Love begins with a Smile,
Grows with a Kiss,
And ends with a Teardrop.

Feelings i still have  yet to understand,
Fellings that made me feel good about myself,
The love i needed,
The love that felt so good,
But, was it love to you too?
I cant force you to love me,
Did i make you feel good about yourself?
Do you love me?
Is what we have love?
Did i give you the love you needed?

I feel so numb,
I rush to my room,
The frantic thoughts in my head start to resume,
I rush to my desk and look all around,
Until a rusty razor is what I found,
I grab it with one hand, and take a seat n my bed,
As I lift up my sleeve to reveal what lays ahead,
Pale white lines that make creases in my skin,
They're there to remind me, I'll never win,
I want to feel something so I render my arm,
To the vicious temptations of committing self harm,
First I imagine the pain I will feel,
And I press down the razor to make it more real,
I imagine the red liquid that will flow from my vein,
And I wonder if I'm truly going insane,
I close my eyes tight and clench my fist,
As I drag my old razor across my wrist,
A raging pain, I remember it all too well,
As I bite back my lip to keep back a yell,
I open my eyes and look down in dismay,
As the blood keeps running without delay,
I know I'm in pain but at least I feel,
And besides in time it's going to heal,
I go to the bathroom and try my best,
To patch up my wound and clean up my mess,
I rinse off the blade and return it to it's place,
So if I need it again it's there just in case,
I lay in my bed and take one more glance at my arm,
Just another day failing victim to self harm

Tear open my chest and you'll find
a miniature you sitting there
clawing onto the walls
trying to get out
not going
anywhere but.

There was a time
When breathing simply happened
When sidewalks had no end
When stars were something kissable
When the night was a speckled blanket.
When laughing got you drunk
When there was always something like sugar
When dreams came with both the moon and the sun
When headlights led to promises
When rain meant feet to dance.
When daisies grew inside your head
When the moon was still a mystery
When candy stores were everywhere
When teeth were like a prize.
There was a time
When we were so alive.
But that was before the shadows came.