.for all the fires i’ve put out
.for those i’ve failed to
.for the embers that i will never seek to extinguish


.for _

.



.
hellhound famil

falling

cybergoth princess

is performed on one’s self

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dream catcher
dream eater
stuck spot of a distended home
dream seeder
   space render
meat reader
   blamelessness
head like the innocence of road-trip paraphernalia
all the little things that bring you comfort
and
direction

follow the love - not the sorrow.

Coyote associations
Rib-caged home
Of
Animation

In a shambled
And impoverished future
Life
Was a series of rooms
Which we inhabit

Knowing
Or
Failing to

And
[ in an old folks home, I overheard a dying  man say :

I don’t remember her face
But I remember she used to hold me tight
And we’d sway
Sway
Sway.]

beauty
beating
bruises
broadcasts
blood
yet boiling
births messy
growing hurts

stones are thrown
kisses given freely
age takes you
   or doesn’t .

the world is full of
                      dust

I am full of
         hope
and
           ****
but let’s focus on the hope
but let’s              dance .

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in
digestions
of
these days
we hunt for feeling

tryptapath


her dark irises
fill with light


but that’s not
what i mean

stone-sighted
medicine.breath
the snow-fallen
                   heart

   aimed home
             -
and in all the parking lots,
and lonely gasstation-checkoutcounters
the howling things that dare to:
howl out

//:caravan after caravan   
     
            gutter|paths
      into these quiet disagreements
between       .map-made
        and
salt-deposited.as

carrion
               filaments
rake

what              remains.


sticks loosely     atop :

                    the given .

           the drop
                                  .as
effigies of a dark forest are emboldened,
  freshly-hewn
                       into
    the membrane
     .beside the steadied tap




unhindered landslide
wet soiled
basin/
nascent tributaries //bristling
with all the
hunger and coarseness_
of something geological

        dinner is served
            taken greedily              .and
     replenished easily ,            

       returned
   to its mother:who lay now,  e m b o d i e d .
like the slow formation of            crystalline      
                                 ­                         treasuries 
 
    inside the heaving breathlessness of the
              world.

the black paint chipped perfectly from the brass eyelets around the drawstrings of a good pair of grey sweatpants-
a spectacular measure of time and the presence, there inhabited.

*******
**** on
but what ever you do, keep *******.

i
feel your heart in mine
which is    a stupid thing to say
but
an important   thing to
           mean

/


no hotter pocket dimension
this side of
inferno

no
better muse
.

//we trace over eachother’s outline in wild gestures:
taking measurements
      
trembling with bodies like shivering beds
          meatpalms up
          begging to receive
something in the invisible, irradiated dark

creases in the same giftwrapping bag that makes the rounds
    year after year
we shave off every last fiber
of our oldest tinder pile
in solemn observation for the
thumb on the cold glass
universe

you called me home
with an invitation
to
claw your body clean
apart .
“closer”, you smiled :
as i
came

words fail
where only touch shall suffice

all heads throb
as
         a
papered-up-shop-window moon
decomposes without much commentary

the stars are out :
sight-hounding for mortals
to dine
upon

and i sit,
belly-full, and heart-hungry :
hoping to
*****

just past shadow dance
and the puppet theater of her ember ring

[i am the branch breaking in the dark ]

in her dark
in HER dark

i step.

success
is a measure
of pleasures

Than grabbing


each other’s wrists

i find myself
again, in that plaster hallway
upon
those salt-beaten steps
and the home i’d lost, returns to me
not in molecules. but in fragmented lights.
she fills
me

wrists
will remain
where placed
despite any attempts to the contrary .

each other’s wrists
and the pull towards something.

i will spin your flesh like wool
just for the morsel of your heart
i will stop the music
and look at you

i will look at you

/and at the wet extremities
we dine together.

hot cheek
on the cool tile wall

lashes fluttering wet
breath like vaporized diamonds into the slushy planet churning like time beyond the strategically - cracked window .

not the first wish
for finding each other in the dark

what’s offered is gladly taken, but first
must be kissed numb

;


.
that which shall be given to collect in pools into the recesses of your topography

is not allowed on television

they say that no two sets of ear folds are alike. that each one has a unique “fingerprint” profile to the exact pattern of rolled cartilage bunched up in soft ridges -much like what the lifework of rivers leave upon the shifting face of the earth.

but i can’t help in
thinking that
we alone hold
a
perfectly matching set
of soupcans
in the whistling dark of this tree-house
night

and if
ever
the taught line go slack,
let it bring comfort still, to the last brushing-up
against the expertly crafted sinew of your word-worlding
throat

like.a call from inside the house
their          prickling
    sediment
  deposit
upon
              her.chordate lineage.its
                  taxonomy.it’s
                    telling time. an
   

e x h u m a t i o n     of
    pores:
       pathways


                     she,      the
=part.hungry
    receptacle

         as
.they rake all delicacies
                            // pressed        
        backwards \

as willing substrate

in howls
in smoke signals           and
in trembling lungs.

starving, it swallows her offerings_
licking at wounds with certain intent
   as easily
as the lapping up of these gleaming beads      
         caught running, with
         equal      deliberation

there were uncounted, beautiful things
housed in scuffed plastic bins, clicked shut tenuously
in a perfectly harmonized disarray of
                       continuation

and i’ll never forget going through those treasure boxes
with a wonder

both somber and
rapturous

it’s nestled in deep :
that thing that was
planted
then

it’s like marrow, but older
here.
carrion don’t reach it, even in  flaunting
  it’s most disemboweled humiliation-walk





heeding.blacksoilmemorymothermoist.promisesstill
         gemming
         away structures for later-
      realization.beneaththeforced
chastity:
of:::::::::::­
:::::::frost


gleaming hot
carcass.,:://:/:/:/:., ,.teasing a thawed word,
if only to satisfy the
aching, fetishized spit
of our.snarling.smiles”:;::;:”
inside.the                        enc­ircled
p l a t t e r.  world
bending, wordless giants_earnest to the
will of
windandicybondage

creak away in the night

lap
lap
.lap
.lap

lap.
      ;

bone.grey blanket
under shines the night,
casting longer stares into the tangle of looming shiftsleepers.and.groaning.boughs

Respect people, but not necessarily their ideas. Treat others well, but never accept  fallacy by virtue of politeness, indifference, or short-term gains.

Do not reward bad behavior.


Fight for what you believe in, but do so honorably. Have hills worth dying on, but  choose the tallest ones you can.

Seek always to better the world for yourself and others. Be willing to endure temporary disadvantages in doing so.
Do not be willing to accept permanent disadvantages in doing so, unless you are in love, and you are sure.

Seek to understand the impact of your words and actions upon the people around you and the greater world. Run simulations in your head. Weigh the perceived consequences with compassion, but do not allow yourself to be rendered frozen or silent by them.

Everyone takes the short cut - and in doing so, renders the path congested, impassable, and ultimately unuseful.
Take the longer distance, do so quickly and with nimble but steady gate

Aim to be be patient on a geological scale-but never tolerant of cruelties.

Even if there are no absolutes in the taxonomy of good and evil, try to find and be what feels like good.  Don’t worry if that doesn’t bear aesthetic likeness to that which is commonly marketed as “the right thing.”
In so far as can be sustained, be a force of protection for those around you.

Know the difference between nice and kind. Nice is polite but allows for cruelty. Kind allows for rudeness but suffers no cruelty.

Take agency. Know your limits. Always seek to push them carefully, but deliberately - it will reduce the risk of being broken by them when your agency is removed later.

Expose yourself to things you disagree with. Disagree with things you are exposed to. Unconscious and non critical engagement with the principals behind group polarization is what creates the vast  majority of humanity’s self inflicted problems.

Tribalism is not always good.
Tribalism is not always bad.

Know the rules of the big invented games. Play these games to the extent of necessity only. Engage in critical thought like your life depends on it. It does. Know that the virtuous rule-followers of these games are food and fuckdolls for the gamemakers in the end.

that promises to be
sand
at the
end of the world .


water-known and
willing
- [ ] to erode
- [ ] into
- [ ] longing

not a hunter. a feeder of mouths.

not a coward. a feeling. a hope.

they do everything they can
to remove love
from Man’s life

why has the brink
always been
the
Muse.

Muses now.
Muses, now!

Pantheon ,
Panther,
Points in your name.

Power in your name.

the harder it is to prove that it happened
let alone, who did it.

at the separation
   between
ends

door chime
of the next Thing

hop on,
bunny-girl

hop on

the flame of your form amidst the
/unmapped_a
.       gemflash index in the walled-chamber-of-the-world

.cutting lime-slush pathways through
[my]
granite-lashes//thus far, unfluttered


makeshift:enduring

_dogs bark in the shape of unsure gunfire as motorbikes growl by and
rain pills-up the blackened planar earth//like an old.favorite gone through far too many washcycles// .breakfast at midnight, they say- ******* the air with hissing tailpipes in the cool repose of darkness.
⚠️begone, foul steeds,the dogheart demands - knowing well, the falsification of instinct in this place.
it’s a new brand image we worship now!it’s a new pantheon of thinly veiled threats!
everything that’s been promised!it’s good for it-but just
put it on the company
card


.

.

but understanding that doesn’t change how it feels.
all fads are
real

despite the futures that we are said to be robbed of