Dreams are bad.
They will drive you mad.  
Dreams are not true.
Dreams are out to ruin me and you.
Dreams tell what the mind cannot process.
Dreams are but the minds recess.
Dreams are ugly and tell the truth.
I want dreams that lie.

The words were said
In drunken lullaby
With fear that was tamed
By the whiskey's rye

In the morn it was replayed
Fear creeps in
From this drunken lullaby
Dread of words said on whiskey rye

Unable to take back
Not knowing if want
The whiskey's rye
**** drunken lullaby

It's all on the table
If see it this way you must
No longer there this whiskey rye
To comfort a drunken lullaby

Laughter echoes the walls
Pitter-patter of feet on the floors
An empty bowl here
A discarded sock there
Our dogs lay upon their backpacks
Waiting and wanting
To no longer hear only echoes
My Friday cannot come soon enough

whispers
Calling softly
Caressing my soul
Shivers race down my spine
Heart imploding
whispers
Eyelash kisses
Cascading down my body
Soft sighs from my body
whispers
Tell me more
Sing it upon my being
Raise me to new heights
Don't let me fall
Let your whispers* catch me

Cotton fields in our mouths
Quenched with a kiss
Rain soaked ground
Or is it the bed
Flower petals opening up
Relishing in the dew
Or was it your stamen
Revitalizing in the rose
Apples in your hands
Unable to bite through
But yielding to your grasp
Hungry we were
A meal set before us
Dates, apples, steak, rosehips
Adam's Ale our drink
Pulled apart and snapped back
Ivy entwined together
Our bodies and souls sated for now

~~~~~~~~

"You my dear are beautiful
As beautiful as
The sun rises
The sun sets
The moon cannot cast
Her full glow
For even she knows
She is no match
For the beauty you bestow"

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The moon shines softly on her skin
The stars show brightly in her eyes
But you will not see this
For to her, you are blind

Who is this woman staring back at me
There is something different about her
If you look just right, you can see her teen self
a childlike quality still
But then it's gone
Replaced with one who is poised
Who has been thru hell and back
Stronger than she ever was
subtle grey streaking her auburn hair
Eyes wise yet scared, scarred
But there is a light
One that has been absent for so long
It is now there
*it has returned home

Oh how you destroy her
Body and soul
She left you twice
just let her go
She loves you with the deepest of pain
She believes the skies mimic her memory of you when it rains
Time and again though you draw her back in
Words of love and how it could have been
Again this time her strength will fail
Believing that maybe this time,
she'll get her happy ending to her fairytale.

Fate is cruel
Fate laughs at our despair
I want to ***** slap fate!
The evil ***** that she is
Fate brought us together      
Fate pulled me away
But in fates cruel sadistic nature
once again brought me back to you
You accepted fates sensual tease, but she has more in store for us
From her house of horrors she lashes out
She decided to misconstrue our perceptions.  
This time fate pulls you away.

******* fate!

It's February and there's no snow
No heavy coats
Shorts are out in show

The mesquite are blooming
Winter's at an end
Temperatures warming
Supposed to be eighty this weekend

I do not believe
We will have a quiet spring
Once the rains come
Tornadoes will be the thing

That's fine, I will be waiting
I need a storm or two
It'll match my heart's direction
Since it's compass is now askew

Back burner?
No babe, I'm more than that
I'm the flame in your chest
The spark in your eyes
*I'm the bonfire that will ignite your soul

Ooh! What fun! What fun!
It's new! Exciting! Intriguing!
It's scary, nervous, but Tantalizing!
Forbidden,  that's what we've been told
Forbidden to have fun within these folds
Ha! ha! ha! I laugh at that!
I'm just having fun...
Letting the butterflies soar!
Out of my stomach and into my throat
Enjoying the feeling......

FREEDOM!

They say that when you say something you didn't mean, it's a Freudian Slip.
I sure hope if you ever say
I Love You
that it's not.
For that would truly shatter my being.

Go gentle with me, it's my first time
No, I'm no ******
But with you, I'm straight from the vine
Caress me tender, but keep it rough
Don't break my heart, just scruff it up
Don't let my tears fall down like rain
Let them instead come out in blood from your veins
Don't let me sob into pillows breast
Let me die peacefully inside your chest
Be gentle with me and yet so strong
Keep trying to show me why we are wrong

He comes to her in moonlights glow
Wraps her in his arms  
  
              it is so cold....

Protection he bestows
Yet she cannot feel his skin    

              so cold, she's shivering....  

Only the feeling from within
  He is her forever mate
At least in her minds sake  

              her breath crystallizes, frozen  

She cannot know if he is truly there
Or if her mind just fabricated him to help deal with what she cannot bear.
  
              so cold, dark, shivering,  can't see

For he is only a ghost that shall forever leave with the dawn
With the break of the sun he disappears
*gone

It's three am, she just cannot sleep
Not anymore can her peace she keep
  
          the room, so cold

She is fine during the day
When the sun keeps all death away
At evenings twilight is when she feels

        the fragrance of his cologne is so strong

Everything around her reminds her, she cannot deal
His presence is stronger every night
She knows she can no longer fight

         she feels cold lips upon her cheek

She draws a bath, but not for pleasure
It is only now to help her in this final measure

a cold, chilling presence helps her grab the knife

The knife she wields glints off the tile stone                        
Soon she will, this knife hone

She slips out of her robe
Hurries into the water, for this bathroom has become cold

   "You're here waiting for me darling?" She asks aloud
            
She poises the knife on the underside of her wrist

       she feels a cold hand help her press

She presses hard, the blade slicing easily
embracing deaths kiss
She hopes that her soul can take the cost

    "Yes my love! Come to me for eternity!"

As her blood on the stone makes a crimson gloss
The world becomes dark, still

        so dark, but she is no longer cold

The stone floor has had its fill
She opens her ethereal eyes
It is not him by her side
      
         "Who are you?!"

He is not there,  her forever mate

         "I am now your lover Mon charie."    

Instead she stands next to her demon

          eyes now filled with terror

In front of Hell's gate

     *He has now claimed his eternal bride

And then he was gone
As suddenly as he came
Stole your heart
Expanded your mind
That smile on your face
It went with him
The warmth he gave
Replaced with winters cold
Your mind in shambles
How and why
The what did I do's
All because
He came in as a tornado
And as the sun set in the western sky
Turning the earth to muted colors
He took your light
Gave you shades of grey
And he was gone

She sits on her bed clothed in your shirt
Though covered, she feels exposed
She dare not look at the floor
There she will see your ghost

Glass litters the floor
Everywhere she would walk
Pictures of you and her
Grabbed and thrown from the walls

Sobs rack her body
All while she digs at her chest
She attempts to pull out the jeweled dagger
The one you so soundlessly, delicately left

Slowly you pressed it in
Little by little, inch by inch
When you walked away,
You gave it one last good wrench

Her eyes cry out her life blood
From the dagger you so deftly placed
Buried too far in to remove
Blood flows as tears instead

There is a light
alone
in this room of dark
Peircing through
attempting
Brighter it shines
As hands caress flesh
glances
Stolen admist the light
shadows
Play upon the walls
Art in motion
light
Glowing sacredly
Two combine
enter
Souls join into one
gone
Darkness pushed away
Stars swirl in the galaxy
supernova
Vibrations ripple
the sun replaced
From a lone
*light

The moon has gone
Sun now on the path
The stars of dreams
Vanished for the blue
The dreams she had vivid
Wanting to remember
The suns rays have taken them too
soon.

They say the grass is greener on the other side
I could say that's true..
but my grass, in my lawn
is as green as the lush forest
soft as moss
fragrant as the rose
sweet as honeysuckle
My across the street neighbor's
theirs is brown
desolate as the desert
rough to bare feet as rocks
stagnant as a dead pond
The grass may be greener on the other side
not theirs though
someone else's maybe
*but not as green as mine

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

Claimed, intimate, good
Body is worn out from you
Lust fed full for now

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

Her wings are no longer as white as they once were, dinged so with her life.
Her halo does not sit as straight anymore
Sitting askew, more left than right
Her eyes still shine just as bright though
Surprising through all she's endured

His wings are as black as midnight
They shine like the onyx of his eyes
He lost his halo years ago
He's caused so much strife
He's played the world like Loki
Always looking on where next to strike

They saw eachother one day
An innocent passing of ways
Their souls didn't want to continue on
They wanted to stop and gaze

She, her ever stubborn self,
made the first move
He, his all so Loki ways,
tried hard to not follow her allure

But he was drawn to her halo of light
As askew as it set
He agreed to their first meeting
One neither would forget

Time and time he tried pushing her away
Give up though she would not
She saw lightness in his wings, in his eyes
she was caught

She knew that his halo was not lost
Just placed somewhere hidden deep
She was determined to find it
Along the way his secrets she'd keep

She found his halo one night
As tarnished as it was
She tried to place upon his head
Even asking for help from above

He had been attempting himself to set her halo straight
To once again make her wings pure as snow
To have her see that sinner she is not
He sees her as his saint

They finally gave into each other, one night without fear
His halo finally upon his brow
Unlike hers, his remains tarnished, never clear

His eyes still as black as ever
They'll never lose that hue
His demons will forever remain inside
Though peace in her green ones he finds

Her wings never quite fully recovered
But not as dingy as before
His wings as black as midnight, themselves changed too
No longer dingy and black as onyx
They both now carry true passions hue

Hang on just a little longer
You've got this
Hang on and breathe
Life will work it's way out
You've just got to step back and believe
So hang on
Hang on to the good memories
Hang on to the hope of a brighter future
Hang on to love when you find it
Hang on, this too shall pass.

I danced with the devil tonight
It was soft, sultry, and sweet
I danced with the devil tonight
So lite on our feet
I danced with the devil tonight
He let me be free
I danced with the devil tonight
Oh how close he held me
I danced with the devil tonight
Long, hard, and deep
I danced with the devil tonight
In the morning will he
*forget me...