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469 · Aug 2010
Getting By
Kimmy-Nichole Aug 2010
Sunset and Sunrise
No uncertainty-
Just a simple pure Energy;
Amongst us All, Beaneath the Ether, Over the horizon and throughout the hills-
Here I am comfortably as one
With myself.
Kimmy-Nichole Apr 2011
my situation as of present day:

.Finally. It could still be.
I wanted to be devoted
simply yours and only yours,
I was in love.
so self absorbed in your skin
I wish I was in your soul
lost in your eyes
with every blink of your b eautiful blues
I see what you see,
The life you and I used to talk about.
465 · Jul 2010
I never
Kimmy-Nichole Jul 2010
wanted anyone to hurt for me
to feel what i feel
to love me so much they feel pain
i have never wanted that
to let yourself in
was my fault
i let you in
despite how much i restrained
i gave in
and now you hurt
i never meant too.
464 · Jul 2010
Sink
Kimmy-Nichole Jul 2010
When It happens
Its mostly common
I fall.
Usually Very hard
l slip.
and free fall into the deep blue depths of the sea
I make it knees length into the ocean
Because you are there
You save me from sinking.
Everytime.
Its you.
461 · Feb 2012
Frames
Kimmy-Nichole Feb 2012
the
presense of a person
is it psychosis,
dealt by the doses?
trembling on the inside
all happy on the outside
a mask never to be revealed
except through a radio wave
funny how the real me
is coming to surface
459 · Feb 2012
BA degree
Kimmy-Nichole Feb 2012
ill get it ill get there
they already have it
debt free
worry free
a walk in the park a mere fun experience
i am stressed and broke
working harder than ever to make money
forget what others have
i am my own support system
hate and jealousy are drugs of the demon
faith and a dream hope and the future
its all i have
its all i need
ill get where i need to be
ill get what i want.
458 · Jul 2010
Sand
Kimmy-Nichole Jul 2010
So Much Of it Covers the Vast grounds of the world-
It is the floormat to the deep blue seas that I never go near,
For I Once fear the Mystery of the Unknown.
457 · Jul 2010
Being Good
Kimmy-Nichole Jul 2010
GOES
hand in hand  
with being bad.
Living a GOOD life
will follow from
living a toxicly
hazardous life.
457 · Apr 2011
the silver lining.
Kimmy-Nichole Apr 2011
lazy and lathargic
**** thats how i hated being
(yet its my hobby so it seems)
oh fancy me,
stop the show and drop the act.
slender or thick,
drop dead or barely at a six,
I promise internally emotionally and physically -
Ill be okay; and the harder It gets the stronger i become.
457 · Jul 2010
It Is You.
Kimmy-Nichole Jul 2010
Drama follows me
Problems that seem so false
Something out of a fiction novel
Just as the bees follow hunny
I like to fear
Just so things
never look boring and clear
Cant you see?
I create such a ruckous
I am so loud
Yet I  hate it
But in the end
Id never ever change it

I hate the drama
You take it away
Its you  
You change my mind
You help me find
The purpose
The reason
The Understanding of why

Im still here season after season.
454 · Feb 2012
Bed Time.
Kimmy-Nichole Feb 2012
Is it bedtime ?
or is it just the beginning.
When I am asleep my mind is a movie reel projecting role after role
I feel like my mind is like James Cameron in the production of Titanic.
I dream of the unknown, and the past
I predict the future and contimplate lifes problems best when I am asleep.

I will figure it out, on my own, in my mind
when I crawl under my sheets hit the lights
lay my head down
everynight at bedtime
452 · Apr 2011
the silver lining.
Kimmy-Nichole Apr 2011
lazy and lathargic
**** thats how i hated being
(yet its my hobby so it seems)
oh fancy me,
stop the show and drop the act.
slender or thick,
drop dead or barely at a six,
I promise internally emotionally and physically -
Ill be okay; and the harder It gets the stronger i become.
442 · Jul 2010
Ive got 99 problems
Kimmy-Nichole Jul 2010
Ive got some issues that nobody can see
but all of these emotions are pouring out of me
this is the soundtrack to my life...
442 · Apr 2011
random draft
Kimmy-Nichole Apr 2011
here I am
Ive made it
to some degree
I am proud
still rather loud
despite the disgust
the unhappiness
the sorrow and the toxicness
that once filled my life
just as much as it filled the overpopulated air,
I am able to walk tall and proud

For this is my time
for once in my life
442 · Mar 2011
The New Start
Kimmy-Nichole Mar 2011
a new town
I am scared and want to turn around
I am looking back-
A major fear, I am on a new track

What is tomorow to bring?
Im in the dark
After a deep breath in
And a sigh of relief

Im on a new Chapter
Of my new start.
437 · Jul 2010
our tomorow
Kimmy-Nichole Jul 2010
anticipating this big step
eager to start
i know the distance between us
wont intertwine
you will be calm and collected
ill be at piece with my mind
i wont look back at the
what was left behind
ill sit and smile
and anticipate our tomorow.
436 · Jul 2010
creep
Kimmy-Nichole Jul 2010
you want to tear me down
I always leave without a sound.
Its never me
But you make it me
I can never please you
Just as much as I can
Never stop hating you
Too much poison and confusion,
Its harder and harder
everysingle day
434 · Sep 2011
& Im slipping in between
Kimmy-Nichole Sep 2011
For ever I wanted,
for all i loved
is all I lost.
No gain other than growing up-
I'd never been so lost
or so scared
but alone i stood;
dreaming of us
dreaming of how i longed just to be home .

I am sure
To be continued..
434 · Jan 2011
oceans.
Kimmy-Nichole Jan 2011
my dreams
too many to keep count of
float through my conciounce
every second despite being awake,
I question just as much as ever
426 · Aug 2010
Beautiful Sense of Ease
Kimmy-Nichole Aug 2010
You are what the world wants-
               as a matter of fact
Your all I want,
                 & Need
                     & Crave
           & Breathe
                 You are simply
A beautiful sense of calmness
A measure of unconditional ease
           The simpleness in life
The sparkling stars on a clear night
A cool summer breeze-

I love you
More than I could explain
My heart gets ravished with pain -
Every time your heart Is not near,

There is no one to blame
Life is not a game
For it it wore -
I would put it on pause
not for a second
nor for a minute
But for the rest of my living eternity.
425 · Oct 2010
Everyday
Kimmy-Nichole Oct 2010
i dont feel it
so whats the point
in or out
yah
**** this
there it is
all doubt
once again
here
alone with myself
Ive made it
barely
but worse
No one
nothing
whats the use
Theres no point
I am a lie
within myself.
424 · Aug 2010
More For Fun
Kimmy-Nichole Aug 2010
Standby
Fade Away
Dream the Night Away
Seize the Day
Every Second In Every Hour
More and More
Less and Less
Be that Girl
Just a Little Less
Mischivious
423 · Apr 2011
The boy downstairs
Kimmy-Nichole Apr 2011
The sky is so lit with silver diamonds shimmering in the night sky
so pretty so prestine
why oh why cant this just be one big bad dream
alone in isolation
forced to learn
how to grow up
and not to be the ***** from so cal
who loves me
but doesnt respect me
yet is so protective of me from other guys
but no from his choice violent choice of words
from the little boy with one big ego
422 · Feb 2012
marriage
Kimmy-Nichole Feb 2012
i want it i dream it i see it i believe it
destiny and fate
love and commitment
following your heart
trusting whats right
finding the right guy
is all i need
where is he?
patience is a virtue
420 · Jan 2011
My Forever.
Kimmy-Nichole Jan 2011
You are him
you are the one for me,
I am sorry its been years.
All the tears
of the fears of being hurt by you haunted me -
day in and day out      ;

added with all the drops of rain
from the struggling nights of our pain
questioning us, him, you, me and what we should be ...
mixed together
equals
I know that you and I will make it together
Forver.
419 · Jun 2010
That Was That.
Kimmy-Nichole Jun 2010
This is this.
I can not change the way I was raised
Nor the lessons learned
Or the issues of yesterday
I can not let the day fade away-
In fear of what is sure to come
For That was that
And this is....This
418 · Jul 2010
It Is Love.
Kimmy-Nichole Jul 2010
Its happened Its here
My Dreaded days of disgust
Feel as if they might just dissapear-
I am so in love with him
Yes, it feels so good to say it
It is you my babyLove
My dear

Everything I have built up
And let out
You were there
You listened-
It was You who chased my pain
All the way to the finish line
I am so In love with you
Kimmy-Nichole Jul 2010
Potentially
I am beginning to see
The Man
You just might be
Maybe
As I begin to learn
Your Oh so Simple
Current Self
Is Just
A Mask
TO HIDE
The Past
BUT
If that Is so
I WONT
runaway
or
letgo
Ill Simply
Stay
Day By Day-
Ill UNDERSTAND
Grasp The truth,

Soak it In,

Simmer In The You I never knew -
And treasure every second
of the man you are today .
416 · Apr 2011
Parenthesis please
Kimmy-Nichole Apr 2011
You were all I wanted.
Everything I dreamt
All I needed.
IT came to a dribbling end.
I tried moving on
I tried Everything.
Nothing
except you.
You were still there
416 · Feb 2012
Memorial Day
Kimmy-Nichole Feb 2012
what a day,
the first memorial day spent away.
I think and drink-
wonder why Im here again.
lurking in my own dark apartment;
thinking about the place I dream to be,
the city i hated so hard,
yet im yearning for the dirtyness.
the memories
the conversations,
the one who meant the world to me.
Life is certainly not anything it used to be.
414 · Apr 2011
Great bones broken phone
Kimmy-Nichole Apr 2011
ive done it this time further than ever before
who  cares -
i am completly alone
in my head and in my soul

so fried and flicked
******* and ticked

trapped in my own head
insanity has captivated my mind

its me
im the one with the problems

or is this just another life lesson
taught down on my journey  of life.
409 · Mar 2012
Baby, Tis Love
Kimmy-Nichole Mar 2012
its an obsession,
with you every day
and all i still want is you;
no one gets it but my heart
i feel it beat to you,
your my boyfriend,
my best friend,
maybe it is fast
i wont slow down,
this is different,
for once this is real.
i think i love you; yes i love you-
just you, though.
i dont need anything else
no one else will do,
i wont have anyone else,
all i need and all i want
is you
408 · Aug 2010
Hauntings of Yesterday
Kimmy-Nichole Aug 2010
Zen.
Never have I felt it,
Quite as much as I do now;
As the hours pass on,
And the nights pass quicker,
I am positive-
That all the toxic filled problems
that haunted me day after day-
Are finally coming to shore;
To slowly be brushed back into the sea,
Forever and Eternity,
Just as they once were.
407 · Apr 2011
the island part 2
Kimmy-Nichole Apr 2011
please excuse the lack of capitalization
dreaming
i need to sleep
i know i do
i need to eat
i need advice
i need my old life back
minus the problems with my parents
and a different residence obviously near
407 · May 2011
Memorial Day
Kimmy-Nichole May 2011
what a day,
the first memorial day spent away.
I think and drink-
wonder why Im here again.
lurking in my own dark apartment;
thinking about the place I dream to be,
the city i hated so hard,
yet im yearning for the dirtyness.
the memories
the conversations,
the one who meant the world to me.
Life is certainly not anything it used to be.
405 · Dec 2011
These words are true
Kimmy-Nichole Dec 2011
as the wind blows,
the air chills,
the frost nips at my nose,
and the cold chaps my lips;
I think about the life I live
and the future ahead.
It may be blissful and bright,
or perhaps short lived,
however the cards play out
there is only one thing
I live to think about;
**everything happens for a reason
405 · Feb 2012
coming up and breaking up
Kimmy-Nichole Feb 2012
you were there thru alll the struggle and grind
a hand to hold when my tears fell
a fight against the world
me all alone
but instead of misery i chose him
i lost a lo t but gained even more
aside from the pounds
and away from the fear
i feel bad for you
404 · Jul 2010
Irrelevant
Kimmy-Nichole Jul 2010
the better i get - it is
h
  a
     r
         d
            e
                r
it is to grasp
403 · Aug 2010
Spinning Free
Kimmy-Nichole Aug 2010
Impact. Lead.
Ignorance is my Bliss
Be the You If Ill be The Me-
Between the Lines We read It is Clearly Not So Clean
As a Matter of  - - -
It Is *****, and Misleading
But Promising In all Actuality.
399 · Nov 2010
chipped
Kimmy-Nichole Nov 2010
Fright
fear
not even a tear
here
near
wrong or wright
right?
Forget the past
Just live it as if every days crystal clear
yah, pretend its now
live in the future.
Not even close
**** it Im not like most
397 · Apr 2011
ughl
Kimmy-Nichole Apr 2011
silence in the library
the stillness of the air
the creepy crawl in the pit of my stomach
mixed with the continuous pinching presumes
you hope they dont stare
391 · Dec 2010
Flash Off.
Kimmy-Nichole Dec 2010
From Everything Ive felt

through it all

Its not enough

every ounce of hurt

layered in more hurt

than smothered with hate

this is it

the emotion that hits every level of pain

The end to being relieved of pain

is killing my self slowly
389 · Jul 2010
Stand there
Kimmy-Nichole Jul 2010
For what its worth.
Just watch me
Pretend to feel
Ill tell you Im okay
When all is going good
Its going great
But once you leave
Im back to it all over again
Reality.
It hurts
You say you get it
You understand
You dont
You can not
I promise you
This is pain depicted
from a first person point of view
380 · Jul 2010
July 7.
Kimmy-Nichole Jul 2010
Here and now.
Right now
not than
its night
humid
depressing
cloudy not hazy
i love him
im afraid
here i go again
its crazy its insane
i dont know
thats just it
i do

I like the way it hurts
I love the way you think
Thats okay
I love the way you lie.
Love Is crazy
Insane.
379 · May 2011
So updated, So current
Kimmy-Nichole May 2011
22 eager and proud,
Not afraid to be blunt,
Ready to reflect myself from hurt,
And to feel with my mind,
And to see  the world from life on the otherside;
A benefit of plenty,
Is the feeling of empty.
(In regards to how you must feel and how sorry I am for hurting you)
378 · Apr 2011
22 4/21/20Eleven
Kimmy-Nichole Apr 2011
the pages are blank bulk and empty.
my mind.
forced with the temptation to reminsce
on the joys and smiles that we shared
made with the memories
ill treasure for ever
in the dreams ill dream upon slumber.

you are stilll apart of me every single day
and behind the miles apart and the struggles and tests we haved faced together; a friendship built upon trust and chance ruined; forever my greatest regret.
377 · Aug 2010
Untitled
Kimmy-Nichole Aug 2010
I feel it
i sense it
Your all I feel
Its like as if nothing is...Your all it seems to be
at least in the world i live to witness -
despite it all
Im sorry
For being your downfall.
377 · Oct 2010
First We Run.
Kimmy-Nichole Oct 2010
i want to go home
i hate this i want out
im over it
ive experienced all i needed
all i want
all i need
baby in the dark
you cant see shiny cars
stupid quote
from that stupid song
my life is one big combination
of lyrics
that fit together to make the best
piece of nonsense
373 · Aug 2010
I dont know
Kimmy-Nichole Aug 2010
not that I did or Have.

I can not help that its a problem
actually scratch that-

I can . I Need help -

Getting out is one solution.
Starting over.
Alone.
Is the solution.

i Need too/
Stop being ****** up
Let them go
Like they ALL have left you in the past

Its bearable
its usual

Im alone.
As god intended it to be
forever and more
372 · Apr 2011
ughl
Kimmy-Nichole Apr 2011
silence in the library
the stillness of the air
the creepy crawl in the pit of my stomach
mixed with the continuous pinching presumes
you hope they dont stare
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