she used to be okay.
always a smile on her face and
she talked with a sweet voice,
which is something i don't want to under state,
and she never really cared that she was
40 pounds overweight.

but now as she lays on the beach
and no boys and no girls look her way
she feels invisible, even while she dreams of
being able to tell her parents that she
might be gay.

her parents talk about her figure
and how she'll never compare to how her
sister looked when she was her age.
thin, toned legs and a stomach with abs.
after all, who wants to date a girl
with flabs?

she has a blog dedicated to the thin girls
who make her feel so bad,
it makes her feel less,
it makes her feel sad.

if only she counted calories and
if only she could fit in that size two,
maybe she's be the perfect daughter that
her parents wish they knew.

but even as she drinks a sprite and
takes all her bites in spite she knows that
if she was skinny then
everything would be alright.

all she needs a push and a pro ana friend and
maybe she can be the perfect daughter
again. She can't like girls and she
must skip dinner, by the end of the year her
bones and boyfriend will
show that she is a winner.

-r.a.

Stop For Me....
(Echo)Stop For Me...........
Stop Lying Me
Just Let Me Go
Just Let Me Leave
I said, Ohh... I remember when you use to be mine
I said, Ohh..... Everything use to be fine
But then the green to red
You chose him instead
After You said Over and Over Again
Our Love Would Last To The End.
Now He Left You Again
Dropped Your Heart Out His Hand
Just Like You Left Me,
Oh The Irony....
(Chorus)
He Let You Go
Now you want me
But I've Changed This Time
I've Changed My Mind
You Say Your Heart Wants Me
But I Know Its a Lie
Stop For Me....
(Echo)Stop For Me...........
Stop Lying To Me
Just Let Me Go
Just Let Me Leave
Now Lets Take  A Look See
At Before You Left Me
I Gave You Everything
Even Put Hot Water In Your tea
Then You Got Greedy
You Wanted More Then Me
You Found Him And
Thought You Found A Diamond Ring
When He Really Came Out A $.25 Machine
(Chorus)
He Let You Go
Now you want me
But I've Changed This Time
I've Changed My Mind
You Say Your Heart Wants Me
But I Know Its a Lie
Stop For Me....
(Echo)Stop For Me...........
Stop Lying To Me
Just Let Me Go
Just Let Me Leave
Now You See Me In Your Dreams
Your Hearts Missing Me
You Want Me To Love You
But I've Learned Not To Trust
To Not Love
I'm No Longer Loves Fool.
I Won, You Lose
(Chorus)
He Let You Go
Now you want me
But I've Changed This Time
I've Changed My Mind
You Say Your Heart Wants Me
But I Know Its a Lie
Stop For Me....
(Echo)Stop For Me...........
Stop Lying To Me
Just Let Me Go
Just Let Me Leave

Goodbyes are near.
As the wind chimes through that corner
Snapshots slide through my eyes,
And all I can see is you.
That you that comes in many form and colors
That you who held my hand,
You who cried my tears.
It was you who held me up
When I wrapped myself in sheets.
Those sheets of despair, denial and hopelessness,
Disappointment at myself and the circumstances.
How it all turned out.
But you were there, and you, and you, and you.
Reaching out to me in ways I never expected.
A flow of gratitude fled through me,
As I felt loved like never before.
True love.
Which is to see us, the broken ones,
Covered in mud on the floor,
Others would've chosen to shove me deeper,
You chose to rescue me.

Distractions swift us into
Lands of unimaginable self-absorption.
where faceless people
Sit,
Walk,
Talk,
Live,
Beside us
But we don't care.

We're too afraid
To care about
Serendipity,
About the odds.

Throw it(fear) down
The deepness
Of the ocean.
Where it will wash
Itself
into
Community.