they say the saddest
are the most happy

how a comedian can
stand up on stage to
make himself the world’s fool
because he had never
heard of a joke like love

our lady of perpetual sorrow
grabs the fool from everyone
a leach of life that chooses
to choose a happiness like you
extracts all it can
like nectar to a bee
but it’s almost relieving when
it had no where else to be

i have begun to believe
life isn't about all the
joys to feel and
things to see
it's not about you and
it's definitely not about me
the illusion is that
greatness is up and
failure is down when  
true progression doesn’t
care for dimensions

remember the comedian
who hates it all
who makes it funny
because he recalls
if i can’t be happy
everyone can

i got some pretty
bad blisters that
time you had cane's
for the first time
and i tried ice skating
for the first time
and we gave it some
conjugative name like
it could live on
forever or less
but nothing does
not truly
not existentially
the 7 billion billion billion
that hold each of 7 billion  
are what we might call
forever or more
but only god apparently
knows where they go
because the laws of attraction
are not visible to our
poorly developed eyes
our brain like a computer
does not understand
what it hasn't seen before
but unlike a computer
forgetting is easy
remembering is hard
so let time take you
by the hand maybe
help you understand
that it never looks back
so why should you?
atoms live forever
memories fade away
whether i like it or not
i was given what you gave
i understood what i took
but history is vague
and the future is vaguer
so i stick to the present
one second at a time
keeping everything cool
staying on my grind
hope things happen soon
stay up off my mind
staring at the moon
hoping for a sign
and maybe when
my feet heal the
blisters on my
mind will too

i look up at the night sky and all i can think of is
you surround my mind and cloud my thoughts and
when i look up at the night sky all i can see is
you see stars and i see the moon but what’s seeing if you’re
not thinking about what you’re seeing because you see
i look up at the night sky and all i can think of is
your eyes shine like the moon i swear
i could get lost just wondering how naturally it glows
had it not been for the stars that surround you and
intricately map out the details of who you are
in ideas and entities so ambiguous to the world yet
perfectly meaningful to you and i
looking up at the night sky and all we can taste is
each of us passing by on parallel roads somehow crossed
so i’ll look up at the night sky and maybe all i will feel is you

people come and people go
it’s the truth be told
don’t count on it was something
i learned at 8 years old
which doesn’t mean apathy
it simply means empathy
never no reason to meet anyone
there’s a part of you in everyone
vice versa
they make you who you are and
they make your life into living
not a day goes by when
i don’t think about giving because
i’ve been given too much
and i don’t think that it’s enough
and yes that’s all my fault
but i swear i’m human at heart
i never wanted much
so forgive me, God
and forgive me, myself
“a good person”
on my headstone
and nothing else

i’m just one person
and so are you
when you forgot i was here
well i did too
i hate the feeling of
feelings in the air and
the way they touch you
without a word and
leave without a sound
but they always come back
dreading bad news
maybe feelings have feelings too
and maybe they feel just as bad
as you do when you always
remember the bad things
despite the good things
that have happened
and will happen soon
maybe that’s why it never stops
maybe there’s someone always
on the left of us
and the right of us
above us and below
giggling at the ignorance
of our poor lost souls
as if we were little puppies
that knew no better grown
when all we wanted was happiness
yet we always questioned home