I have cried a thousand tears.
I am now dry
You said you wanted me to hurt
You have done your aim
For my love for you will not cease
But yours for me now, in the breeze
I am now but a husk
A shell of what I was
For I have let you destroy me
You broke down my walls
So long ago
I felt secure with you guarding them
Then you turned
And I am now empty
Your love for me
Now forever in the breeze

And her tears fall down like a waterfall from green eyes
Chest aching in pain unsurpassed
As she sits on her couch
No pictures on the wall
Cold metal art instead
She realizes
She is truly alone
No one there to comfort in her time of need
She let so many things take away from her
No friends
No family
She is truly alone
crying waterfalls

If you tell me to go, I'll go
I won't look back
As I close the door
And with heaving sighs and shaky breaths
I'll still love you
Until my death

If you tell me to stay, I will
Together we'll face those mountains
We'll make them hills
And until my dying day
Loyal to you
I will stay

Her tears roll down her face
As grains of sand off an eroding beach
Falling into the abyss
Of her pillow, the ocean
The counter ticking away
attempting to keep up
Unable to do so
"Enough!" he yells
Unable to take her sadness anymore
He reaches into her heart
Trying to cut away the black
But he is unable
Every piece he removes
Another takes its place
And her tears continue
*to fall down her face

The words were failed said
Leaving my heart an ache
Mind blowing with possibilities
My soul crying in disbelief
And true to my nature is
I make excuses
For words left unsaid
Defending you to my own heart
My mind screaming
"Is not lost, his heart!"
The sun now gives way
Attempting to rid the night's agony
My heart still aches
With words left unsaid
I pray today
My heart be stilled

Who is this woman staring back at me
There is something different about her
If you look just right, you can see her teen self
a childlike quality still
But then it's gone
Replaced with one who is poised
Who has been thru hell and back
Stronger than she ever was
subtle grey streaking her auburn hair
Eyes wise yet scared, scarred
But there is a light
One that has been absent for so long
It is now there
*it has returned home

In the end
we die
This journey in life
it's all lies
We are never truly connected
everyone leaves
You're always alone
*inside...

I smell him on the edge of a storm
When the sky is pregnant with electricity
The thunder resonates thru
As though he is speaking to me
The whisper of the wind
His promise of love
His scent of the earth and water
Envelopes me when the rain falls
So when I am without him
On a stormy night
My soul cries in loneliness
I cannot touch the storm
Only have brief caresses of his soul

The cicadas are gone
The story has been told
And so she waits
To see what now will unfold

In the dim of twilight
With the air turning cold
She sits with bated breath
To see if her world does fall..

whispers
Calling softly
Caressing my soul
Shivers race down my spine
Heart imploding
whispers
Eyelash kisses
Cascading down my body
Soft sighs from my body
whispers
Tell me more
Sing it upon my being
Raise me to new heights
Don't let me fall
Let your whispers* catch me

Tonight we watch a rival to match all rivals
One of blood lust and rainbows
These two have been at it since the beginning of birth. Forever at the others throat. Let's meet our competitors!!!

In the blue corner weighing in at 114#'s with a reach as long as her career
She's the stomper of dreams, the instigator of fights, it's IIINNNNSSEECCCUUURRIIITTIIEESS!!!!

And in the red corner also weighing in at 114#'s with a reach half an inch shorter
She's the rainbows after the storm, the swell of joy in your chest, the giver of forgiveness, it's
HHHAAPPPIIIINNNEESSS!!!

The referee for tonight's match is neutral. Let's hear what he has to say to the opponents

"Alright ladies. We discussed rules in the locker room. Hitting below the belt is illegal. The heart is frowned upon but in the game. Let's fight as fair as possible"

"I saw that shady, did you? That gleam in insecurities eyes when neutral said the heart. That woman has it out for happiness "

"I did see that fair. Happiness' eyes got round as saucers. She knows that insecurity is gonna pull a fast one. Want to bet that it's 'he's not really in love'?"

"I don't know shady, I'd hate to think she'd pull one so low. He did just profess his love to her"

"She could pull that 'he's still in love with the missus. That he really doesn't want to let go' "

"**** shady"....

TO BE CONTINUED....

The words were said
In drunken lullaby
With fear that was tamed
By the whiskey's rye

In the morn it was replayed
Fear creeps in
From this drunken lullaby
Dread of words said on whiskey rye

Unable to take back
Not knowing if want
The whiskey's rye
**** drunken lullaby

It's all on the table
If see it this way you must
No longer there this whiskey rye
To comfort a drunken lullaby

You have changed
So have I
There's still a little devil
Lurking upon your insides
As such an angel
Still plays within mine

We have been playing checkers
Heaven's been playing chess
We have to do some bad
For good to pass

Desire is as though
A railroad spike has run me thru
Desire for the touches of our skin
Burns also in you

Heaven is starting
To tip it's hand
Maybe it's showing
I for you, you for me
Together in the end

She is but one facet
Sitting upon her chaise
Contemplating
the utmost unimportance of life

One piece
In this puzzle
This chasm
She strives to survive

She sips upon the liquid
Burns fire within
Attempting to quench her thirst
Of her favorite sin

Longing and heartache
The ineptitude she feels
Forever rolls around her
Her dreams stand still

You're winning you know
Pushing her away
She's tiring of this fight
So many times
She's been pushed away in life
She doesn't give up easily
If she sees something
There for to fight
She believes in you
An "us" and a "we"
She's still clinging on
To that so called dream
But she's losing her grip
Her will giving
Starting to slip
You're winning you know
So stop this pushing
Or tell her goodbye
Don't make her look a fool
She's been there
Too many times

Each time you don't answer
Everytime reassurance isn't given
Her soul tears
With each kiss
Every soft word
Stiches piece it back
But lover of hers
It is becoming harder
The balance of hurt and kind
Is not equal
The edges of her soul
Are becoming thinner
Harder to piece together
They are fraying
From all that you do
That is malign

She loses herself
When she looks into his eyes
A vast storm in the universe
Holds her spellbound
Mesmerized
The collapsing of stars
The birth of new
All in his eyes
She has the VIP view
Entranced in the darkness
The planets play
A series of falling stars
Each a wish from her
Praying one will come true
She dares not look away
Intense is this night
She sees dancing in his eyes
She yearns for a kiss
To intensify the heavens she sees
Captured in his gaze
Mesmerized

It glares at me
Begging to look for a promise
One that will never be
"i won't leave you, ever"
Empty words
Fell upon desperate ears
Recourse is pain
Of a promise
One never to be gained

My heart cannot take anymore
You know not what you do
When you walk out the door

All my calm and peace
Watching you go
Floats away upon the breeze

They start to tease my inner mind
The fears and insecurities
When you leave me behind

So do not leave my soul
It is still healing
Keep holding me when you go

She's too high
Petrified of heights
Standing on the ledge
Too high

It's too easy
Where's the work
Somethings not right
Too high

A little hiccup
A jarring to her senses
Still standing
Too high

A shoe has dropped
Off her foot it came
The other teetering
She's waiting

Too high

I lived a hundred lives that day
I cried a river of tears
I fought hundreds of battles
In that instant of a hundred years

I felt the pain of the earth that day
Pain a thousand fold
I sung hallelujah on high
When you I got to behold

I died a thousand deaths that day
I know I'll die a thousand more
When I don't know if you're ok
My mind opens all dark doors

Imagination
from the darkest recess of the mind

Poetry
from the bleeding of the soul

Beauty
from the pain of living

Killing the reflection*
*from the mainstream of mankind

I look into the mirror
Trying to see who I am
Who I have become
lost
distorted
There is a shadow
One of my former self
I catch fleeting glances
Of this shadow
I attempt to capture it
Place it back on me
For where all the world can see
She is in there
Young
Free spirit
No ties to anything or anyone
Struggling to break free
I can hear her
Screaming, pleading
Feel her
Attempting to re-emerge
Through the distortion
*that life has made me