I was once a strong
Knight
Smart even
But
I'm not as sharp
As I once was
My armor grows
Heavy
But I can't bring
Myself to take it off

So fragile it can be
I'm often forget
How much it
Can take before
It breaks
It goes through
Years of abuse
For it's user
Pleasure
And repairs itself
To go through
It all again

They don't sew me
They only see the me
They want to see
They see do things
That seem bizarre
They can't figure it out
That I'm all the things
They see and more

Even thougb they aren't there
I can still feel them
The dead cold grip
Digging into my skin
Restricting my movement
Some see that I'm bounded
And ask
Why do I stil wear them
I tell them
If i take them off
New ones will take there place
The links may be broken
But I'm still bounded

They're all better
I can think of the most
Fantastic
Brilliant
Of thinks
But thats where they remade
As thoughts
Never to be seen
For I don't have the talent
But they do

I was told by my father
"A man should never cry
But for only a death"
When you hate yourself
As long as you can remember
You tend to cry for things
You do
But I always had to force
Myself to stop or I'd
Disappiont my father
So I hid my feelings
Still visible but out off
Sight

Most think nothing of it
They say it's just
Your subconscious
Making you see things
I'll admit I once
Thought that was true
But now?
I believe my mind is sent
To a different version
Of myself at random
Only for the time being
I feel, think, and understand
Just as they do
I'm sent back usually
When they die
Or some random
Time
Dying over and over
Just to wake up
To live my  life
That I have control over
Seems fine for now

They used to be
Magnificent
At one point
I'd dream to
Be with them
After that I
Eventually did
But over the years
My love dwindle
And now I wonder
Why I stay
Could it be
The people
The game
Who knows
People ask
Who is this person
But the truth is
They're not a person

Everything seems to go so well
But then I do something to *****
It all up
Envy is such a strong feeling
It makes you do things
You wouldn't normally
I just can't help it
It all just comes out before
I have the time to think
And disaster stacks
I'm pretty good at keeping
My emotions in check
But that one
Because of this I hurt people
I love and then I start
Hating myself and
Imagine if was never here

I've lived most of my life
Trying to meet others
Expectation
Trying to do something
I know I can't
But they thinks it's
Funny
I'm forced to be
Reminded of my failures
For they are everywhere

I could do the most amazing thing
I could do something thought Impossible
But it doesn't matter
I wont ever get full credit
Even if i did it on my own
They will question me
There alway has to be
A reason why I did it
But they wont accept
I just wanted to know of I could

Click
No not right
Maybe more light
Click
No still not right
Something more flashy
Click
NO
More makeup
Click
Almost
New pose
Click
There now I can just barely
See the real you

They say
Whats yous is
Mine and
What mine is
Yours
Hers could never
Be mine
But mine are hers
I guess
Whats mine is
Yours and whats
Yours is yours

My Queen has became
Afraid of this monster
I stood my ground
And fought it off
I didn't defeat it
She became
Terrified
My sword
Cracked and chipped
My shield
Scratched and dented
As long as my
Helmet
Was fine she wouldn't
Know that I was
Terrified of this monster

Its just so easy
Why do I try so hard
When I cos end it all
Its only a bit away
Ready to do the job
If I let it
Eyes turn into
Waterfalls
Then it's over

I always seem to
Be there when they
Talk
They never notice
I always get the
Gossip of the day
They make the
Mistake
Of gossiping in front
Of me
The gossip some how
Gets passed along

The feeling just isn't
The same
I liked it better before
One of my creations
Came about
I'm proud it made it
As far as it did
But it just seems lost
I create more just
To know that one
Will notice but
By saying they
Get the wrong idea

It's amazing
How people take things
For granite
Some people don't see
The luxury of having
Some one cook for you
A minute ago
I was cooking
And the smell brought
A tear to my eye
Because it smelled
Just like the one
They never made

She started feeling sick
Started throwing up
I told her to get some rest
She wouldn't unless
I watched over her
I agreed of course
She woke up several times
And I was there
To help with anything
But we both knew
I couldn't stay forever
When she awoke
I was gone but
she was safe

Some people say I don't
Care about most things
They're half right
They say I have no
Heart
Thats true
I gave it to someone
Special
They say I'm never happy
But they never  seen
Me witb her

We dressed in all black
We all did
We didn't have a choice
They all had someone
To be with after
I jusy went home
But once I returned
My home was all white
As I stepped in something
Was wrong
I had the feel that
I wasn't welcomed
Because I failed
Or something

They ask me if I'm
Overwhelmed
I tell them
No
Then they ask
Don't you ever get tired or anything
I respond with
Not really
They ask questions
About me but I know
The question
They want to ask

I can't make art
I can see it
In reality and
In mind but
I can never make it
I start to think
I see in my mind
I can't show anyone

there they are in my lawn
to them it's a fun house
they always come
not knowing the truth
whats really behind the door
they'd be surprised
to see only a monster
chained down
covered in it's own blood

I may be a Demon
But I'm not a ghost
So why don't they
See me?
I do all these things
And nothing
I show them my
Talent
Yet still nothing

Why would anyone
Want the knockoff
When they could have
Something better
They ignore me
Only noticing when
They want something
Being a knockoff *****
You're alway compared
To the original

Look at them
They were so weak
But they found
Their own strength
They started climbing
They've made it
Pretty far
The furthest
But they still have
A long way to go
I guess we'll wait
Until they reach the top

When you become
A ghost
You lose something
Your appearance
Is said be a faction
Of what it used to
I guess some don't
Have that problem
Or she's just
That beautiful

She just so
Perfect
Her hair so calm
And steady
Her eyes so
Full of compassion
Now she does
Have her flaws
But my love for her
Is strong enough
To overlook those

I'm not really the
Leader type
But people say I am
All I see myself as
Theone wh does all
The work some how
No matter what
It's me
Not even my group
That I choose
It's me
They all just sit there
And watch me
I'm never in the best
Of health but I
Never stop
I  have  to  keep  going
I tell myself
Never really resting
Always thinking

No one likes a
Knight who returns
On time but they sure
Love one who's
Late
They were both there
But one had to go back
The one that was sent
Home had to go through
The feeling of
Not being there
This knight began
To hate themselves
While the other
Was left there protecting
Their prize
They waited and waited
For the other knight
Rarely did they show
On the day of return
Everyone loved the
Missing knight
Though the knight
Had returned the other
Knight hate for themselve
Did not end

He's usually so peaceful
But everyone has there
Breaking point
He snaps so quickly
Everyone stops
As he lets all the
Molten lava that has
Been eating at him
From within
Out
But as quickly as he
Snaps he pulls himself
Back together
Back to the peaceful
Mr.Volcano we know

We're his best class
Grade wise
That's it
Everytime he blows up
It only last a few minutes
At worst
His feeling running
Wild outside of him
For such a short time
Obsidian surrounds us
Trying to straighten us
Back into order
It only last the day
Though
Before someone breaks
Through

She just lays in my lap
Most of the time
When she doesn't
She plays with my hair
Bating it back and forth
She looks at me with her
Big hazel eyes
Her fur so soft
And pure
I'll never let her go

They say such hollow words
There's nothing backing them
They seem happy at times
It never last though
They say they love me
I know they really
Hate me

As a knight
I must protect
My Queen
I'll be her servant
Until she no longer
Needs me
She'll never know
The sight of sorrow
Upon my face
Only the reassuring
Hope that everything
Will be ok