I almost choked
as the words forced their way up my throat.
They danced on my tongue, taunting the abyss,
and crashed into my teeth
before finally shattering the cold silence.
"*******."

BLEE
         EE
              EE
                   EED!
Dig that ******* razor DEEPER into your wrists.
Practice what you preach, and show us you're not afraid.
Don't just scratch with a pin and claim to slash them.
Practice what you preach. Practice what you preach.

Sweet dreams of you
sweat drenched
scented by natural perfumes
overload my senses
as I again inhale you...

breathing you in with open mouth
tasting the warmth of kisses
from muted swollen lips.

Tongue seeking to give you voice
            as sighs erupt into pleasures moans...

Back contorts
consorting with my fingers
tracing curves
wet from my touch.

Your hand gives me the heads up
and down
and up again
tongue lapping liguid kisses
teasing with tip
further scent from swollen bud...

your nails rake my shoulders
as you buck
an unbroken mare
fighting the bit
yet bit you were and nibbled grazed
teeth tentatively tugging
fleshy folds
as rivulets of passion coated my chin.

Sticky from your peach
I rise and share with you the taste
in our first oral kiss.

I feel the darkness slowly creeping in as I cry out for you embrace but my cries fall upon deaf ears. The darkness takes hold... I weep and plead for your attention and affection but still you turn your cheek and allow the darkness to take hold of me. The sickness that ails me has becomes my demise as the darkness drags me furthur into its lair. All I wanted was your embrace, to be held with true wand and compassion. Now that you have shunned me so fiercely, I fear this day the darkness has aquired my sanity once more.

Bittersweet nights,
Echoing slumber.
Leaving behind all the
Brightness and wonder.


Darker than it was before
Darker than I knew
Swallowing the empty room
Your slipping out of view


Deeper into this I know
Farther than before
I'll miss you as you'll miss me
Happiness what we'll fall for


This is how
it has to be
You know it
So do I


The end of "us"
Is where we are
It's time to say goodbye

Pressure released
until the morning
When she opens her eyes
to different problems
Crawling across him to get out of bed
she looks in the mirror
Mascara under her eyes
And eyeliner smudged
Out to her temples
Asking
who is this person
Looking back to the bed
Is that me
She grimaces
at his open-mouth snoring.
Her momma would be ashamed.
She cleans her face
Brushes her teeth
Goes back to bed
Because the only people awake
At 6AM
Are the women just like her.
Laying her head on his chest
She comforts herself,
no one will know
Poor girl.
She doesn’t know
that by 2 in the afternoon
word will spread,
and everyone will know.

And it's hard to breathe
It's so hard to speak
I use my anger as a sheathe
That covers my streak
Of pain and suffering
I can't help but contemplate
That all of my acting
Is helping the ones I hate
I want to be free of this
This bond that holds me
I want to feel bliss
And wouldn't you agree
That depression is a ***
When you know too much
Then depression is a slum
That holds you like a crutch
A crutch that is broken
A crutch that will fall
Unless you're out spoken
By friends who will call
Friends who will lift your spirits
Out of your downed state
You rise to appeal it
You break through the darkness
To arrive in the light
Only to be shut down again
Taken back to where you hate
Back to the place you put me
Back to me and my depression

Aching Sorrow Deepends the Pain
I just go out and cry in the rain
That way no one can see the tears
Those that I've cried for so many years
I just sit here thinking of you
Age seemed to change the best of you
You make my heart shine like the morning dew
YOu made me warm like a delicious stew
She, that woman you have married
Got rid of some sweetness that you carried

Standing in shattered glass,
none of the pieces left intact, my life
is not what it use to be , it never
was.

Living day to day hiding my
feelings form the ones i love. I
put on a good show, but none will
ever know! I'm a shattered mirror,
that i myself broke and
collected the bad luck!

Blocking anyone who tries to get
close, i feel myself falling slowly
in to a deep hole that i can
never escape form! Although I
try, I never really succeed.

Life is overrated at this point. I
defy society, not at my own will,
but it's who I am, but know one
can ever know!

Words,
sharpened on the tongue,
hurled to wound,
to pierce,
to destroy.

Words,
dripping with venom,
flung to sting,
to burn,
to consume.

Words,
syllables weighted and heavy,
wielded to pummel,
to beat,
to crush.

Words,
spoken by you,
who gave me love,
hope,
happiness.

Words,
your weapon of choice,
better than hands,
than belts,
than feet.

Words,
wet with disgust,
ready to pour into,
swirl around,
drown me.

Your words.