sadness envelopes me.
sometimes i'm just sitting
and all of the sudden i feel
complete emptiness.
i don't feel anything
except the space between you and i.
and *i miss you

is it really worth to be alive for another year?
birthdays are always disappointment.
i don't feel like i should
celebrate me living.
and i hate
the fact that everyone else
is so happy about it.
can no one see that i don't want to
celebrate my birth?
i regret even coming here in the first place.
i want to lay on the ground and wait
for the rain to take me away.
i'm done.
happy birthday to me.
i just have to wonder

is it really even happy?

-k.m.

love is an ugly flame.
it burns your insides and you feel so hot
and excited.
it shows on your face when you blush.
i remember when you gave me such a flame,
but after all your mistakes and hurtful remarks,
you surely blew it out.
i am just an ember towards you
for you ruined me.
you cannot relight an unexisting candle
so please don't even try.

please don't try.

-k.m.

why would you just drop everything
and throw me to the flames
and crushed a my heart under your shoe.
i screamed out in pain
and you just turned around
and walked the opposite way.
you were my last hope for a new life
and you threw it back at my face.
i just wanted you to **** my mind
and make me feel nothing.
i bet you were always
searching for
something to make you numb.
sorry that i wasnt your
drug
and you werent addicted
to this one-sided love.
i guess i'm just sorry.
sorry that you felt you had to lash out at me in such a way
i am sorry.
but for now,
without you,

i'm where im supposed to be.
-k.m.