Jessica Leigh

Apr 2014

L

9:52

Steal a glance in the mirror.
Tear stains are evident, plain as day.
Pain sits in dark circles under your expressionless eyes.
You're the definition of "pathetic".
...Do you think she didn't notice?
You're wearing last night on your face.

**
Leigh

Jessica Leigh Apr 2014

She.

She was happiness.
She was who I called on days, nights, hours, times like these.
She was the one who could make me laugh when I didn't want to.
She was the one who had me change my plans to end my life.
She was the one I stuck around for.
She could make me smile at myself.
She made me feel beautiful.
She made me feel like a human being instead of a pair of ears.
She taught me to feel.
She got me to fall in love.
She had me trying new things.
She had me listening to love songs and writing love poems.
She was, is, the first thing I thought of every morning.
She was, is, always on my mind before I sleep.
She never made me cry by her actions.
She made me be the girl I am, truly.
She was the girl of my dreams.
She was my first kiss.
She was the one who let me say no to more that day.
She was great.
She was happiness.

And now she is gone.

Jessica Leigh Apr 2014

Untitled

All I ask
Is for a text message
Once or twice
Every two weeks
Telling me how she is
And if she is okay.
Because I love her
And I miss her.
So just answer me
With a yes and
A promise.
And I'll be okay.

Apr 2014

Joshua Haines

Kori

I know that you are lonely and I think we need to walk.
I keep wasting words about the weather and other small talk.
You gotta promise to keep pulsing just like the April rain.
Your lips are just flesh but they sure cover all the pain.

I walk beside you because you are my best friend.
We can walk through the park, hand in hand.
I'll keep you safe no matter where, until we reach our end.
I promise to love you past the trees,
but there's one thing I don't understand.

I can't see the harm in loving,
despite all that comes.
There were those that left before me,
but I'm not that one.

Your leaving is death,
but I still keep you alive.
I wait for you, Kori,
and that's how I survive.

They say you never get over it, you just learn to tolerate.
I let cups of coffee stain my lips to remove your taste.
I don't wanna think less of you; you can't be someone I hate.
I don't want you to disappear or for my love to go to waste.

I could die from anticipation just to **** the wait.
Until I see you again, my dreams will create
a way to visit you in my own personal paradise.
What it would be to hold you again as you shiver from the ice.

I'm not sure if anyone could love you more than I.
But I welcome them to do, or at least to try.
I want you to be loved. I want you to be happy.
I want you to be loved with or without me.

I want you to be loved.
I want you to be loved.
I want you to be loved
with or without me.

Jessica Leigh Apr 2014

Untitled

Truthfully
I wish this
Piece of
Cardboard
Was my
Wrist.

Apr 2014

Faith

Remember

Boy,
don't move too fast.
Take it all in.
You're forgetting the real reason to be alive.

fc

#love

Jessica Leigh Apr 2014

My Beliefs

I know everyone is saying that this is good for all of us.
I hear their words and I nod yes a lot and say "I know"
Because I do.
I know that this is a good thing.
She will get better.
I will get better.
We all will.

But I can't keep this necklace from turning around.
And I can't sleep without three of the four
On my body.
I can't close my eyes without
Seeing myself on my knees,
Begging
Pleading
Groveling
With them
To let me see her
To let me touch her.

I give up.
This is not a good thing.
I miss her.
And I'm not giving up.
She is mine.
And I am hers.
No matter what.
We promised.
We said we would wait.
I can't see anyone without
Seeing her.
Every time I turn
Around
I see someone
Who looks
A little bit
Like her.

I miss her.
I need her.
Stop telling me this is a good thing.
Because I don't believe you.