I was always told
That being apart of a
Team
Was the greatest thing
But when I look at
This one
I feel like we hold
Ourselves back
We manage to
Accomplish our goals
But time is never
In our favor

They said it could happen to anyone
Never did I think it would happen
To someone close to me
Even to my own sister
Tears did fall
But not from me
I feel anger
Not sorrow

Some people had at least
One person for them
Growing up
But I
Never had that
I was always on
My own
I've learned
That I
Give some pretty good
Advice
I started thinking to myself
Telling myself things
That weren't always true
I soon lost touch with people
Most had no idea
I was suffering
They all had no clue
Of how long
I don't know
What to do
Or how to fix myself

Is that all we are
Numbers, a percentage
We're judge by that
Number
Either the one we're
Born wih or the one
We created to
Define us

It matters not
How hard one
Works
Only if
Someone
Notice

They tell me it'll get better
As long as I keep trying
But when I try
I have to stop
I get too into it
I can hear
See
Them laughing
At me
When I'm all
Alone

We all have our prisons
But whats the worse?
I don't know for sure
But I would have to say
Your own body
Sometimes I can feel
The harsh reality of me
Most of my emotion at times
Are locked away
No matter how much I try
I still act the same but just
With no emotion
But I think one day
I'll be released from this

I'm always told what
To do
They always ask of me
And I usually do it
But the very few times
I don't they are surprised
It seems they forgot
I'm human too

It's so warm
Yet wet
And the smell
slightly potent
I could move
But
I was free
I knew
But
Then I didn't
I never knew
How beautiful
It was

Something just feels
Off
Everyday since
I appeared I
Did one or two
A day it just feels
Wrong not to do one
I wish I had more
Of a talent for this

You'll get them next time
They always say that
I know its not true
no matter what
There's at least one
I could go the extra
Mile and some went
The extra two
Just knowing you are
Every single time
Is too much

She calls me Mr.Demon
She calls me alot of things
I try to tend to her needs
But I seem to still fail
I welcomed her into
My frozen home
Yet she still cries
Her tears
Are the coldest thing
To ever touch me
Yet she still calls me
Over to be
By her side

She saw me
She sees me
All the time but
Not like this
She saw me
In a weaken state
My shell
Was no more

I put my
Heart and soul
Into it everyday
But they think it's
All a ******* joke
All the sweat and
Blood
I put into it
And they don't
Want to even make
An attempt besides
Showing up

I sleep alot
I don't mean to
I hate sleeping
When its not time
Everytime I wake
The feeling comes
My heart slowly
Pumps faster and then
I realize
I would never know
If my heart had
Stopped

When you reach a new level
You feel joy
All the work you did
Finally showed through
And now you're on a new level
But now that you moved up
You don't see the tiny steps
You make anymore
You only see the floors
Going by one after another
Slowly
But you got more joy
Out of all the little steps
Than all the floors combined
It's not like you don't want
To see them
It's  that you can't

I feel like I slip
In and out of reality
Sometimes I can't remember
Anything that happened
A few minutes ago
There are times
I can't feel anything
Sometimes I think
If I'm really here
Or somewhere else

I feel I don't belong here
In a sea of talent
And I'm just a rock
Sitting there
I'm told anyone
Can come here
Regardless
Who you are
I just don't see
It right now but
one day I'll see
That place

There's nothing really to say
I was just always mad
Barely happy
I was looking for something
But I had no clue what
My parents always
Got me stuff trying
To buy my happiness
Soon they just stopped
I slowly became
Alone
I started thinking
Of all the things
I wanted to do
And ask
Do I really want
To do those?
The answer was usually
No
I began to think
There was nothing
So I thought I was nothing
At the time
I didn't have a reason
To live
They thought I need help
They were wrong
I needed a reason
But at last I have one
And I know what
I want to do
But that's a different
Page for a different
Time

I could walk into
A random town and
They would stay clear
For no matter
They hate me
They leave me in
Isolation
They all whisper amongst
Themselves
Looking over their shoulder
To see ic I was still there
Why am I
The Hated

I am accused
Of being a fraud
In a world were you can be
Whatever you want
And yet
I try to impress them
Writing whatever I feel
So someone will see
My true intentions
I only started this
Because they said
it could that I
could be happy
But it only seems
looking at the number
Stay the same causes
An absents of feeling
I could sit down
And think for
Days
Years
Or even the rest of
My life
And I would be able to
Make a piece of work
Worthy for them

I was once proud
To be apart of it
It was something
I tried to promote
But that was when
I first joined
We weren't the best
But we had a blast
Over the years we become
Better and better
As a team but
At a coast
Our spirit seemed
To fade
Many were my
Friends but now
They dwindle in
Numbers
What happened to
The Team?

They said I could
Be anything
They said I could
Do anything
They were wrong
I try so hard
And what am I?
Only third rate
I could never be
The one they wanted

They tried to
Separate us
They were fine with
Us in the beginning
Until we created
Life together
But they can only
Keep us away
For only a little
While longer
We'll soon have
Our own family

You seek for a king
But all I am is a
Knight
A king no more
I've failed once before
So I made myself
Stronger but gave up
My crown
For my armor

Everywhere you look
There's an infinite
Combination of colors
I want people to be hooked
But their gaze never last
I slave away with my knit
Of needles and thread
Trying to fix the torn
Blanket that our mothers
Worked so *******
piece by piece

How did it all
Come back to this
Everything I tried
To escape my pain
Fails I'm bounded
To it all
Arrows shot by haters
Find there home
Inside my heart
All I can do is
Lick my wounds
The only thing is
I help ease others pain

I started out knowing
Next to nothing
I had nothing to
Offer them
But they kept
Me
I messed up a lot
All my friends were
Way better than me
Yet they chose me
To be a team
Not everyone can
Be on
They said
I was one of the
Only ones that kept
Trying to do better
That was my first year
But now I'm
Wrong Way

You people are just amazing
I could never do what you do
You all have your reasons I'm sure
But those who do it just to do it
Are amazing
I try to like you
I try to do how you do
It doesn't work I know
But I just want to accepted
My hearts to weak right now
I wish I could put more into it
But it's been
Step on
Broken into pieces
Torn apart
There isn't much to put in
But it is slowly getting fixed
I'm afraid I wont see the day
Where my children
Will be among-est
You people