am i wrong to feel as if i don't need to live

To the girls who are secretly so broken
You WILL be alright
I know you have scars on your soul
Maybe your heart
Possibly your wrists
None of this is your fault
And even if you think it is
Let it go
Not that you can, that easily
But try
I know you are broken
I know you're not okay
Especially when people ask how you are and you answer "I'm fine"
When what you really mean is "I'm alive"
But what do you really care about your own survival anymore
Well I just want you to know
There is beauty in broken glass
And to me
There is immeasurable beauty
In broken girls
So don't you ever forget
You cannot be defined by pain
You're too beautiful for that
Stay strong, broken girl
Nothing is ever really broken

I took me 365 days to finally think im going some were
and know im back to the start trying to find my way back to you all over again
I will come back I promises
I will forgive you every time
I will date other guys wishing they were you
but I will tell everyone I hate you so they don't realise im still in love with you

even is they scream  for me to stay
even as the beg me to breath and say alive
this world will never change
it is still selfish, full of hatred
even if someone loves me
even if I love someone
this world will never change
it is still selfish, full of hatred
if I should Spread my wings and finally  take flight
even this wont make the world right

last year went so fast with
so many fights
tears shead
days full of hate.

"I was way to brocken it lasted years "
"way to many people went to help me up"
"but every last one pushed me down further than before"

goodbye last years heartbreack
goodbye last years tears **

GOODBYE 2014

I didn't wont to believe I let you use me,
I don't wont to admit my dads not around ,
I don't wont to believe that I would run off with you,
I don't wont to believe in this life no more its all hurtful.