its costume to change
  with every reason we claim
    —only the search bringing meaning to the wise

(Villanova Pennsylvania: April, 2019)
204 · Mar 2021
Timor
Kurt Philip Behm Mar 2021
Fear exposes the underside
of courage

The weakest point of strength
—a darker shade of truth

(Dreamsleep: March, 2021)
204 · Jul 2019
My Past Reclaimed
Kurt Philip Behm Jul 2019
I didn’t know it at the time,
but my misspent youth was planned

          The training ground for what I’d write,
then hard to understand

The many schools, the teachers chides,
expulsions my reward

Postgraduate work for future truth,
all voices untoward

The risks were high, survival mined,
Shangi-La, a vagrant’s room

My pen disclaimed, all actions shamed,
flat broke one afternoon

From the diner’s window I heard the song
that turned my life around

As Gregg Allman sang ‘Melissa,’
my true destiny was found

And today I harbor no regrets,
there’s no one left to blame

As I write the words for me hard one
—my sinful past reclaimed

(Strafford Pennsylvania: July, 2019)
    ‘Thank You, Gregg—I Miss You’
204 · Dec 2023
Freebird
Kurt Philip Behm Dec 2023
Let go of your
hand grip
let go of
the past
Take fate as
a lover
betrothed
and recast
Your belt
and suspenders
restrict
and constrain
Release
your indemnity
free
—once again

(Dreamsleep: December, 2023)
204 · Dec 2023
Heaven's Cake
Kurt Philip Behm Dec 2023
Like it
dislike it …
it is
what it is
If written
unsmitten
all fate
in the wind
Rising
or falling
the mixture
the same
True joy
in the
baking
—whose icing remains

(1st Book Of Prayers: December, 2023)
204 · Dec 2016
Angelic Skies
Kurt Philip Behm Dec 2016
Love freely given,
  no heart denied

A soul in flight,
—Angelic skies

(Villanova Pennsylvania: December, 2016)
204 · Feb 2019
One Truth
Kurt Philip Behm Feb 2019
Deception wears many faces
  —the truth but one

(Villanova Pennsylvania: November, 2015)
204 · May 2019
Great Grandfather John
Kurt Philip Behm May 2019
I love you but I don’t know you,
  I miss you, though you’ve never been here

I long for what the years have stolen…
   a vacant memory so dear

I feel you across the hallowed spectrum,
  of death and then beyond

Where our spirits write the words together…
   different verses—the same song

(Bryn Mawr Pennsylvania: May, 2019)
204 · Mar 2017
The Encore
Kurt Philip Behm Mar 2017
Are you now denied all access
Has your ticket long been punched
Is your fear stuck in the alley
Intermezzo—out to lunch

Will you even see the picture
From the far end of the line
Would a curtain serve to raise your hopes
Can a loser ever shine

The doorman calls “It’s Showtime”
As the lights all start to dim
An usher cries “There’s One Seat Left”
You madly rush within

With eyes now strained in darkness
You find that one last chair
And on the stage, hope kisses fear,
—all encores yours to share

(Villanova Pennsylvania: February, 2017)
204 · Feb 24
Cursed To Repeat
Blisters of
disillusion
fester
and boil

Vision
rubbed raw
in the darkness
embroiled

False
expectations
lie scattered
and burned

Ignoring
our history
with lessons
— unlearned

(Dreamsleep: February, 2025)
204 · Mar 2017
Blood That Wouldn't Yield
Kurt Philip Behm Mar 2017
You thought that you could skip a stitch,
  the thread provided free

You thought no one would ever notice,
  just one small opening

The seam then weakened steadily,
  threads loosened left and right

Excuses now unraveling,
  Old Glory taking flight

The sinew given strong and taut,
  to seal the danger out

But that one stitch you failed to close,
  won’t mute the nightmare’s shout

Miss Ross is now in mourning,
  as the stars have left the field

That one stitch you’ve forsaken,
—draining blood that wouldn’t yield

(Villanova Pennsylvania: March, 2017)
204 · Oct 2021
Bad Pennies...
Kurt Philip Behm Oct 2021
Writing is a messy feast
where crumbs fall to the floor
to congregate and aggregate
to hide and form and spore

Left alone and thrown away
these remnants take new life
invading what you fear the most
on dark and stormy nights

They creep inside your cleanest lines
to weaken and distract
what memory long has cast aside
now rising from the cracks

And latching on while holding tight
they make you speak their name
those orphaned crumbs your table cleared
—in sweeping lost disdain

(Dreamsleep: October, 2021)
203 · Jun 2023
Unum Carmen
Kurt Philip Behm Jun 2023
Too many good thoughts
so many bad poems
The bridge to forever
exacting its toll
Too many to count
just one to remember
As beauty releases
—redeeming the soul

(The New Room: June, 2023)
203 · Oct 2016
Don't Look Back
Kurt Philip Behm Oct 2016
“When staring death in the face,
  do not look back over your shoulder”

(From My New Novel: ‘Death From The Sky')
203 · Jan 12
'Start Me Up'
Between
Charlie’s
Drums
Keith’s
Guitar
And ****’s
Voice
The story of
Rock & Roll
Is told
Immortalized
— and reborn

(Dreamsleep: January, 2025)
203 · Mar 2017
Love's Reality—Unreal
Kurt Philip Behm Mar 2017
Your lies much more exciting,
  than any truth you never told

Stolen moments of pure delight,
  a fantasies cuckold

Your touch hides what your eyes cannot,
  my dreams you come to steal

Your body moves, your heart lays still,
  love’s reality—unreal

(Villanova Pennsylvania: March, 2017)
202 · Jul 2024
Battle Royale
Kurt Philip Behm Jul 2024
Take me
to Hell
Take me
to Heaven
Bless me
with kindness
Curse me
as leavened

Angel within
me
Devil
in waiting
Salvation
unseeded
Damnation
— equating

(Dreamsleep: July, 2024)
202 · Dec 2016
No Longer Served
Kurt Philip Behm Dec 2016
Dinner almost over,
Dessert
Becomes a sweet
Memory
When no longer served

Time …

Main course of those
Not famished
By tomorrow,
Abundantly served
To those already full

(Villanova Pennsylvania: January, 2015)
202 · Sep 2018
Devil's Potion
Kurt Philip Behm Sep 2018
My cup runneth over
  your chalice half full

The emptiness suspect
  both murky and dull

It shines on the outside
  jewels christened with fire

But to drink from that liquid
  —forever a liar

(Villanova Pennsylvania: June, 2016)
202 · Nov 2016
Sagacity
Kurt Philip Behm Nov 2016
Darkness,
the beginning path
Burns brightest
at the end

Storm clouds
over a troubled youth
Success now on
the mend

Struggles, trials,
and failures past
Just fuel,
to keep you warm

Sagacity,
the final truth
Eyes seeing past
the harm

(Villanova Pennsylvania: June, 2016)
202 · Jan 2019
Present Betrothal
Kurt Philip Behm Jan 2019
Live divorced from the past,
  engaged to the future
   —but married to the present

(Villanova Pennsylvania: January, 2019)
Kurt Philip Behm Feb 2017
Golden Hair

It was Christmas 1973,
as I straightened up his brace

A disabled body with unconquered mind,
best friends in different states

As she walked straight down the cellar steps,
my future in her glance

Dressed pure white, she’d come from work,
her clothes did then enhance

The beauty in her heart and beyond,
with one look did reveal

As she walked half down the thirteen steps,
sitting sideways to conceal

All lovely strewn and golden haired,
with eyes both blue and sharp

Her face a lovely countenance,
my light now through the dark

She looked at me dismissively,
and feigned a smile weak

As if to say without the words ...
you fall short of what I seek

She’d heard the rumors in disbelief,
and got up to turn and leave

I followed to where her mother stood,
and with her help did I then plead

I said that night to myself alone,
that if one thing I shall do

I will marry this girl with the golden hair,
as God has made so few

A lifetime now passed, then half again,
she still looks at me that way

Not hiding the love she feels inside,
until my dying day

No words then gleaned or ever built,
for feelings such as these

My pen now empty and eyes stare blank,
at what my heart can only see

To love her once was not enough,
yet no more was I allowed

My chest so small for that so big,
her golden hair my cloud

If I was blessed with just one wish,
and knew it to come true

Just one more day with golden hair,
—whose love so fine and new

(Villanova Pennsylvania: February 17, 1978
202 · Jun 2024
Last Chance
Kurt Philip Behm Jun 2024
The interchange
of reluctance
waiting in the queue

Permission caught
in temporal probate
affirmation skewed

One last chance
unbegotten freedom
living in between

The will to choose
nothing left to lose
— as red lights turn to green

(Dreamsleep: June, 2024)
202 · Feb 2022
Lost Petals
Kurt Philip Behm Feb 2022
Intention outstripped
his power of reason
Leaving him naked
—a meadow deflowered

(Dreamsleep: February, 2022)
202 · Feb 2019
Never Destitute
Kurt Philip Behm Feb 2019
In the darkest final hours,
  I began to write

And my words once spoken new
  from scattered ashes light the sky

To begin and end each day
  caught up in beauty’s distant wake

All loneliness filled by pages lined
  with happiness and joy

My fate betrothed, once mistress
  scorned
   —a lover more than wife

Whose vision so much sharper,
  her dissection cuts through bone

To slay the muted dragon’s fire
  in present tense delight

Beyond all past and future clouds
  above the darkening storm

To mate each breath and gifted word
  that heaven sends *****

Never destitute in blessings shown
  —or in things I wish I’d said

(Villanova Pennsylvania: February, 2016)
201 · Jun 2017
Hope
Kurt Philip Behm Jun 2017
Hearing the promise
Open up in yourself
Proclaiming his goodness
Epiphany felt

(Villanova Pennsylvania: May, 2017)
201 · Apr 2019
Priority
Kurt Philip Behm Apr 2019
The first responsibility of Poetry
  —is honesty

The second responsibility is to never
  forget responsibility number one

(Villanova Pennsylvania: April, 2019)
201 · May 11
With Each Breath
First
Last
(and)
Always
— say something

(Dreamsleep: May, 2025)
201 · Aug 2021
Turning The Page
Kurt Philip Behm Aug 2021
Living within the bookends of time
those feelings unturned
each page a new rhyme

From cover to cover the verses conceal
the moments most precious
—my truth to reveal

(Dreamsleep: August, 2021)
201 · Sep 2022
Not The War...
Kurt Philip Behm Sep 2022
Losing the election
for doing what’s right

Losing the election
for shedding the light

Losing the election
for standing your ground

Losing the election
for truth honor bound

Losing the election
the battle is lost

Losing the election
—morality’s cost

(Dreamsleep: September, 2022)
201 · Aug 2022
Footsteps In The Hall
Kurt Philip Behm Aug 2022
After midnight
the pendulum stalls
Chimes to deaden
as darkness calls
A clanking chain
the haunt begins
Till daylight threatens
—the shadows dim

(Dreamsleep: August, 2022)
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