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Kelly Belle Mar 2015
They said how your heart races and butterflies developing your stomach only happens when someone you love is holding you

I used to have that

except that was not past no longer part of me butterflies rise so high I feel anxious

I used to miss that his lips hands touch boys and sense of security he gave me

he has it rough that doesn't mean I don't care for him anymore I still think of him everyday but he played me like a broken violin that lost their strength has only Few Strings left because it was left in the attic untouched in the banded and alone I was played used and dissected to see vulnerable parts of myself

I was naked the countless amounts of mistakes he made I always forgived Him because then I could not imagine not being with him and I know I look young when I'm tired of hearing that typical
"Your to young you don't know what love is" because let me tell you you don't know how I feel you almost finished had because you're not me


the definition of love doesn't come from a number called age or even the number of weight or the number and in jeans
Kelly Belle Mar 2015
Boulders are weight down on me...
Compacting my thought process, strangling the words that I'm trying to pass on....

The moon sits on me as if the stress wasn't enough, not including the names that come out of others mouth. The words that people think define, identify, and make me

But they are wrong

On a scale of **** to **** I've been called all..Despite those names, THESE are the one that matter.

Marvelous, go getter, dream catcher, insightful, wise, and beautiful

I like to believe I made myself to who I am.
I like to think that I...that I am a work in progress and improving on the way.

Until now, I thought they were right
I thought I was everything less than human..To societies standards I meant nothing. I didn't meet their standard, my talent didn't matter nor did the help that I assisted other. The only thing that mattered was my appearance and wrong choices I've made

Until now I thought that was who I am. I am much more than that, and I am aware now.
Kelly Belle Mar 2015
I remember the first time I looked in his eyes

the first felt touch and unknown feelings

the first uneven amount of butterflies in the pit that is my stomach

the belief that he loved me was blinding me from creating that truth that lied right in front of me  

it was all a show completely fake a affinity of lies a set full of false feelings

thats when my wall comes up

I guarded myself

he made me who i am

and im okay with that

                      Because im okay with me
Kelly Belle Mar 2015
it started young
              
                  before I could walk

I was taught to believe
    
                 and to this day
  
I still do

                  this grows over years, stronger and stronger

miracles do exist

                 I've seen more than enough to believe

I've witnessed him in work
      
                 I am a piece of recovery that comes from him

I am a piece of his work, and I am beautiful

                 I don't get acceptance from others, I get it from him

you're not his second choice or overlooked

                  He is most powerful

I hope you take consideration



                                                                                          K.B
Kelly Belle Feb 2015
Smiles so wide they can touch the moon

bursting your eyes so wide they can even see the joy

laughing so hard until breath no longer flows

memory by memory, make it your best

this is all you get

                                  You don't get to come back
Kelly Belle Feb 2015
lifting yourself up is just one of the stepping stones to repairing yourself to what you used to be

to what other people call "the old you" but newsflash its not my choice
I dont get a say
Kelly Belle Feb 2015
a loss of times
a loss of memories
a loss of plans
a loss of control
all side effects of moving on
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