It's dark in this room
I don't know what
Monsters
Hide in the corners
That my little sister
Used to be afraid of
And I don't know what
Is crawling in my closet
All I know is that
I don't care enough
Anymore

The demons in my
Head hold a darkness
Greater than the
Absence of light.

Can we just sleep together?
I don't mean sexually.
I mean can I lay next to you
And feel you next to me
While we talk until one
Of us cannot keep our eyes open
And we fall asleep to
The sound of one another
Breatgung?
Can we just sleep together?
It doesn't have to be ******.
I mean, it doesn't have to be ******.
I just want to close my eyes
At night knowing I will
Wake up next to you.
I haven't slept well in months
And, if you, or my heart, would
Have let me,
I would have slept on your
Bed instead of kissing you
On it.
There is a certain amount
Of rest that I get with you
That I can't find in my own sheets.
I'm just begging for
A little bit of sleep
Just as long as you sleep with me.

Drops of rain
Are still hitting
My face

They are the closest
Thing I have
To tears

I've been waiting
For Heaven
To open
The floodgates
And save me
From the sin
I'm drowning in

But I've come
To realize
That it the flood
That needs to take
Over my
Broken heart
Will never
Be powerful
Enough to live
An eternity

The dams will
Break and I
Will find myself
Building them
Back with a stronger
Concrete if
The past proves
To any constilation

So no more
Floods and no
More drizzles

I need down
Pours of Your
Love and grace
That will continue
Until my
Never dying heart
Stops beating

I've always loved
The rain too much
To stop it
From covering me

Sometimes
You
Just
Have
To
Kind
Of
Exist
So
Maybe
One
Day
You
Can
Live.

But
I
Have
This
Urge
To
Exist
Until
My
Walls
Crash
Down.

I've never been one
For making first moves
Or for being competent
When I was expect to be.

I've never been one
For giving my all
Or for opening up my heart
When that's all they want.

I've never been one
For showing my thoughts
Or for giving up my writing
Which makes up my entire being.

I've never been one
For angry fits and cussing
Or for staying around
When things get too rough.

I've never been one
For moving too fast
Or for letting anyone
Truly understand why.

I've never been one
For hand holding
Or kissing in public
When we aren't together.

I've never been one
For love and romance
Or for lust and passion
When the time called for it.

I've never been one
For a lot of things
But you have me
Wishing I could be.

We both have this
Idiotic
Tendency to forget
What has to be
Done
To make everyone else
Okay
When all we want
Is to have that for
Ourselves.