At the sound of you
My demons shrivel and hide
You my emotional constant
When you present
I am at peace
But you always leave
You love me
I can feel it to the bone of my soul
You care about me
But do not recognise my demons
You do not understand my suffering
Why you have to leave
Why you always leave

I struggle to breath
Want to sleep but not tired
I want to talk but nothing in mind
I strain myself to be present
Spacing out my favourite thing
If im not present i cannot hurt
The source unclear
No one understand
Foreign language i have become
My silence unreadable
I crawl through the sewerage pipes of my mind
Desperatly trying to find the source
All this turmoil need a source
I wish you could hold me forever
Squeeze so tight my pieces fit
But when you let go
I fall
Brake and shatter
When you hold me i feel safe
I feel anew for the fight
But you always leave
You leave to rejoin your happy life
I realise the empty my life is
I hate my life

Unicorn rider
My craziness awarded
one time deal name renew
Behind hand whispers
She is off balance
What is wrong with her
Never invite again
I see ...... in their eyes
Your eyes wonder
You dont realise
You cannot read my scares
You do not see the bleeding wound
I need to escape my mind
I need to zone out
My depression is slowly devouring me
I am unable to help myself
The medisyne not working
I need you
Your presence always bring comfort
Feeling safe and secure
Loved and wanted
Never **** or desired
Never **** and desired
Behind each snared remark
Behind each on the belt punchline
I lay truth as foundation
My mind the map

You do not love as i love
I crave you
You occupy my every thought
I wither in your absence
You show none of this
You love but not as i do
I make time
No matter how tired
Want you to feel a priority
You serve me excuses
I am saturated
You do not love as i love
I fear neglect
I fear me being forced on a shelf
A trophy covered in dust
Barefoot and pregnant....
Loss of independencr
Your mind is fickle at best
You love but not as i do
Forced to eat your decisions
You do not discuss future plans
You want me for children
You want my body
You do not see me
I love you love an idea of love

Seperation anxiety
Im so tired
Waking in the night
Shiffering with fear
Unable to calm my thoughts
Poetry my sounding board
No judgment
Pure freedom among artist im home

I respect your hustle
I support your hustle
But baby stay in touch
I serve you
Im rewarded with scraps
You want to be chased
But im no priority
You want your ego brushed
Mine you trample

People
My only regret
They use abuse manipulate discard
Trash
Never recycled
Companionship
My weaknes