We all stand
Stand beside the fire
That lights the way
To each event do we feed the flame
Every word
Every look
Written in the flicker of the orange light
Dancing on the palm of my destiny

Lock me away
Inside these steel bars
Where I will fade
The loneliness in my patronizing heart
I can hear the voices in my head telling me to let go
But I told them no
I told them no

Darker as the roads go on
Silent, no sight of dawn
Walking while my legs grow weaker
The road gets longer and the walk gets steeper

Blood running from my torn feet
Still walking to where the road and the stars meet
Breaking but never truly giving up
Slower but never truly stuck

Closer but the curtains begin to close
A victory no one ever knows
Simple but so close to soul
Finally I am becoming whole

Tall or is it small?
The quite whispers of the trees
They all talk in circles
Going around my head
The trees spin
And I sit
Within it's quiet company
Sleeping against the ground
Stroking the pain of my heart
I feed it my tears
It takes all my strength not to break
Holding on to my love
Holding on to the trees
On to the roar of the water
To the melting snow
To the reawakening birds
And the beautiful song of the wind brushing against the leaves
Holding on to the warmth that the sun pours
Loving us all
I walk ahead
Just to listen
And there as the birds all watch down
I want to live instead

Dosing off into sober clouds
I am flying,
                            Where am I now?
So close I could taste the blue sky like water
Swimming below the sun
                                                       I do not burn
The soft voice of the wind singing against cold skin
Softly darting through my finger tips again and again
                                                                                 Yet i do not fall
  Trusting the Earth to hold me up
Push me into the heavens
As my memories fall behind me
I lose myself completely
Every Love I ever had
Every time I was ever sad
Every smile that fell on my face
Every person in my heart, and their place
My soul it flies away
But my body here will stay
My wings no longer beating
Keeping my eyes open, depleting
Hold that breath before death blows it away
Into the sunset as I cherish this day
Hold my memory to your heart
Keep the pieces of me a whole part
Goodnight Earth
I love you all for what it's worth
Let the sun soak me in
And let the new day begin

On
The Way
To Become The
Sacrifice Of The Worlds
Bloodied Hands, To Be Scarred
By The Angry Words Of The
Winds Snarling Words Hurled At My Head
Calmly I Shall Wait As The Rain Beats
At My Frozen Skin, Washing Me Of My Pain

The first kiss
The gift of bliss
The beat of my heart
How I can't bare to be a part
The way you laugh
I know your my other half
How you get so excited for Dr.Who
Just you
The names we call each other
It's not right with another
The way your eyes sparkle and shine
When I say your name I know your mine
How you own my beating heart
And you have since the start
The way you always make me see
The way you make me happy
How I look forwarded to seeing you
And going to school too
The way my friends all say we'll last
And me praying we will never be a past
How I thank god for you every night
And how I hold you tight
And we never fight
Because you're just right
This is how I know  
This is love

The waves of sleep lull over me
My eye lids so heavy
My blankets tucked around me
Keeping me warm
I say my prayers before I shut my tired eyes
The dark so quite around me
Pressing against me
Sometimes suffocating me
But tonight it sooths my soul
And gives me the strength to breathe

Broken
My friend
Do not pretend
It hasn't happened again
I lie my head here
Just to rest for a while
Realese a shaky breath and a tear
Had been hours since I've manage to smile
Just have to wait, the rain clouds will clear

Sun in the fresh skies
The air grows warmer by day
Soak in the soft breeze

There in your eyes
There was a beauty so divine
There was no explanation to why,
Your gorgeous eyes would shine
So bright like nothing I've seen before
And it outlined your soft face
That contributes to your beauty's soft allure
It has me spinning off into space
The way you lay by my side
And whisper in my ear
The way you duck behind your hands to hide
And say every word I long to hear
This, what I'm feeling, is a love without bounds
So pure and bright
Something rarely found
Laying plain in my sight

Bring to me the sweet sound and echoes of the piano
Which ring about the stands
Quietly they await the song
I start out slowly, a bit shaky at first
And I grow with power I grow with strength
With the sweet adrenaline running through my veins and my heart thump thump thumps
The beautiful sounds ringing threw unexpecting lips
And when I sing out the last word
They crowd erupts in a glorious applause

Along the trees that sit in a twisted path carved out just for me
The wind blows a big gust of air realesed from lungs that rustle the leaves
The stars overhead gently blanket the tree tops and give a brilliant sight
And then I hear them, their strong howls break out beneath the moonlight
And I smile as I walk the twisted path carved just for me
Looking and observing the blur of thick colored coats I can see
The thunder of their paws slapping the earths bed
It echoes, reverberates inside of my head
Oh my thunderous brothers howl the songs you sing
Howl, please howl and bring that joy to my heart you bring

All those that I have hurt, made suffered, and tore down
I am sorry, so sorry because I was the broken one
No excuses, no guise, no half assed disguise
It was me to scared to open
For my heart has been broken
So many times that its shattered
I didn't think it mattered
If I broke and I pushed
But now I can see
My eyes have been opened
And slowly I can heal
From the pain and the torture
I never allowed myself to feel
So I am sorry,
So sorry
To all of those I have hurt
To those who have cried
To those who I've lied to
To those who have tried to help
And I only pushed away
I beg of you that someday
You might forgive me
Because while I am still not whole yet
I am half way there
And while I still breathe heavy
From running all these years
I refuse to look at the times that are so dark
I refuse to look away
Today it's time I really grew up
Faced the crowd
And just pray

All alone in an empty room
Nothing left but the memories of when I had my best frIend
I don't know how we ended up here
I don't know but it's never been so clear
We made a mistake, dear.
And I see the broken glass in front of me
I see your shadow hangIng over me
And your face, I can see

Through the trees
I wIll find you;
I wIll heal the ruins left inside you
Cause I'm stIll here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now
I'm still here breathIng now
UntIl I'm set free.
Go quiet through the trees

I remember how we used to talk
About the places we would go when we were off
And all that we were gonna find.
And I remember our seeds grow
And how you cried when you saw
The first leaves show.
The love was pouring from your eyes.

So can you see
The branches hanging over me?
Can you see
The love you left inside of me?
In my face
Can you see?

Through the trees
I will find you;
I will heal the ruins left inside you.
Cause I'm still here breathing now
I'm still here breathing now
I'm still here breathing now
Until I'm set free.
Go quiet through the trees.

Cause you're not coming back
And you're not coming back
You're not coming back...
You're not coming back...

Take my breath as your own
Take my eyes to guide you home

Cause I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
And I'm still here...

But you're not coming back.
And you're not coming back.
Cause you're not coming back
Until I'm set free
Go quiet through the trees.

Dark, always dark
The walls are painted by blood
So scared as the brilliant red
Drips in an uneven path
Stopping at my shaking legs
Slightly aware of my freshly sliced wrist
Everything begins to fade out to grey
I want to pass out
But the voices in my head screams
Telling me to open my eyes
Write the lies on the wall
Repent for your sins
It screams in my head
And as I push at it
Trying to escape
My skin tears open slowly
This time it's me whose screaming
Begging, pleading
Write the lies on the wall
Inside my head they scream
I want to move but the pain hold me immobilized
My eyes begin to bleed
I might just explode
As my head throbs
And my skin breaks
Thank god I woke up

Tell me I am a monster
Tell me I destroy
Go ahead
I've heard it all before
I break those that get too close
Pray I don't get you too
Run while you still have a chance
I'm just **poison

I am so broken
As I bleed
This time pain is all I can feel...
I need help
Yet I can't see to find my way out
I should've turned back years ago
Now I'm alone
*And the darkness is cold
And this life is getting old

Walking along a path yet
*I am so very lost

You make me want to be someone better
You give me reasons to smile
Sometimes I think you deserve more
Before I think that this is worth it all
You can take my heart, please take my soul
Because without you I would never be whole
I've fallen into the cracks that spelt out love
A feeling so overpowering it rang above
I think I'd die without you
I finally realize what it feels like to give in your all
I'm giving you my everything
Please don't leave
I just might die
I'm listening to our song
And as I listen to the lyrics I cry
Because I finally understand why it's ours
I finally realize why your mine

The sunlight of the fading day melted
Breaking off into a starry sky
Sometimes I wish I could disappear
Into nothing but the stars
So bright and beautiful
So beautiful

There's someone else inside of me
Alone in there I hear it breathe
It's me, but a different side you see
It awakens and destroys the weak

Eyes open to the purest red
All the innocence gone its fled
Full of rebillious thoughts in my head
The old me could be gone and dead

It laughs it breaks it taunts
It takes it steals it wants
Beware of it, it haunts
Just give in to it

Torn by the ***** of thorns
Surrounding my garden bed
I sleep here, and silently mourn
My soul that has been dead

I weep into my dirtied hands
Stained by the blood of my own heart
I know that no one will truly understand
The pain of which I wish to part

My tears are black just like my soul
They smear across my face
Inside I knew I'd never been whole
Used words and meaningless things in its place

This emptiness inside, will there ever be a cure?
I used to sit up at night and wonder
There was no way I could ever be sure
In all my ignorance I'd blundered

Because beyond the pain and the tears
I looked right past your face
You where standing there defeating my fears
And it was you who would fill that place

I owe my heart to you
My angle
I owe my life to you too
Because in the end it was your love that filled
My empty soul in the end

Inside your embrace
I feel at home
Looking at your face
I finally stopped feeling alone
I can finally breathe without the pain
I can feel my heart being repaired
I can love you without shame
Knowing you love me back, that we share
Listening to our wild plans as we grow older
To live a life we can only dream
But I told her
That nothing is as hard as it seems
Just pull away the fear
Take a step into the light
Keep close what you hold dear
And never give up the fight
We can be who we want to be
We can live a dream, make it reality
We can overcome the dark that thrashes like an angry sea
Turn simple things into beauty
We just have to try

The raindrops fall and splash with sound
I watch out my window as they hit the ground
The sky's are grey, behind the clouds they're blue
The sun might not shine, but in my sight is you
And that's enough for me
That's all I need to see
Your eyes sparkle in the light
The color blinds me its so bright
Like the reflection off the sea
Like the lovely salty breeze
Just stay, and the weather won't matter

Clouds form in the untouched skies
Rain falls as the angles cry
Tormenting those below
There's no sun, it won't show
Disbelief and dispair
Grey winds through brown hair
Broken grounds all littered by tears
Twisted trees all soaked in fear
Goodbye, goodbye summer haze
Say goodbye to them days
The cold snow and thunder storms
I'll miss the days when it was warm

In the deep of the forest
There lays a cave
No man, no women
Came out of that grave
They say evil lurks
Beyond the drench and the smell
They say that cave
Is the gateway to hell
Cocky adittudes and ignorant smirks
Never lasted long
Every turn every step
Could be the wrong
I stepped foot in that cave
And lost the other
The evil there
Is evils mother
So heed my word
Don't go in on dare
Because you will die
By the hands of evil there

Just breathe
As you sob
Just breathe
And lift your head
Bury the pain
Don't fall again
Don't bleed to feel sane
Keep faith
Even if your not ok
Smile and wait
It will go away
Like the monsters beneath the bed
This pain is in your head
You have to let it go
Even if dosent feel right
Even if your heart fights
Just breathe
It'll keep you alive

I want to love you
But I can't
Your my best friend
And though we call ourselves
Boyfriend, and Girlfriend
I don't feel it
I love you
But I'm not in love with you
It was out of angry emotion
I acted rash
I should've known
I'd be the one to crash
But when I see her
My heart beats
Inside I feel complete
Yet she's out of my reach
And I've pledged myself to you both
But it's time I say goodbye
I don't know why
But I can't be in love with you
And I cry
Because I try
Because I feel so wrong
Like a bad ending to a song
I don't know how to say goodbye
I don't know how to give up
I've been a failure all my life
But this seems to leave me torn
My depression leaves me worn
I haven't slept in three days
I've been thinking
Of you
And how I wish you'd leave
It's easier that way
If you don't stay
I should be alone
Like always
Always alone

The skies are dark
And my heart is sad
My screams echo
And only make the neighbors mad
My tears mean nothing
The never did
Slowly they unravel
My feeling I hid
I am bare
Before the crowd
This pain won't cease
And the roars are loud
I'm falling faster
Than I have before
I pray you save me
Before they seal the doors
Can you hear me?
I'm screaming loud
Can you hear me?
Above the crowd?
Please I lay here
Unshakle me
I'm dying slowly
As you watch me bleed
I'm not a monster
Though I feel I am
Because any things better
Than being human

The stars are prettiest
From the spot on the porch
The one that looks out at the snow covered tress
The light above the door
Swings in the Wisconsin breeze
Silent and cool
I sit in nothing but my grandpas oversized sweat shirt draped over my shoulders
It smells of whiskey and cigarettes
But for some reason I close my eyes
And draw in a deep breath
The door creaks open
And a rough ragged voice calls my name
Asking me if I was going to stargaze like a love struck ***** all night
Only a little longer
Tell my heart feels somber
And I can get on my feet again
I say smiling

Dare me to take a step
Dare me to tell my secrets
But just be warned
They're deep
And dark
In the bottom
Of my heart
Dropped from every level
To erase them from my being