When I was a child I was abused,
Sexually assaulted and used,
I used to think it was my fault,
I hid my pain in my heart, my vault,

The things he did I'll never forget,
The way he forced himself upon me,
Out of sight where no one could see,
Why me? Why did he choose me?

What did I do that was so wrong?
Was it because I was weak and he was strong?
I told him to stop,
But he would not,

When I was ten,
He found he would never touch me again,
I found the strength to fight him off,
It was my victory, his loss,

After that day he was out of my life,
I wish that day I had a knife,
I would of killed him,
This poems to show he didn't win.

life is like a roller coaster  it has its ups and downs. Its your job to pick to either put you hands up and enjoy it, or sit there and let the world pass you by. Every one has roadblocks in there way you just have to push it out of the way no matter how little or big you can always walk along side it to find another path to get passed you problems. No matter if there is no one there to help you. You just have to pus on through to get passed every thing or anyone.

As long as you breathe, I will inhale you.

And after you are finished breathing,
when you have uttered your final words,
I will speak your sacred name in my throat.

I will  visit your grave perhaps once,perhaps often, not to say goodbye,
but to cry and laugh with you.

I will keep your memory alive in my bowels that held your love,
in my mouth that kissed your brow,glistening with sweat.
in the soles of my feet that  walked next to you in the market,
in the tips of my fingers that caressed your hair out of your eyes so many
times,
in my nose that captured your ever changing, ever lovely essence,
in my tongue, that called your name during our volcanic passions.

I will have your love in me still,
kiss your brow, always,
walk with you, forever,
sweep your hair, eternally,
smell you, endlessly,
and speak your name until the end of my days,
when                  is the last word that crosses my lips.

I will never love another.

I will hold on to my peace
When everything is falling apart
All my happiness has ceased
And I am hurting in my heart

I will keep my peace strong
At times when alone I am facing trials
When everyone has turned and gone
My peace will be my survival

I will let my peace guide me
In the chaos of a decaying society
Stripped of being truly free
Dictated to by economics bounty

I will hear my peace call
When all around me is war
And in battle men die and fall
On mothers' hearts  battle scars are bore

My peace I will walk with
Looking to God in my heart
My spirit His love will lift
Knowing He’s the master of this art

I will hear my peace call
When anger wells up inside
And I feel like I am in a freefall
Because of all injustice applied

I will let my peace guide me
When life's journey becomes unclear
I question my moral quality
Due to lack it causes fear.

I will keep my peace strong
Standing up for what I believe
When my differences seem wrong
Stay the course and just be me

I will hold on to my peace
This is my heart’s desire
This is how we all should be
Peace makes us so much kinder

It's so hard for me to try and find the right words to say.
I'm sorry we will never get the chance to meet,
the chance to see your tiny body and hold your tiny feet.

I have an image of you in my mind,
your gorgeous smile,
your beautiful eyes,
a picture,
an image,
something I'll never let go.

Every Christmas,
every birthday,
I'll do nothing but wish you were there,
right by my side.

A boy or a girl I'll never know,
this love I have for you,
I'll never be able to show.

You'll always be mummy's  special one and always daddy's too,
and we want you to know we will always love you.

I wrote you this poem to show I care,
this pain,
this hurt I cannot bare.

In time you will sleep my little baby,
one day,
some day,
I'll be able to hold you tight and give you that proper kiss goodnight.

Goodnight Sweetheart
Love you always.